wassup yall. im really been diggin this sub megathread the past days. Ive been havin some SHIT fuckin problems wit subs the last 2 times ive tried to stop bangin dope and detox myself off subs. So here goes,
Me and my girl (both IV dope users, me bout 1/2 brick 30 bag a day habit, hers about 15 - 20 bags a day ish.) We decided to go into a detox, me hopin they did detox like they did 5 - 6 yrs ago with low mg's of methadone and weened u off that way. nope, its all bupe. and this detox is incridibly ignorant. So i did my last shot at 7 AM b4 iwent in. I kno about precipitated w/d's b4 this but im by no means a sub doctor w/ half lifes and agonists and all that shit. So i wait al day and at 10 o'clock meds i realized it aint been newhere near 24 hrs yet but i asked the nurse if iwould be okay takin it, she said yea. so i fuckin ate it, sublingually of course. I ate a kpin my roomate snuck is so at first i was told by my gf that she came in to kiss me gnite and i was sleep. but about 1/2 hour after eatin the sub all hell broke loose. I felt like my insides were jumping around like i had a bunch of fuckin little men running around inside of me. I couldnt sit or lay down for more than 20 seconds without getting jolted up uncontrollably out of bed or off the toilet. I got up and was walkin around the halls (getting yelled at in the meantime) cuz it was physically impossible to stay in that tiny room, i ahd to keep moving, regardless of the other w/d symptoms i was having. Eventually they threatned to put me in a restraint chair/ and send me to the psych ward if i didnt get in my room. it was about 12 am at this point. ididnt kno wat else to do, i knocked on my girls door to let her kno wat was up but there was no way i was gettin strapped in a restraint chair in that condition. I calld my pops for a ride from my roomates smuggled phone and i ran out the only unlocked door, the fire door. I was in this condition ALL NIGHT even at home and i was so frantic on wat to do; i was forced to ride it out and finally was able to lay still at like 8 am and slept till 3 pm. Woke up and felt alrite but still not 100%. so i got dope. (kill me). Continued to use esp with the guilt of leavin my girl in a detox alone. Now this time i decide to stop, and i thought this was a sure thing this time. I got some subutex from a friend who went into a detox and didnt need em. I thought there wud b less chance of it throwin me into w/d cuz it doest have the nalaxone in it like subs do. Well 2 days ago from today i did only 5 bags in the middle of the day after doing 25 the day before. IT was my last of the 30 i had. SO i didnt do anything all taht night and slept and all. I woke up at about 8:30 and was pretty fuckin sick. I held off till about 10:30/11:30 and had to figure suttin out. i figured i try shootin like 2 mg of the subutex hopin for some relief. and i ate the other 6mg sublingually. about 10 mins later i was alot sickker than i was normally and it was BAD. honestly NOT as bad as the time of detox, but BAD. i was forced to lie ot my pops to get hte spare car, get my gf to make him tell her where the spare was cuz i cant drive nad he knew i was sick. told em i needed to get to a meth clinic (which are havens, only time i dont feel sick is on like 45 mg's of methadone all day n night im okay) made her drive me to the hood and get some bags, shot like 2, and it did barely nuttin, had like 5 more so i shot 4 and gave her 1. i actually felt SOMEWHAT OKAY, and mind u this is like 4 ish now cuz we got in an accident on the way down (which the wait was HELLLLLL). i still felt bad tho, and the sickness came back full effect about an hour or so later. I went BACK DOWN and got 6 bags, it was about 5:30 now and i shot 3 and got the WORSTE CRAZY PINS N NEEDLES OF MY LIFE!!!! i didnt kno wtf was goin on i thought i was gonna OD, and it was decent good everyday dope. i guess it was the reaction from breakin the sub, cuz after iwas sooo much better. Now i had 3 bags extra and i did 1 last night. and the 2 bag mini shot this morning. I really wanna stop and im thinking about gettin some bags and just doin 1 bag shots wen i feel horribly sick for a day or two then wait and take a sub, hopefully that will make the w/d's that bad or at least barely have any dope in me to fuck the sub up AGAIN. cuz i dont kno wat to do. do you think sinc ei did most of the dope besides this mornings mini shot with sub in my system ill be decently safe taken a sub next time i get sick, whenever taht happens. or shud i ween off first. I realy need to stop doin dope but icant stand w/d's and the precipitated w/d's ARE TEN TIMES FUCKIN WORSE> i NEVER EVER wanna feel that way AGAIN. ESP with no moeny and no ride. omg, how horrible these experiences were, its making me really think i shudnt be on sub and shud maybe go to a meth clinic. please someone help ASAP, i gotta get my shit striaght.
Thanks for listening to the rant, but this has been a HUUGE problem and wat ive gone thru is unthinkable.
15mg would cause me to pass out and not wake up again for a long time lol. But it's refreshing sleep. :D
now its all my cash ,or a check from family members keeping me clean. but yeah mine does accept insurance. :D
