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Hi Social people...from the Dark Side...

I think I have a dark social place IRL.

In my pharm program today, I was sitting with a couple guys in my class. They were talking about their past drug experience, and they both said the word "ugly" to describe situations...situations like the ones we all write about on here.

I stopped myself from asking them if they read Bluelight. I thought to myself...If I ask them if they read Bluelight I will affirm my presence here IF that is what they are hinting at. BUT maybe they are just randomly using the word ugly and I'm straight tripping.

One of the guys is a bit of a raver and knows some dubstep. He's into some fresh music, and fukkn intelligent. He could figure it out from my avatar.

This is not good, fellow dark side dwellers. I mean, I'm not "out" IRL. This place is my home. I talk to myself here. I figure shit out here.

I wouldn't mind sharing <for lack of a better term> Bluelight with them if I knew whether or not to trust them. In fact it would probably be a fun connection to have with them because they are quite literally hilarious. I take pharm training seriously. They were doing a back and forth today that was raunchy AND top shelf comedy. I laughed so hard I just laid my head down on the desk so our instructor wouldn't see me. I wouldn't mind being friends with them.

Here is my issue with that:

23 years old.

23.


Yea, that soft eyed sweet meat. I don't even need to entertain that notion. But I just did.

What if I have been discovered on Bluelight(were all is virtual, hypothetical, stream of consciousness, confessional) by a couple of guys IRL IN MY PHUCKIN PHARM TECH PROGRAM???????


What should I do? I don't want to change my name. It's my favorite word. (When these young men spoke my BL screen name out loud more than once. I got chills down my spine.)

They might be assholes who talk too much and like to get up in other people's bizness.

But they could be the awesome dudes they seem to be. In which case, I would almost wish that they'd open it up and join me here because they are some funny fckrs and I love the way they make me laugh.

except...
I have no business tempting myself.

twenty fukknn three, bitches. I can't just be trying to chill with them. First off, I don't think they want to kick it with me. Second off, they look delicious and I don't need the calories. Third off, twenty muthrfkkn three. I don't like the pervert in me.
 
I had a partner of mine find me on Bluelight somehow at one stage. That cause a whole boatload of problems and I stopped posting for a while and changed my username.

Are you saying they're 23 and to young? I find that a lot of intelligent 20-somthing olds (myself included) don't care about age. If you're someone that they get along with they'll happily overlook whatever age you are.

Are you worried that they have found your online presence and therefore now have knowledge of your skeletons? If they do, and haven't started treating you any differently, what does it matter. Don't bring it up and see if they do.
 
I'm not bringing it up. That's for sure. If they bring it up I will most likely play dumb.

"I don't know what you are talking about" is my favorite sentence EVER.

As for skeletons... I've got skeletons inside skeletons on Bluelight. I posted my cooch on here once for fcksake.

All this time on Bluelight, I've never randomly discovered another Bluelighter. I've met a couple but not by accident and when I met them I'd already known them long enough here to feel connected to them.

I do not know if they care about age or not. I care about age. I'm past the cougar mark. I'm done. Out.

Unless he is 23 and I've known him since he was 19. That's a different topic.

Goddammit. What if they really ARE on to me??? What if they see this right now? They will recognize themselves no doubt.
I may actually have to change my name, my gender, my age and my location to be on Bluelight anymore.

But then it won't be my Bluelight like I like it! It won't listen to me patiently or help me figure stuff out because I won't be able to say anything pertaining to my reality.

I hope I hope I hope that they said ugly randomly.

My instinct says they said it on purpose. If they said it on purpose to hint to me that they know my Bluelight life then they might read this:

WTF are you gonna do? You want to tell the twilight twins what you found out? I'm sure the teacher loves gossip too.

If you've got my back then quit being shady bitchez and tell me its ok, and mean it. Don't worry, I won't make any cougar moves. You will not be molested.
 
