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Suicide thread, for assitance and support for all things related to suicide

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zombiesarepeaceful said:
I overslept and didn't get to see him. He was moved to the psych unit yesterday, where he's not allowed visitors for 3 days. But I know he's gonna live now.

How often do you think the average person thinks about suicide?
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It is probably dependent upon why they are feeling that way ZAP. If someone is suicidal because they are HIV positive (just as an example), it could last for the rest of their lives. If someone else is suicidal because they temporarily come off their medication - it may be only a very short while.

I really couldn't tell you.

w01fg4ng said:
Thank you for the kind words and words of insight n3o and PiP.
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I'm glad to hear your friend is alive and is going to get treatment.

Too many people struggle with suicidal behavior or ideation before getting treatment (if they ever receive it).
 
just stoppin in here, i haven't felt suicidal in awhile, and i'm very thankful for that. I don't know why it stopped - i am glad it has - just wanted to give my support anyone struggling with this , damn near took my life. Don't let it win. I'm around a good bit now if anyone's feelin down and wants to just vent shit or whatever don't hesitate to pm me i don't want anyone to check out before there time.

side note - i've been real violent since i have stopped feeling suicidal, has anyone else found this happened to them ? I'm a fighter anyway but this is real real bad atm.
 
I'm just checkin in , cos i haven't been aroun TDS for a while. I'm feeling a bit better atm although i still have my real bad days , i've been excersising alot more n it definatley helpe my mental health.
Thanks to all u guys for the support a few months back , i really needed it.
Keep up the good work mods n thanks again:)
 
I have come to the conclusion that if I die, well, I don't value my life to begin with. If I live, maybe I learned to value my life that much more.

That goes for pretty much anything I do, lately, it relates to the drugs I consume.

I hope that wasn't too triggering?
 
theartofwar said:
just stoppin in here, i haven't felt suicidal in awhile, and i'm very thankful for that. I don't know why it stopped - i am glad it has - just wanted to give my support anyone struggling with this , damn near took my life. Don't let it win. I'm around a good bit now if anyone's feelin down and wants to just vent shit or whatever don't hesitate to pm me i don't want anyone to check out before there time.

side note - i've been real violent since i have stopped feeling suicidal, has anyone else found this happened to them ? I'm a fighter anyway but this is real real bad atm.
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I am normally not violent - but I can be very angry and frustrated still. I'm sure it's normal.
 
Interesting. I dunno whether it is okay to post this here or whether it should be in my 'blog thingy'. who cares.

Its funny, I was just sitting here thinking about what a piece of garbage I am. I honestly make myself feel sick, I'm just...disgusting. I could go on but I don't really wanna.

Its when I was thinking 'maybe I should talk to my dr about..' when I remembered the shit load of medication I have. It really would be almost too easy to just.. go to sleep and not come back. It sounds easy to say it, but when you think about it...its just soo tempting. Part of me feels like my life has been destined to end this way so why prolong the inevitable? im so fucking meladramatic.

grr... this sounds like I do nothing but feel sorry for myself. meh.
 
wooger said:
Interesting. I dunno whether it is okay to post this here or whether it should be in my 'blog thingy'. who cares.

Its funny, I was just sitting here thinking about what a piece of garbage I am. I honestly make myself feel sick, I'm just...disgusting. I could go on but I don't really wanna.

Its when I was thinking 'maybe I should talk to my dr about..' when I remembered the shit load of medication I have. It really would be almost too easy to just.. go to sleep and not come back. It sounds easy to say it, but when you think about it...its just soo tempting. Part of me feels like my life has been destined to end this way so why prolong the inevitable? im so fucking meladramatic.

grr... this sounds like I do nothing but feel sorry for myself. meh.
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A lot of us have gotten to this point - what's wrong about your life? What have you done to work on these things? What's worked, what hasn't? These sorts of answers can be used to help create a plan which should best work for you.

There are really lots of poor psychiatric medications given to people so I'd be interested in what you're taking daily.

You can PM me if you want to.
 
wooger said:
Interesting. I dunno whether it is okay to post this here or whether it should be in my 'blog thingy'. who cares.

Its funny, I was just sitting here thinking about what a piece of garbage I am. I honestly make myself feel sick, I'm just...disgusting. I could go on but I don't really wanna.

