davidgergen
Bluelighter
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thanks for that. it was really good.
Stoned reflections and my place in this scene...
- Thread starter soulfly
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davidgergen
Bluelighter
- Joined
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I had been wondering whether I should try E. In particular, as a last-ditch stand against depression
Reading your piece, I think I shall not. I fear the onset of that fierce depression that overtook you after the high of E.
I enjoyed reading your piece. good work.
Reading your piece, I think I shall not. I fear the onset of that fierce depression that overtook you after the high of E.
I enjoyed reading your piece. good work.
*wipes away a real tear*
everything you just wrote is the REASON there still even IS a scene today... its nice to know there's still a few people left that share these wonderful views.
when society has the balls to publish and exploit everything FUCKED UP about the scene, this is the part that always gets cut out, the part that never makes it to the eyes of the people. why?
everyday you give me a new reason to respect you, or to admire you... thanks for today's reason.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
The sky isn't always blue, the sun doesn't always shine... it's all right to fall apart... sometimes....
-------Robert Miles
that's fucking beautiful.
everything you just wrote is the REASON there still even IS a scene today... its nice to know there's still a few people left that share these wonderful views.
when society has the balls to publish and exploit everything FUCKED UP about the scene, this is the part that always gets cut out, the part that never makes it to the eyes of the people. why?
everyday you give me a new reason to respect you, or to admire you... thanks for today's reason.
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E-girl
IM: tiggersgurl2067
The sky isn't always blue, the sun doesn't always shine... it's all right to fall apart... sometimes....
-------Robert Miles
Mystifeye
Bluelighter
Its brilliant how much response Soulfly's post has generated. A person always shines when they are true.
i'd like to share a few quotes with you all in the hope that maybe you will benefit from them.
"You save one life...you save the world"
- from Schinler's List
"Eternity's sunrise doesn't occur every 24 hours, but in every moment. The present is always lit. Be conscious of the present."
"Life's just a game. All we want is to be loved" - Lenny Kravitz
"So crucify the ego before its too late
To leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical,
And you will come to find that we are all one mind" - Tool
"We are simple beings, granted but two choices... fear or love. For your own sake and the sake of all, choose love"
PLUR
i'd like to share a few quotes with you all in the hope that maybe you will benefit from them.
"You save one life...you save the world"
- from Schinler's List
"Eternity's sunrise doesn't occur every 24 hours, but in every moment. The present is always lit. Be conscious of the present."
"Life's just a game. All we want is to be loved" - Lenny Kravitz
"So crucify the ego before its too late
To leave behind this place so negative and blind and cynical,
And you will come to find that we are all one mind" - Tool
"We are simple beings, granted but two choices... fear or love. For your own sake and the sake of all, choose love"
PLUR
soulfly
Bluelight Crew
i'm flattered and amazed that people are still reading this almost a year later, it feels like just yesterday that i wrote this
thank you
thank you
Mellabopper
Bluelighter
woahhh well look what popped up again
jay, you rock, and i miss ya! i cant wait to chill with you again!
i think why this thread is still around is b/c a lot of people can relate and what not.
plus its an excellent piece of work.
::hugs::
Mella
jay, you rock, and i miss ya! i cant wait to chill with you again!
i think why this thread is still around is b/c a lot of people can relate and what not.
plus its an excellent piece of work.
::hugs::
Mella
Mellabopper
Bluelighter
why do i feel the need to bump this post up every few months?
no clue, other than the fact that this is one of my favorite posts in words and it is too true.
still a beautiful story coming from a beautiful (both inside and out) person.
Mella
no clue, other than the fact that this is one of my favorite posts in words and it is too true.
still a beautiful story coming from a beautiful (both inside and out) person.
Mella
well, I don't post too much but this one was pretty touching- it made me feel both sides of the coin in this scene: the bleakness and depression of life that leads us to escape (through drugs/parties/numbness/whatever) and the beauty of simple human warmth that appear in moments like you described, soulfly.
I've been wrestling with this idea of "candy" for awhile. Candy can mean many things- the drugs we take are candy, the lolipops that stop our jaws from clenching are candy, the bright beads some of us wear are called "candy". Candy is such a potent symbol. Hard-core "candy kids" with the toys and 300 bracelets and necklaces are often seen as "e-tards" and are laughed at and made fun of/ sold bunk pills to by more jaded members of the scene. It is really a kind of predjudice. But when you described the cany angel whose shoulder you rested on and the kid that gave you the candy 'cause your jaw is clenching- those moments are what this whole scene is about, what life is about. But then, when you describe your moments of depression and parts of your past that hurt, I can relate to those feelings of despair in my own life- and life can really suck sometimes. So I wouldn't want to deny that and be all plastic and fake and smiley, like fake candy kids who aren't deep enough to know about the pain of life too.
As I write this I am wearing just a couple platic bracelets on my left wrist, but that can make all the difference in the world. It's just a symbol, maybe just a reminder of a dream we once had the first time we rolled or at a certain party a long time ago or a feeling of love for a partner we lost, or a memory from childhood innocence, but just to remember is so important. Just to remember that once we touched something pure.