Theyre totally reading the showing your cooch line right now.
I dunno I stay real I say on the internet what I'd say to anybody. I'm used to local forums with all kinds of drama going on. People fucking each other and fighting about it. The state seeing all the naked pics lol. Videos getting out. Its the internet privacy is null and void and you posted ur picture. I did too, and i don't give a fuck I'd probably chill with someone on here if i felt them out as good people.
Fuck I know so many folks on the internet I probably know a few current posters if not remotely as it is.
 
spork said:
I'm giving it a few weeks to make absolutely sure, but I think I'm going to. I think I even have a design picked out. :) I'm a bit worried about the pain though. When I got my back tat I cried like a baby and had to have it done in several appointments because I was such a freakin' wimp. I have changed though and this will be a smaller piece with no color. How was the pain for your latest tat n3o?
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Well that is difficult to say honey...I seem to be one of those freaks with a super high pain threshold....so I'm not sure that I'm the right person to ask! :D
(i.e. my latest tatt didn't hurt at all.....)
Honestly, if the pain is too much of an issue, take some acetaminophen and ibuprofen 45 mins before getting it done, that should sort you out.
 
23. Yea, that soft eyed sweet meat. I don't even need to entertain that notion. But I just did.

. . . . .

twenty fukknn three, bitches. I can't just be trying to chill with them. First off, I don't think they want to kick it with me. Second off, they look delicious and I don't need the calories. Third off, twenty muthrfkkn three. I don't like the pervert in me.
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Hahahaha, oh what I would do with a 23 year old ( or more accurately, what I'd let them do to me, I'm getting a bit past all that rampant stamina thing at my age! Pfffft! ). 23's fine Ugly. 18 is possibly pure perv territory, you oughta be ashamed of yerself, but 23? Go to it girl if the chance ever arises! ;)

Is it really much of a problem? I'm not sure based on what you've said it's more than a completely random coincidence anyways, not like ugly isn't an every day word is it, but if they did catch you on here what could they do to you? What would they be doing on BL anyways unless they were up to nefarious activities themselves that they too might wanna keep a little quiet? I'm on an . . . ahem . . . adult site and the question comes up there quite often, 'what would you do if you came across your boss / colleague / mum' etc. Answer is keep my head down and pretend I'd not seen them hoping they'd not seen me, not a conversation I'd really want to be having, you know. Same maybe applies here?
 
n3ophy7e said:
Honestly, if the pain is too much of an issue, take some acetaminophen and ibuprofen 45 mins before getting it done, that should sort you out.
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Wouldn't you bleed like a stuck pic though?

I've only ever had a problem with 2 of my tats, one hit a tendon in my wrist which caused it to convulse and drive the needle deeper :( That sucked. The other was getting the top of my spine tattooed. Some insanely intense vibrations all down my back and pins and needles in my arms from it.
 
Good morning to the best group of people on bl!!

What's everyones plans for the weekend,anything good?
 
Good afternoon ( 15:30 here ) Sconnie, how's you?

Trying to decide whether to go out for a boogie or stay in. This is complicated by the fact I have noone to go out with ( all my mates are across the Pennines these days, 40 miles away, had to bin off my Leeds mates years ago for drug use reasons ) but that's never stopped me before, I can keep myself entertained in between tearing up the dancefloor sessions talking to complete strangers at random. T'is mainly can I afford it and can I be arsed? See how I feel after my haircut. I may be feeling handsome enough for some fake tan and a wiggle this evening. :)

What about you?
 
Sepher said:
Good afternoon ( 15:30 here ) Sconnie, how's you

What about you?
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I live vicariously through others, :) lol.. No, I'm working this weekend.. The man is going to the football game sunday..
I'm off next weekend and took a vacation day friday, so I'm hoping to skip town then.. Well see though.
 
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Hey guys whats happening! I get the most love and appreciate here in TDS (where I contribute most of my pragmatic posts, the rest of my posts regarding drugs go in OD, mostly in respect to chemistry and biology, so its not really useful information as much over there as it is informative; yes there is a distinction), so I figured I'd tell all y'all.

Dunno about everyone else, but I live right outside of NYC. In case anyone lives under a rock, we were recently hit by a giant super hurricane: SANDY!

