well, I don't post too much but this one was pretty touching- it made me feel both sides of the coin in this scene: the bleakness and depression of life that leads us to escape (through drugs/parties/numbness/whatever) and the beauty of simple human warmth that appear in moments like you described, soulfly.
I've been wrestling with this idea of "candy" for awhile. Candy can mean many things- the drugs we take are candy, the lolipops that stop our jaws from clenching are candy, the bright beads some of us wear are called "candy". Candy is such a potent symbol. Hard-core "candy kids" with the toys and 300 bracelets and necklaces are often seen as "e-tards" and are laughed at and made fun of/ sold bunk pills to by more jaded members of the scene. It is really a kind of predjudice. But when you described the cany angel whose shoulder you rested on and the kid that gave you the candy 'cause your jaw is clenching- those moments are what this whole scene is about, what life is about. But then, when you describe your moments of depression and parts of your past that hurt, I can relate to those feelings of despair in my own life- and life can really suck sometimes. So I wouldn't want to deny that and be all plastic and fake and smiley, like fake candy kids who aren't deep enough to know about the pain of life too.
As I write this I am wearing just a couple platic bracelets on my left wrist, but that can make all the difference in the world. It's just a symbol, maybe just a reminder of a dream we once had the first time we rolled or at a certain party a long time ago or a feeling of love for a partner we lost, or a memory from childhood innocence, but just to remember is so important. Just to remember that once we touched something pure.
It is hard not to be jaded in this world- and in fact if you are not jaded and cold and a little numb, then you will get hurt. Alot. But then if you don't at least remember the pure thing you once felt, if you don't have one dumb bracelet or sticker or just a private wink to yourself, then others will take your place and you won't really be a part of the scene at all.
Wow, this reply is pretty long but I have a few ideas today for some reason. Anyways, nice words soulfly- you are not alone.