Its when I was thinking 'maybe I should talk to my dr about..' when I remembered the shit load of medication I have. It really would be almost too easy to just.. go to sleep and not come back. It sounds easy to say it, but when you think about it...its just soo tempting. Part of me feels like my life has been destined to end this way so why prolong the inevitable? im so fucking meladramatic.

grr... this sounds like I do nothing but feel sorry for myself. meh.
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Hey wooger <3 If you are thinking about suicide then it is clear that your meds aren't working. You really need to speak to your doctor about how you're feeling and tell them that what you're currently on isn't helping. You also need to remember that the way you're feeling right now is NOT going to last forever, you WILL get better and you WILL be happy again. As C.H said we've all been in these really dark places before and we've all come through it just fine, for the better, just like you will. Keep trying man, we're all here for you as well so please keep reaching out if you need help <3
 
n3ophy7e said:
Hey wooger <3 If you are thinking about suicide then it is clear that your meds aren't working. You really need to speak to your doctor about how you're feeling and tell them that what you're currently on isn't helping. You also need to remember that the way you're feeling right now is NOT going to last forever, you WILL get better and you WILL be happy again. As C.H said we've all been in these really dark places before and we've all come through it just fine, for the better, just like you will. Keep trying man, we're all here for you as well so please keep reaching out if you need help <3
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Sometimes some of the medication they will give people in these positions will only increase the ideation/impulses, or won't change them at all.

I know this all too well after trying clonazepam, as well as other medications (no need in listing them; they are not psychiatric medications).

Your doctor deserves to know how you feel and he should be able to do something for you that will work.
 
Thank you both for your niceness :) I just phoned my dr - been putting it off. He is gunna ring me sometime this afternoon... kinda intimidated by the idea of telling him my true thoughts...
 
^^ you have to be honest with him if you are expecting help. That is what they are there for. I can tell you from experience the best results that I have gotten are from doctors that I have been 100% honest with. Good Luck!
 
Hey everyone, I just wanted to say hello. It's been a couple months since I felt suicidal and depressed, and I'm still doing well.

Keep in mind that no matter how bad and worthless you think you are, it's not true. And if it was, you can change. Make sure you have someone you can talk to when you're not feeling so great, that helped me out a lot.

Also, going for walks/runs really helps. If you don't feel like doing that, go anyway. After 1-2 weeks, you'll want to go outside and get some exercise, which in turn will make you feel tons and tons better.
 
m c f said:
Hey everyone, I just wanted to say hello. It's been a couple months since I felt suicidal and depressed, and I'm still doing well.

Keep in mind that no matter how bad and worthless you think you are, it's not true. And if it was, you can change. Make sure you have someone you can talk to when you're not feeling so great, that helped me out a lot.

Also, going for walks/runs really helps. If you don't feel like doing that, go anyway. After 1-2 weeks, you'll want to go outside and get some exercise, which in turn will make you feel tons and tons better.
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Great advice for everyone here. :)

Make sure to eat well balanced meals often enough throughout the day - sometimes when people are experiencing negative emotions/thoughts, they will not feel like eating for long periods at a time. It's still important to keep eating though.
 
i just feel like no matter which direction i go, im still miserable. i was miserable before i used drugs, i was miserable while using drugs, im miserable while im clean. i just feel like nothing will ever change. i mean yeah, my depression goes away sometimes, but it always always always comes back. im sick of having to deal with all these problems. im sick of having to deal with life. if its not depression im trying to fight through, its addiction, or being crazy and destroying meaningful relationships.

im prescribed welbutrin but i dont know if it really works all that well. plus i cant affford the dr visit to get the scripts right now anyway, and im NOT interested in SSRIs or any of that. i just moved to a new city with my boyfriend, who works allllll the fucking time, so im always alone. why cant i just be fucking normal? ive been looking for a job for MONTHS and the only people we have managed to befriend are the homeless people - i mean dont get me wrong they are awesome - but i just want a close girl friend or just friends in general. i moved out here hoping to get away from my problems, but you cant run away from yourself.

i just feel like something is wrong with me. im never fucking happy, i cant get over this stupid depression, i cant get a fucking job, im useless. whats the point of being clean if everything sucks so hard core no matter what? whats the point of fighting through all this shit? whats the fucking point to living? nothing ever gets easier and ill never be normal. i hate myself, i hate my life, i hate how disappointing things are always, and im sick of not being good enough for anything. seriously, i just dont think i can do this any more.
 
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there is often one stinging-thorn that is radiating such pain.

search inside yourself for it...

i know when i did and i yanked it out, it hurt like hell all through out my-self. though, only then was the old pain and tension allowed to release slowly, and comfortably at my own pace.

finding a place or some sort of routine to have as your own through-out the day, this can help build an established state of being and content; building a foundation of peace in your environment/atmosphere.

what seems most normal in this world in indifference: accepting and seeing this in the world one can often find these aspects related in oneself, and then further more that ''it'' in us all.


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