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Happy birthday Spork!!!
If I could, I would bake you an awesome cake like this one:

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d'awwww thanks guys. I love both of those cakes and both of you so so much. <3 I spent most of the day chilling at home and relaxing, but that's what I wanted so it was a good day all in all. :)
 
i was just walking home and less then ten feet from a cross walk next to my place, that has a big yellow button on either side =D for pedestrians to punch/smack/kick/slap/push/hit to set off yellow lights over the street, which vehicles are to yield to allowing pedestrians to cross.

a girl on the other side of the road had set the lights off, an early 90's Subaru hatchback was yielding, but then, a new Mercedes SUV moving ~20mph for some reason did not yield - and smashed into the rear of the Subaru sending Subaru hardware flying.

the girl who was crossing, after a moment of standing there stunned, walked in front of the Subaru saying to the driver "i was all the way over there..!" motioning with her arm to the other side of the road. the female driver of the Subaru was looking at her like 'welll excuUuUuse me!"

<another viper pit moment>


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i should of started screaming and shrieking in terror with my hands on my head
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and the fallen over.

/end edot
 
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i was just asleep when i heard someone knocking repeatedly on a neighbors door and ringing the bell.

then my bell rang, and it was my neighbors daughter saying that her mom didnt pick up the daughters son after school. on my neighbors door there is a UPS delivery attempt notification, and her truck is out front. the girl wanted to climb from my porch to her moms and try the back door, there was a television on, but the back door is locked, no body answered but there were two large thud sounds, those sounded like they came from the up stairs neighbor tho. she knocked some more then left.

<another viper pit moment>
 
I went to see my friend Laura this evening. I can't find the right thread. Anyway, she was very different today. Her countenance was changed. I was rubbing lotion on her hands and feet, which I always do, and noticed she was holding her hands over her lap in an odd way that I hadn't ever seen. But I kept rubbing moisturizer until I got around to her right hand. Then I could smell feces.

Laura can barely move. She isn't totally paralyzed, she just can only move slightly but she rarely moves at all. But she had managed to put her hands across her lap to try to cover the brown stain on the front of her nightgown. I don't know how long she must have been sitting in it for the FRONT of her nightgown to be soaked.

She must be so humiliated every time she messes the bed. Plus her butt has a terrible bed sore. She'll get blood poisoning again. While her husband documented everything, I went to find a nurse. I told the receptionist who said she'd get the nurse and it was 15 more minutes before the nurse came in.

She was different today. Something is wrong. Well, obviously something is wrong, if you sit in your own poop all day. But Laura would not or could not make eye contact. She stared straight ahead and would not look at me or anyone. When the nurse finally came in, I told her to have fun explaining it to the judge, and I left.

I came home and parked outside my house, just not wanting to go in. I wished my home was a quiet small place where I could be alone to cry if I wished. But my house has noise and people and a crab apple husband inside. I love my family but I'm over them by now. I'm getting older. I need time to myself. I just don't know how to get it.
 
Ugh bad morning. But on a side note the puppy somehow got caught in headphones for literally 2 minutes and couldn't stop flailing about. Nothing can make that not funny.
 
@Ugly--what is the prognosis for your friend? That sounds like a terrible, horrific nightmare. She must only want release.:(
 
Hey everyone. I know I've kinda been absent from TDS these past couple of months, I've had a lot of stuff going on in my life and then I became a mod in SLR and all that so I had less time, but anyway, I really miss this forum and I haven't forgotten how incredibly supportive of my numerous threads everyone here's been. I really owe some people here a lot and I just wanted to say that. I've made a resolution to start posting on here more again and try to give back to all you awesome people.
I hope everyone's doing okay today/tonight.
<3
 
Wow Ugly I'm sorry about all that...

I've been absent as well. And I'm kinda here cause shit is, well, shits fucked up. Here it goes,
sorry for the rant guys I really need to put this in writing.


So as some know my girls pregnant, lol I fucking dove into that one. She literally got pregnant the first time we had sex.
And there has been a whole bunch of shit thats went on since then.
I was starting to talk about this elsewhere, and christ maybe this would be better in SLR but I like it here.
So our main problem in this relationship is my own insecurities and inability to trust her. We are in love. I know she would never cheat on me. She has already went above and beyond any other in showing me loyalty.
Yet because we are both addicts I am having trouble having faith in her. I'm becoming overly jealous, suspicious, and shit needy. I was usually the one getting girls like that. Now its me doing it to her.

I'm scared that I've never loved anyone as much as I love her. I'm scared that she's tapering off subs and klons and she'll relapse after she has the baby and it will lead to her fucking this up.
We're actually in therapy. Her sub counselors are giving us sessions too.
2 months into a relationship she's pregnant and we're in therapy lol....christ

But through all that we both want this child and love each other through and through. I just can't put my own mind and all the what ifs to bed and its killing our relationship. The bad thing is I see all these problems I just can't keep my fucking mouth shut and give her a break cause ultimately its me bitching about shit that isn't a big deal or ultimately I can't do anything about. Tonight we fought about me getting pissed about her going over to her ex's to see her daughter.
She left her ex to be with me. He's suing her for full custody and I'm still get bitchy over her going there.
God what the fuck is wrong with me. I really see how wrong I am here. She is here for me, and I'm ruining it.

I don't know how to help myself. I can not bitch but i still have jealous feelings. I'm bipolar and don't have insurance so i've been off my meds too. Weed has been calming me down, I don't like: to take benzos even though i should.

But ultimately this jealousy is the root of it. How the fuck do i get past it? She told me tonight I need to grow the fuck up, and she's right. And I want to change. I want to let all of this go.

Again I'm sorry guys i'm just ill right now.
 
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I wish I didn't have these fucked up feelings towards this girl I shouldn't be speaking too. Now I've just gone and unblocked her on Facebook. Fuck. Why can't I ever keep the same thought going
 
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