somnilicious
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I am thinking about acquiring Peruvian torch to have a psychedelic experience. I have been a heroin addict for the last 12yrs and dabbled even before that when I was in my X, LSD, Shrooms, K and G clubbing phase in the late 90's. During this time I have had a girlfriend die next to me in bed and lost countless friends to death or prison for addiction fueled robberies and BNE's. I recently got off methadone and Xanax and have used heroin approx. 15 times in the last 50 or so days. This may not sound like much of an accomplishment but for someone, who has shot heroin 3x's a day for the last 12yrs it means a hell of a lot. My mind feels a lot clearer.
This last week however I overdosed myself for the first time. I was later told by a friend that I stopped breathing within a matter of seconds and didn't even have time to close my eyes. Thank God somebody in the busy parking lot knew CPR. All of these deaths are In the past and despite my overdose I am entering a really promising time in my life. I actually haven't felt this good in a long time. I just got a great union job, which gives a lot of random UA's(another reason I want to take mescaline). I am taking too many chances with my job and life with heroin.
I guess I just want to know how easy it would be to have negative thought patterns on mescaline if one is in a relatively good frame of mind and if anybody has taken a psychedelic besides Ibogaine to deal with recent addictions? I have taken LSD 100's of times and shrooms maybe a half dozen times before I got addicted to heroin. I don't know if that matters but at one time I was very used to the psychedelic experience. Also has anyone come back to psychedelics after such a long period and did they still enjoy the experience. I would like to have a good time but also come out of the trip with a new perspective on my past and finally turn the corner on my addiction. Any thoughts? Suggestion?
This last week however I overdosed myself for the first time. I was later told by a friend that I stopped breathing within a matter of seconds and didn't even have time to close my eyes. Thank God somebody in the busy parking lot knew CPR. All of these deaths are In the past and despite my overdose I am entering a really promising time in my life. I actually haven't felt this good in a long time. I just got a great union job, which gives a lot of random UA's(another reason I want to take mescaline). I am taking too many chances with my job and life with heroin.
I guess I just want to know how easy it would be to have negative thought patterns on mescaline if one is in a relatively good frame of mind and if anybody has taken a psychedelic besides Ibogaine to deal with recent addictions? I have taken LSD 100's of times and shrooms maybe a half dozen times before I got addicted to heroin. I don't know if that matters but at one time I was very used to the psychedelic experience. Also has anyone come back to psychedelics after such a long period and did they still enjoy the experience. I would like to have a good time but also come out of the trip with a new perspective on my past and finally turn the corner on my addiction. Any thoughts? Suggestion?