I figured the only reason people say SWIM is because they are used to forums like Drugs-Forum where they REQUIRE that you ALWAYS say "SWIM". Their fucking forum is like going to the city pool it is the most annoying shit to read. They have a huge forum with a lot of people, some who are intelligent...didn't want to sound like I'm bashing them, but the SWIM shit it so annoying. If you REALLY, REALLY actually give a shit about "not self incriminating" just say "My friend". Nobody asks questions and so many people say that, seriously. "My friend smoked a whole bunch of rock and now he's dying" or "My friend sold someone a pound of heroin". etc.
See for me I fucked around like you did but when ever I would go back to suboxone it would be in super tiny doses very rapidly and I have never gotten precipitated WD. My pupils are fine now but the night sweats, fatigue, and now that you mention it appetite loss are here. What bupe dosage are you at?
My bupe dosage is crazy. It is what ever I feel like, in 2mg intervals. I don't take it that often. The only time I really actually take it are when I first get "Back on subs"/"Off of dope" after my fun-cheating days, and then the day after that if I feel I need it. I start at 4mg when I "Go back on subs" and then all my doses after that are in 2mg. I only redose when I physically/mentally feel like I "need it". That's been a lot more often lately because of these sudden "lingering withdrawals" I've been having, that you described too. I've dosed a total of probably 10mg at the MOST over the period of 2 days. I generally take no more than 2mg a day.
I snort my suboxone 90% of the time. I kind of use it as my coffee. If I'm feeling drowsy before I go to work, go out to meet someone for lunch/anything else, go to class, etc - I snort up a 2mg pile (I cut off 1/4th of a pill and crush it up). It's probably about 50% placebo and 50% real, but I feel 'better'.
Interesting story, I pissed dirty at my last Suboxone appointment. The doctor says "We do this randomly and your number is up today, I need your urine for a drug test". I said, "Are you checking to make sure I'm still taking the Suboxone?" which he confirmed, and said they were also making sure I wasn't doing anything I wasn't supposed to.
This was on a monday afternoon. The last time I slammed dope was on Friday night. I was worried. I went in the bathroom to pee, and went to dilute it with hot water from the sink. The hot water was off - only cold water. So I went into the cabinet under the sink, turned the hot water on from the turny switch thing. Diluted with hot water, then turned it off.
He comes in and says "You are positive for Opioids and THC - Marijuana". I said "First things first, I told you I smoked and you never really said that it was a problem just that it may make me crave opioids, which it does the opposite of. I've been smoking since I started this program in September and it wasn't a problem on the last drug test." (I've been randomly tested twice now). He told me that it was in violation of the agreement I signed because marijuana IS a drug. I cut him off and said that I'd stop. I told him the opioids (Since they couldn't specifically tell what type, thankfully) was from a Vicodin I took for my back that I had - didn't say if I obtained it through prescription or not, he didn't ask.
He got pissy and told me that he has "tons of people banging on his door begging to get on the program" and that they are "cash payers" and I'm "Lucky my insurance is covering this since I'm acting like I don't care about it." This is my first dirty test since September, I think I was doing pretty good assuming I was sober and clean 100% of the time aside from that one bad test. He said this is my first and final warning that it better not happen again.
I have about 12 full 8mg Suboxone pills left, and a prescription for 14 more. I have enough to ween off of if I had to. But I have another appointment at the start of next month and the only thing I plan on being dirty for is weed, which I will argue "I had been smoking a long time, it's going to stay in my system for a while." and if he still complains I'll tell him he is an idiot and anyone with the capability of performing a Google search could tell that I would still be dirty for pot up to a month after stopping smoking. The only reason I was dirty for opioids was because I forgot I had an appointment. Oops.