^ Yeah that PDMP BS is what I was worried about. I've been Rx'd Kpins for a few years now, and my scripts gotten up to 2mg a day.
defective lise: Also, a possible light at the end of the tunnel for ya; my cousin was heavily addicted to xanax for years, worse than anyone I've ever known. She tapered off, went through hell doing it, but got off and has stayed off for a few years now. Since being off of em, she swears that her anxiety levels are even lower now than they were when she was taking benzos, she also hasn't had a panic attack since. I hope it all works out ok for ya. BL is a great place to come for advice, there's lot's of cool people here willing to help. :D
Pretty much the only way your Dr. or Pharmacist is going to look at the database is if there is a reason. It recently happened to me.
When I switched from my primary care doc. (where I've had a 4-6MG per day Xanax script for six+ years) to my Sub doc I got in some trouble.
My OLD PCP used to write me scripts for 90 days of 1MG Xanax and when I made the switch to the Sub doc I was towards the end of those 90 days. When I left the Suboxone Dr's office I walked out with a script for Xanax (same dose but 2MG tabs instead of 1MG tabs) and a script for Suboxone. Well, a couple of weeks went by and I got that email from Rite-Aid saying "You are due for a refill on your Xanax script" (from the old doc) So, Since the law says that even though it's the same medicine, if it's a different MG dose it's not considered writing the same script within a 30 day period. That meant that I could LEGALLY fill it and I would not be breaking any laws. SOOO... I just went ahead and refilled my script.
MISTAKE.
I got my script (since I wasn't breaking any laws) but the pharmacist decided to call my Sub Dr. who then decided to pull my insurance/prescription records where he saw that I had refilled my OLD script in addition to HIS. Needless to say he was a bit pissed off. He made me come home and get the bottle of Xanax (which I hadn't touched, thankfully) and bring it to him - or be kicked out of the Sub program. I KIND OF got out of it because I told him it was an "automatic refill" and my wife just picked up the script and put it in our safe w/o me even knowing. Since it wasn't touched I'm pretty sure he believed me.
HOWEVER, Now, every month that I see him he pulls out that bottle and gives me my Xanax himself. (well, he actually has his "staff" do it.. whom I've also witnessed forging his name on my scripts..)
As of right now I'm not sure where I stand with him when it comes to writing a new Xanax script. That bottle I gave him is almost empty so I guess I'll find out at my next appt.
Defective Lise: YOU CAN DO IT! I recently helped a female friend of mine taper off a 6MG a day Xanax habit that she has had for SIX+ YEARS. This is in addition to the massive amounts of other benzos that we were both taking daily - (Klonopin, Ativan, Valium, Nitrazepam, Bromazepam, etc.) but it was QUITE PAINLESS for her. It took almost two years to get her off. (of Benzo's <grin>.)
She's been off close to 5 months now and just yesterday she said this to me:
"My anxiety is COMPLETELY GONE NOW. I KNOW it was ALL related to the Benzos"
For her to say that her anxiety is gone... well.. all I can say is WOW, WOW, WOW. She suffered horribly the WHOLE TIME she was on benzos, regardless of the amount.
It took two years of SLOWLY TAPERING before she finally jumped off of Valium @ less than a 1/4 mg every other day for a few weeks. She had some mild anxiety and a bit of depression for about a month (she said it wasn't bad at all) and is in tip top shape now, both physically and mentally!
Take a look at the following thread (and a few links in the thread) - it might help you out a bit.
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=510637
Good luck and feel free to PM me if you have any questions you don't want public. I'll do my best to answer them.
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