How did u do it? Are u in a better place mentally now, circumstances etc? That's the point I want to be and its tempting as fuck to see if this time it's possible to control.
From my teens through age 50 I was severely alcoholic by anyone's definition. I drank until I passed out, ran out, or got arrested. If I woke up with no booze left from the night before, I'd drink mouthwash, vanilla extract, or hand sanitizer to stop the shakes. Over the years I've had 4 DUIs and 20-something arrests for public intoxication. I've been to the ICU 3 times for alcohol poisoning and 5 times for DTs.
I've had several short periods of sobriety: 6 months here, 1 year there, my longest period of abstinence was 3 years. I always required medical detox and 28-day rehabs, which I've completed 7 times. If I took one sip of alcohol, within a week I'd be drinking as much or more than before.
During these years I also used and abused several other drugs, but alcohol was always my #1 drug of choice.
Around age 50 (after about a year of abstinence) I became addicted to opiates and didn't drink much, primarily because I was spending all my money on pills. Around 55 I discovered meth and that dominated my life for a couple years before I went back to opiates again. At this point I was drinking very little and very rarely.
About 3 years ago I got off the opiates using kratom, which I still use daily. I also smoke weed every evening. For a couple years now I've been able to drink 3 to 4 beers or glasses of wine every night while I smoke weed. I don't drink hard liquor. I don't get shit-faced and don't wake up craving a drink.
I have no idea why this is working for me.
I DO
NOT RECOMMEND THAT ANY SOBER ALCOHOLIC TRY THIS!
I'm just saying that it works for me and I'm sticking to it. You'd think that after all the suffering alcohol has caused me over the years I would be disgusted by the very thought of drinking. But no, I am still an alcoholic at heart.