Struggling again

[helpingout]

Dogs are great tool in grounding yourself and being more content and engaged with life. It is so much less complicated to relate to them than it is to people ( including yourself). And walking them is a great excuse for exercise or even exchanging a simple "hello, nice dog, cold out here" with people you meet. It's calming for me to reduce life to simple, unassailably good things. A dog's affection never need be questioned.
Good luck!

100% agree. Taking the dog was a great idea. We got to see the snow and have some time just hanging out with each other. Then I got to take her again for a second walk so she’s had a double dog day which makes me happy for her. I’m pretty sure it helped me a lot too. Thank you for your input and support

 

[LucidSDreamr]

They are prescribed but I've been able to drop down my use over the last year and slowly, slowly, slowly I've built up that stash.

All I can say is that I find it easier to resist when I HAVE the stuff because I am never in a panic trying to find a 'connect'. It works for me.

same with me. Every time I get clean there’s a bottle of pills stashed for some kind of pain emergency.

Everyone in recovery says I need to throw it out at some point if i get stabilized with my pain and clean.

 

[helpingout]

same with me. Every time I get clean there’s a bottle of pills stashed for some kind of pain emergency.

Everyone in recovery says I need to throw it out at some point if i get stabilized with my pain and clean.

Don't Listen to them. Keep that bottle. But I don’t trust doctors to care anymore

 

[LucidSDreamr]

Don't Listen to them. Keep that bottle. But I don’t trust doctors to care anymore

Exactly.

When I asked this same question to chronic pain patients (addicts or not) they say keep them and keep hoarding as much as possible because I’ll never find a script again after this.

Quite sad.

If opioids were given to ppl that need them I wouldn’t need to keep them around like this.

 

[4DQSAR]

I think I’ll let my brother know I’m struggling with the lapse thoughts. I definitely don’t want to use right now though. Took the niece and the brother and the sister in law and we went and got hot cocoa then went sledding down this giant hill by the house. It was fucking fun. Awesome time. Thanks for the support everyone.

Definitely do that.

A family member has been strugging with an addiction for years and it's heartbreaking when you only discover too late that what you thought was a past issue is very much a current one.

 

[hwbush336]

same with me. Every time I get clean there’s a bottle of pills stashed for some kind of pain emergency.

Everyone in recovery says I need to throw it out at some point if i get stabilized with my pain and clean.

I have 100s of mg of methodone unopened bottles just stashed in a droor for the apocalypse lol.. I only take 40 daily and get 180 mg

 

[4DQSAR]

I have 100s of mg of methodone unopened bottles just stashed in a droor for the apocalypse lol.. I only take 40 daily and get 180 mg

Many years ago someone gave me a large bottle of methadone. I wasn't interested in that nasty green (green in the UK at least) stuff. But I was interested to know if freebase methadone could be extracted. It turns out it could be.

I ended up with a neat little pile of an off-white amorphous powder. I guess it looked most like powdered milk.

I vaped a tiny sample and was surprised at just how fast the onset was and how powerful it was via that ROA. It only acted for around 8 hours so I concluded that it could be a REALLY bad thing. People given methadone to help them to stop using opioids misusing it. I remember reading oral bioavailability varies HUGELY. I mean anywhere from 43% to 78%. Then the peak plasma level being anywhere from 4 to 9 hours. Vaped I assume it's almost 100% instantly.