i guess we were describing things too much because our stuff got edited..lol...whoops
hey no worries guys.. just in the future realize that triggers are different for everyone.. and the discussion of drugs, in the manor that was posted is definitely a possible trigger.. I know that when any one starts talking sitting around a
>snip<.. telling ghost stories thats were my mind starts heading and in a hurry...
anyway soldmysoul dont forget that the wretched addiction has control over your emotions.. the purpose of an emotion is just a manipulation.. it says stop everything you are doing and figure out what I need.. double check and dont trust your emotions.. they just try make you your addictions bitch.. they are designed to feel so real.. dont trust them, and it looks like your addiction is really using fear, apprehension, and isolation to try and make you do its bidding.. your fears are most likely somewhat unjustified, It wants you alone because it easier to fool you with its tricks, so much easier when it doesn't have to fool another person, especially since it does not share a brain with, and thus cant manipulate like it can you.. and it is sending you pessimism, pessimism about taking the steps that will make it easier for you to beat the acute withdrawal into submission.. think about how you have reacted to the suggestion of medications that will definitely help you.. some responses were something like.. yeah there was aleays a long wait, and I dont want or have allot of money.. take a little view through my eyes, eyes not manipulated by addiction.. man If I told you that there was going to be a little haslle at a way away corner, but the stuff being sold there was the best guaranteed, yeah you or I in active addiction would walk all the way there, BLOCKS and blocks and patiently wait our turn.. and a little addict check
on the cost of a doctor visit and some damn cheap meds to detox is a joke compared to what you are spending every single day just keeping your head barely above water with the this insanity .. thats all the addiction influencing your thoughts.. In reality you are currently using a gram and over a day.. so if you are able to maintain this habit you can get the money for the cheap ass drugs that will facilitate a much easier detox.. you have to check you thinking in the beginning.. dont trust it.. and especially anything that if you follow it justifies use.. consider instead of constantly coming up with reasons not to use, that are just fed in to the addiction and come out as justifications for use.. flip the argument and let the addiction wear its self the fuck out giving you reasons to use.. yeah once we are in addiction and deep in the hell at that, THERE IS NO REASON IT CAN GIVE.. during the acutes it will whisper, scream, and beg, ..because you need to feel better, but thats a boat load of shit, cause you will feel a better for a LITTLE bit, but i doubt you will even smile given the times you have kicked.. as you know already it just drops you right back where you started, the middle of hell.. Always a good thing to check in with is.. are we giving all we have into our fight against addiction as we did trying to maintain it. When we are in active addiction, you already know its.. I will figure this out no matter what, now all you have to do is put the same effort into getting better
that we have put into the losing effort of trying to feed that insatiable wretched, soul killing addiction. \
Hey If i can do this anyone can
.. no shit just have to shift gears with that incredibly dedicated approach and focuses it on getting clean and finding and doing what it takes to live a peaceful rewarding life. as i said if I can do this SO CAN YOU
Your an amazing person
but the addiction will scream everything it can come up with to try and fool you your not.. dont fall for that shit
@ pro re nata.. hey I know you just started posting.. but i would like to say that your posts so far IMO have been spot on.. If you choose to continue in this fashion also IMHO you have the ability and knowledge to help allot of people