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zombiesarepeaceful said:
Well, thanks to getting fucked out of 3 days of work for bullshit reasons, I won't be going skydiving afterall this weekend. Cause although its their bullshit that's costing me 3 days work and I'm being punished for testing positive for shit that's fucking prescribed to me, they're still not gonna pay me when the GC/MS comes back that it is indeed what I'm prescribed.

And I'm pretty sure I'm asexual now, cause I finally took the plunge and..I won't go into detail so its not triggering, but sex made me feel suicidal. Great.
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It's not uncommon that people have had bad experiences ZAP, I wouldn't feel too down about it. Just think about trying to better define what you DO like that much more. :)

I can't believe your employer is dicking you around that hard, that sucks :(
 
employers blow hardcore. they treat hardworking people like shit and don't appreciate them. I wish I could record and report those that fuck us over. can't you bring in your script and show them what triggered the positive? or file for grievences against them?
 
needles420 said:
employers blow hardcore. they treat hardworking people like shit and don't appreciate them. I wish I could record and report those that fuck us over. can't you bring in your script and show them what triggered the positive? or file for grievences against them?
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The temp agency has my script on file, but this time around we got tested at the actual factory by a drug testing company and they're not affiliated with the temp agency. So they had to send it out for "confirmation" that its actually adderall in my system, I guess. Its fucking bullshit. My friend who works with me said today that he overheard one of the supervisors say I'll be paid for the days I'm forced to take off. But I'm not sure how true that is. There's no point in filing grievences......they don't care and its not worth my time.
 
needles420 said:
employers blow hardcore. they treat hardworking people like shit and don't appreciate them. I wish I could record and report those that fuck us over. can't you bring in your script and show them what triggered the positive? or file for grievences against them?
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You can; there are ways to get a bad employer back. I know because I've done it before, and I'm sure my ex-boss had no idea it was I. %) =D

Their pizza sucked anyways.

zombiesarepeaceful said:
The temp agency has my script on file, but this time around we got tested at the actual factory by a drug testing company and they're not affiliated with the temp agency. So they had to send it out for "confirmation" that its actually adderall in my system, I guess. Its fucking bullshit. My friend who works with me said today that he overheard one of the supervisors say I'll be paid for the days I'm forced to take off. But I'm not sure how true that is. There's no point in filing grievences......they don't care and its not worth my time.
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If you get paid for the days you don't work, then consider it like a paid vacation! %)
 
^^Yeah, I won't be mad if I get paid for it. I SHOULD be paid for it cause I can prove that its rx'd to me yet they wont' take that for an answer. It was a higher up supervisor that said this, but I'm not so sure about this. I'm still sorta freaking out that I'll be fired over this shit, when in reality, I didn't use any illegal drugs and the only positive and 'falso positive' I had, were caused by prescribed or OTC meds for a health condition. I did nothing wrong and I know it, and it could happen to anyone.
 
mix ups should never hurt an employee, I love the guilty until proven innocent theory that is always practiced. and yes I kno there are ways to get back, I've done it a few times myself. still lost the jobs tho

good luck zombie, hope it all works out in the end for you
 
no, since I'm a temp. I did go to other factories while I was gone though, and they sucked ass. Cardboard and aluminum are pattycake compared to a steel factory....and I'll take steel over easy shit any day.
 
When i have felt depressed or suicidal as of late i remember a promise i made myself. I will stay alive to atleast 2012 and see if the world ends. I don't believe much in conspiracy theories but i figure why not hang in there just to find out? Then i will re-evaluate how i feel in 2012 and if the world didn't end I will go from there.
 
^^ I don't believe in that either. I wouldn't want to live to see the end of the world though.

I'm drunk, numbing the rage that grows in me daily. Maybe this is triggering? Whatever, edit it if it is. I hate everyone. I can suffocate the feeling all i want, but in the end, I'm forever bitter towards every goddamn motherfucking human being. I will always be cheated, and I can't help but wonder...if we just wake up when we die...I want to do enough psychedelics to go out of my mind and have the balls to die.
 
zombiesarepeaceful said:
^^ I don't believe in that either. I wouldn't want to live to see the end of the world though.

I'm drunk, numbing the rage that grows in me daily. Maybe this is triggering? Whatever, edit it if it is. I hate everyone. I can suffocate the feeling all i want, but in the end, I'm forever bitter towards every goddamn motherfucking human being. I will always be cheated, and I can't help but wonder...if we just wake up when we die...I want to do enough psychedelics to go out of my mind and have the balls to die.
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Living is always a better alternative - you are still at an age where you have a lot of life ahead of you, and you're a wonderful person who deserves to get to know other wonderful people in this world before moving onto the next life.

The question is - will you have the will power to keep living? It takes an incredibly strong person to keep living despite horrendous adversities. <3

bignig5971 said:
When i have felt depressed or suicidal as of late i remember a promise i made myself. I will stay alive to atleast 2012 and see if the world ends. I don't believe much in conspiracy theories but i figure why not hang in there just to find out? Then i will re-evaluate how i feel in 2012 and if the world didn't end I will go from there.
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2012 will have to be a better year for me than this one has been thus far.

What gets you down bignig5971?
 
Captain...why aren't you a TDS mod?

I've had the will power to keep living so far. I use shit to help me cope, that's the only way. If drugs didn't exist, I'd no doubt be dead by now. Is there shame in this? No. Its hard to tell myself that when society is all NO DRUGS R BAD MMKAY. There's no shame in doing what you have to, to stay alive until shit gets better. But with every day its like a mockery of everything I'll never have, y'know? Idk. I'm always paranoid that someone will find out and i'll end up in jail, though there are millions of people who use drugs everyday, and the shit I use is legal, so I really don't ahve shit to worry about...I just get paranoid. Plus lately I kepe wondering why my mother is how she is, why she did what she's done, if I'm a cold hearted asshole for pushing her out of my life...I don't fucking know.
 
zombiesarepeaceful said:
I've had the will power to keep living so far. I use shit to help me cope, that's the only way. If drugs didn't exist, I'd no doubt be dead by now. Is there shame in this? No. Its hard to tell myself that when society is all NO DRUGS R BAD MMKAY. There's no shame in doing what you have to, to stay alive until shit gets better. But with every day its like a mockery of everything I'll never have, y'know? Idk. I'm always paranoid that someone will find out and i'll end up in jail, though there are millions of people who use drugs everyday, and the shit I use is legal, so I really don't ahve shit to worry about...I just get paranoid. Plus lately I kepe wondering why my mother is how she is, why she did what she's done, if I'm a cold hearted asshole for pushing her out of my life...I don't fucking know.
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I agree, I would probably be the same - excruciating pain for me was the worst it has gotten in life. Everything else by comparison, did not seem as bad.

You're not a cold ass hole for pushing her out of your life - you just can't let people in your life who are willing to do things that violate your safety or well being, mentally or physically.
 
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