Some may be unaware of this, but ~5 MILLION (yes, five million) people around these parts have no electricity. That is nearly 2% of the entire United States. To say thats a large amount is an understatement at best. I am one of them, so unfortunately I have been unable to contribute my usual down to earth help to TDS. Some of you may have noticed me missing, others not, but I figured I'd post this SOMEWHERE so that anyone who is wondering can wonder no longer!

I will be without power till 11/11. TWO WEEKS WITHOUT ELECTRICITY. It probably sounds easier than it actually is. I have no smartphone, meaning I have an inconsistent (at best) connection with the world wide web, and really any source of information or entertainment. I have little to no access to my educational systems, my school websites, my professors emails and updates on classwork, etc. And in most instances, the schools have been closed too. So today is the first time i've been able to access the internet now that my college is re-opened. Libraries are PACKED with spotty internet access, and even cell towers are beginning to go down as their generators run out of juice. In effect, my area has been thrown back into the stone age. My entire town has been shut down, there are trees hanging all over, downed power wires everwhere. Its a disaster zone, and we're the lucky ones.

As unforunate as my situation may appear, I am actually EXTREMELY FORTUNATE! People literally up the street from my home have had their homes destroyed, their cars, and in some cases both. The poor people IN NYC itself, and New Jersey are really up the creek. Some in NJ and Queens have lost everything. So while I may be inconvenienced, at least at the end of the day I have a HOME to go to, even if its a cold one. In 2 weeks my life can begin to resume a sense of normalacy. For some their lives will never be the same. Thousands have become displaced peoples, and millions suffer without electricity. In particular consider those who are reliant on medical devices to live; some hospitals have been evacuated and closed.

So do not feel bad for me, but feel bad for those who TRULY have it worse than I. In particular feel pity and sadness for the dozens who have so far lost their lives (and I am sure there will be many more). People are dying and suffering, and I am making this post to hopefully inform people who are unaware that there are literally millions suffering at the moment in the NYC Metropolitan area. I urge all of you to help in any way that you can: donate money, time, resources, anything you can to the relief effort. It is looking like this may end up costing more than Katrina when one factors in more than just the damages (which early estimates are predicting could exceed $30billion dollars) when you take into account: lost industry, business, lost productivity, etc.

This has literally decimated the region, and some areas will never be the same again. The stores are starting to go dry, gasoline is running out in many areas (some spots have instituted the first rationing since 1973 and things are REALLY going to start getting crazy. It is almost impossible to even get to the island of manhattan. Today, I heard of a man pulling a gun on another man over a spot in a gasoline line! Not even over the gasoline itself, but over the SPOT IN LINE!!! The NYC subways were closed entirely until the past day, and people are stuck in areas of NY/NJ with no way out, no way in, no food, no shelter, etc. It is, in a word, horrifying.

So people, PLEASE help out sufferers in any way you can. If you can do nothing else, please donate blood or a few dollars to the Red Cross. I hope people see this call for assistance from those able to give it. NJ and eastern NYC are in particular DEVESTATED (understatement). Maybe a mod can clean it up and put it somewhere it will get a lot of traffic. Usually I am able to give my posts a lot of attention, edits and detail, but at the moment this rough draft is the best y'all will get. If nothing else, simply be aware of the millions who are, at minimum, inconvenienced, and the thousands upon thousands whos lives have been (or will be) destroyed.

I hope you all are aware of what is happening. This is BIG, and could in fact turn out to be the biggest disaster in US history, though at minimum, it is going to be the biggest in the history of the North east. The state and industry kept touting how much more "prepared" they were since last year? Calling that a sham is a nice way of stating it. Yes, it is the worst storm in many decades, but if they were in any way, shape, or form, prepared? Areas wouldn't be going 2+ weeks without power. Being prepared would have been trimming tree branches and improving infrastructure BEFORE this storm, not after. But this criticism of the state and business is a conversation for another time.

Help out how you can! I would be helping out in my usual way, my written words, but unfortunately my voice on the web has been all but stifled. And if you are one of those who has suffered worse than I? My heart truly goes out to you. As shitty as life is without power, I am soooo fortunate. I truly feel for those who have lost belongings, assets, homes, and in some instances lives.

