^Yeah, I knew that was your thing!:D At the rate that my girlfriend is going through my script, I might be in the same boat in a few weeks!
You know, I've met some people recently who are not quite sure why I'm using buprenorphine, so I have had to explain to them how I was addicted to heroin, etc., and some of them simply can't wrap their minds around the idea of what an opiate addiction is/is like/why people do it to themselves. These people normally have a different "thing", whether it be cannabis/its extracts, or drinking, or meth, whatever it may be, they haven't been introduced to opiate addiction and I surely am the one to warn them never to venture into that "mindspace" so to speak.
So I've come to the realization that I've done a superb job on distancing myself from heroin and heroin users. My last friend is making attempts at staying clean (they quit! I'm so proud of them!), and they weren't within walking distance of me anyways.
So this makes me think that this is my opporutnity to do it, to get off of Suboxone. I knew I was going to need
some time on it, not sure how long, but if I had to guess, I'm thinking that now is the time to taper off.
I was using 250-320 mcg per shot (for another reason other than pain relief; hard to explain), and I instantly cut down to 107 mcg, as well as reducing the number of dosages. This was quite bizarre but... I didn't have major withdrawal symptoms. I might have slept in an extra day here or there, I might have been a bit fatigued, but it wasn't anything to me. Now I'm at 107mcg per dosage, trying to get down to 80 mcg, and it's once again proving a bit difficult. I'm not sure why. I think it has to do with knowing that the withdrawals are going to be coming full force if I discontinue entirely, it might have to do with not wanting to let go of the needle (which is hard for some of us to do, I know).. but I'm thinking it's the withdrawal phobia, not so much not wanting to let go of the needle. I can still IV/IM other drugs, I'm still going to be using IM cyanocobalamin, so I have this conscious knowledge that I can let go of the drug before I do the needle, but it's still like, hard for me to be accepting that now is the time to quit buprenorphine.
I've also tried to go back to IM buprenorphine, which works very well for me time to time. I just still IV it when I'm feeling the worst, and IM it when I'm feeling a longer duration without the quicker onset (especially the last dosage before sleep; helps so that I don't wake up in semi-WD's, just to use the bathroom, on an every-other hour basis).
I have plenty of everything else I should be doing/attending to/embracing in life, so this really is the best time to attempt a quit for me.
Any advice/tips from the people who have been on Suboxone for multiple
years is appreciated. Any positive words from anyone is always welcome.