It is hard not to be jaded in this world- and in fact if you are not jaded and cold and a little numb, then you will get hurt. Alot. But then if you don't at least remember the pure thing you once felt, if you don't have one dumb bracelet or sticker or just a private wink to yourself, then others will take your place and you won't really be a part of the scene at all.
Wow, this reply is pretty long but I have a few ideas today for some reason. Anyways, nice words soulfly- you are not alone.
I've been wrestling with this idea of "candy" for awhile. Candy can mean many things- the drugs we take are candy, the lolipops that stop our jaws from clenching are candy, the bright beads some of us wear are called "candy". Candy is such a potent symbol. Hard-core "candy kids" with the toys and 300 bracelets and necklaces are often seen as "e-tards" and are laughed at and made fun of/ sold bunk pills to by more jaded members of the scene. It is really a kind of predjudice. But when you described the cany angel whose shoulder you rested on and the kid that gave you the candy 'cause your jaw is clenching- those moments are what this whole scene is about, what life is about. But then, when you describe your moments of depression and parts of your past that hurt, I can relate to those feelings of despair in my own life- and life can really suck sometimes. So I wouldn't want to deny that and be all plastic and fake and smiley, like fake candy kids who aren't deep enough to know about the pain of life too.
As I write this I am wearing just a couple platic bracelets on my left wrist, but that can make all the difference in the world. It's just a symbol, maybe just a reminder of a dream we once had the first time we rolled or at a certain party a long time ago or a feeling of love for a partner we lost, or a memory from childhood innocence, but just to remember is so important. Just to remember that once we touched something pure.
It is hard not to be jaded in this world- and in fact if you are not jaded and cold and a little numb, then you will get hurt. Alot. But then if you don't at least remember the pure thing you once felt, if you don't have one dumb bracelet or sticker or just a private wink to yourself, then others will take your place and you won't really be a part of the scene at all.
Wow, this reply is pretty long but I have a few ideas today for some reason. Anyways, nice words soulfly- you are not alone.
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soulfly
Bluelight Crew
Mella: thank you for making me smile,and you KNOW how i feel about you...
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How did I miss this one? Something that has been floating around Words for over a year, and I just kept on walking, never noticing the constellation of soulfly... because that's what this is, stars orbiting my head, blindingly beautiful light, always there... and yet you rarely look up and realize.
Thank you soulfly, I like you just a little more now that I've had a glimps into your soul.
Sincerely,
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Christian
AIM: TChristianW
"The sharpness of memories fade, but never the tone." --ebow
"'slaughter' is just 'laughter' with an "s."--Mr. Sticky
Thank you soulfly, I like you just a little more now that I've had a glimps into your soul.
Sincerely,
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Christian
AIM: TChristianW
"The sharpness of memories fade, but never the tone." --ebow
"'slaughter' is just 'laughter' with an "s."--Mr. Sticky
NJshygirl
Bluelighter
Soulfly...this is still as beautiful and as moving as it was a year ago, EVERYONE should read this piece. Thanks so much for sharing it, and of course big huuuuuugggggz to you sweetie...where have you been hiding??
xoxo
Christine
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xoxo
Christine
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its been a long time since you popped up on BL. so i sat, and i thought about you tonight, and wondered how your life is going. i know that the days are gone when i will wake up in the morning and the first thing i will do is check my email to see what witty thing you've written to me in the middle of the night... but the memory of the incredibly amazing individual that you are, and how you once touched my life, remain golden in my heart. reading this just made me think of you in the sweetest way.
you say there's no more candy in your life, and all that plur-stuff, but these ideals that you once wrote, which people still continue to be awed and touched by, they are still so much a part of you. remember this:...?
stay as wonderful as you are, sweetie, wherever you are today. you deserve the best that life can offer.
love
chrissy
you say there's no more candy in your life, and all that plur-stuff, but these ideals that you once wrote, which people still continue to be awed and touched by, they are still so much a part of you. remember this:...?
this is part of the first email you ever wrote me, years ago. there was no real purpose in it, just to tell this complete stranger that she was great in some way. and i dont need to tell you what that did for me. but i can never stop thanking for it.
stay as wonderful as you are, sweetie, wherever you are today. you deserve the best that life can offer.
love
chrissy
Jay-
Thank you for sharing this, since it was my first time reading it. I really hope everything in your life is going well! Hopefully I will get a chance to hear you spin soon. We definitely need to get together! It's been way to long.
You are truly an amazing person. I'm glad to have had the opportunity to know you. good luck. and if you have some free time, shoot me an e-mail
peace
mike
Thank you for sharing this, since it was my first time reading it. I really hope everything in your life is going well! Hopefully I will get a chance to hear you spin soon. We definitely need to get together! It's been way to long.
You are truly an amazing person. I'm glad to have had the opportunity to know you. good luck. and if you have some free time, shoot me an e-mail
peace
mike