Once again, this is pretty much my only post on here in a week or more, and probably will be one of my few ones for the next 10 days. I can only hope everyone else is as safe as I am. And I can only hope people are really aware of how bad it is here.
 
For anyone who can afford to, the Red Cross is the most reliable way to help. Here is the information:http://www.redcross.org/charitable-donations

Even if you can only donate $1.00 if a million of us do that it's a million dollars.

DooMMood, I am so glad that you are relatively OK. I lived through the major earthquake in the Bay Area in 1989. Our downtown was destroyed and many people lost their homes and a few lost their lives. For the rest of us it was scary but we also came together as neighbors and as a community in a way that energized the town for years to come. While the re-building is still taking place and we survivors still jump when there is the slightest vibrational rumble, looking back the good that came from the experience is something I am grateful for. (We also had no electricity for about a week and we all got pretty good at using BBQs and throwing together food that we could gather together to eat.)

IDK if you will see this but good luck. I now you will be doing all you can to help people around you and that makes me very proud of you. Stay safe and dry and warm.<3
 
Hey Sepher, that's pretty sweet the way you got my back. I really appreciate your positive input. I guess you are right... If they see me on here that means they are here too. But they are hidden. I don't use my real name but if you knew me, you'd know me on Bluelight. Under these circumstances, I'd like to keep my BL life apart from my real life.

And if the opportunity is a good one, I might get some 23 year old tail.;-)
 
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The other was getting the top of my spine tattooed. Some insanely intense vibrations all down my back and pins and needles in my arms from it.
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I loved getting the top of my spine tattooed.
But those vibrations that get sent down to the elbows and finger tips are quite haunting.
Aw now I want more ink !!!
 
Today was a mess :/ I was on the way to a job interview and my car ran out of gas in the middle of the street so im stranded there and I call the job but apparently I had missed the interview because I wrote down the wrong time. Hard for me not to smoke but I need to pass my drug test tomorrow. They gave me one more day. I'm so stressed :\
 
^That sucks, but I'm glad they were willing to give you another shot. I'm sure you're gonna rock your interview as well. When the stress gets to be too much for you, just remember to take some deep breaths and let the feelings pass. <3
 
Listen to spork, she's the master of calming advice <3. You're gonna do great! I've been working at my job 3 weeks now and it's been kicking my butt--but it feels great! Today is my day off and I was up at 6 AM and managed to take all 4 of my dogs for a mile walk around town. I've been doing that all week. Man what an awesome job can do to change your entire outlook on life. <3 I've missed all you guys. Hopefully I'll be able to get some time in this week to get back on a schedule for my BL times. <3
 
Spork is the shit on so many different levels, I <3 that lady 2 death.. :)

Stardust~ that's absolutely fantastic..I'm happy 2 hear u like ur new job so well..

I need to start looking for a new 1 like yesterday. I like the people I work w/ and all, its just not cutting it anymore.. Money wise.

Man, I got up way to early 2day.. This time change is really screwing with me.
 
:) Also missing you guys. Life's torn me away from anything fun on the computer recently. 6 weeks till a major exam that will determine what I'm doing after the holiday season to put bread on the table and dollars in the bank. I have a pretty easy week this week, thankfully. I'm tired of looking at spreadsheets and answering practice questions. :|

For some reason, my sublet (shared with 1 great roomie, 4 dogs, and 2 cats) is like holiday convergence zone. It's crazy. Everyone we know seems to be coming in from out of town (roomie's family from Alaska mostly, plus mine from New York) and there will be more to come. I have off all of Thanksgiving week... should I go home for the weekend and be the guest rather than entertain the guests? I will have to fly but no big deal there. Otherwise, it's orphans Thanksgiving or spending it with my family out here. Decisions.

Regarding Sandy: it's pretty unimaginable being without power for that long. :( I donated through my phone to the Red Cross, amount was small but hope it helps. I have a blood type that is pretty in-demand, so I suppose this is my civic duty. Hopefully someone local will drive to the blood bank - I almost passed out last time.
 
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