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Harm Reduction (Social) OD Social v9 ~ Kreppel/Doughnut appreciation Plaza - Token bowls

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I realize drugs are a false sense of security. I've been self-medicating for 5 years now. Trust me, I'd love to be back in school, and I don't blame anyone else for my problems. I realize this is my fault, it doesn't make it any easier though. I'm just sick of being a sick joke of a human being. Almost everything that could medically go wrong with me, seems to have gone wrong with me, and no I'm not blaming the world for this. I can barely bend over to get the milk out of the fridge. Why shouldn't I be obsessed with trying to get pain management, though? I'm in a shit-ton of pain, and I just want it minimized. I'm not trying to get fucked up from any shit that doctors give me, I just want treatment. I just want to feel normal. If I had known I was going to go through all this shit while I was on the side of that car, I would have just held on longer so that I would have gotten sucked under when they ran the stop sign taking a left corner at 45. I've tried finding a hobby, many times. I've dealt with depression for years, that was the first bit of advice I was ever given. I just can't find anything that I enjoy for some reason, it's like I'm fucking broken. Sorry for all the seeping; I'm just at a loss as to what to do at this point. Instead of a walk I went for a very angry drive and picked up a black and mild, which seemed to calm me down a little bit. Something about putting a 2.5 ton oldsmobile sideways has a bit of an anxiolytic effect for me. Once again, sorry for the bitching. I just don't seem to have any type of outlet for this type of shit.
 
tentram said:
you've piqued my interest. do share, please.

morning, trippy. how's it hangin?

do you folks in tassie have daylight savings? man it must suck losing that hour for no good reason at all.
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Yeah it happened last weekend. The thing i like is getting the extra hours daylight at the end of the day. Its a bit dumb though.

It's hanging low. Took some valium to sleep last night but wouldn't mind some pain killers - might have to smash a CWE tonight. My neck is playing up.
 
Tripman said:
I could go a kratom milkshake this morning. My neck hurts. Fucking discs.
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Here:

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So Tasmania is now exactly 12 hours ahead of US eastern time...and will be until we have our daylight savings (daylight wastings?)
 
go release it in TDS, not here, is the point i think we're trying to make (well i am anyway). with all due respect i don't particularly take well to people crying out for help, wishing they had a gun to blow their brains away while we're trying to have lighthearted conversation.

you get treatment and without fail you come on here and complain about it everytime, that it's not up to your standard and start playing the woe is me card. to be frank it just gets a little old. you need to stick with your treatment.

do you exercise or do anything apart from take medication to help improve your pain? there's a start and you can start RIGHT NOW! it doesn't cost anything to exercise and it has so many benefits to your day to day health. sitting around all day doing nothing isn't going to miraculously bring results to the table. sometimes you have to work through the pain to get improvements.

are you taking your antidepressants or whatever meds you're on? have you REALLY given them a fair trail and not given up because you see no results immediately. it's a lengthy process, nothing is going to change and fix things overnight.

find SOMETHING to work on, even if you don't like it, persevere and finish. even if it's a fucking book or puzzle. start lifting light weights. start stretching. yoga. meditation. you'll find you'll be able to get that carton of milk by the end of the week with a breeze.

you've got to start somewhere. and without sounding like an even more insensitive prick, you're not in the best shape of your life which doesn't help with your condition. you need to get yourself into some kind of shape and you'll find pain will start to slowly alleviate.

Something about putting a 2.5 ton oldsmobile sideways has a bit of an anxiolytic effect for me.
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while you're putting other peoples lives at risk. not cool, man. have some respect for yourself and others on the road for fuck sake.
 
These directions need to be followed to the letter!


Ingredients:

1. Cold Full Cream Milk (not that 2% or that "long life" shit)
2. White sugar
3. Instant coffee (preferably dark roasted granules). If you don't have any, go buy some.
4. One regular size coffee mug (around 300ml at the least).
5. One regular size teaspoon.


If you use instant coffee, then you need to know how many teaspoon's of coffee and sugar you use when having a normal cup of coffee.

Directions:

1. Pour the milk into the mug leaving around 1cm clear at the top.
2. Now put in double the amount of instant coffee you would normally use per cup.
3. Put 1.5 times the amount of sugar you would normally use per cup. (3 if you normally use 2)
4. The sugar and coffee should sink to the bottom, so the milk should still be white.
5. Now stir (also crushing slightly the bottom of the mug) until most of the sugar and coffee is dissolved.
6. After each sip give it a stir or circulate the mug (like they do with brandy in those snifter glasses) to get the sugar off the bottom.

Oh and this is even more tasty when you are baked or chilled.

To be drunk when you feel the effects of whatever "medicine" you are taking.

Please let me know how tasty it was.
 
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I'm just going to address the questions asked and then I'll fuck off...don't worry.

I'm not sure what treatment you're referring to, because I haven't received any. Went to a pain management appointment a few weeks ago, they refused treatment, so I got another referral, and that clinic just called to cancel the appointment I had with them.

And currently, I'm not even taking medication for pain aside from APAP. I was supplementing with Ibuprofen as well until my GI doctor told me I needed to stop taking NSAIDs. I had vicodin last night, but apart from that, not a whole lot of medication over here.

I'm Rx'ed Effexor, and I tried it for 2 months despite the extra testicular pain it caused. I've tried MANY anti-depressants, and yes, gave them a minimum of 2 months before deciding to stop taking the shit.

And I realize that exercise is pretty key. I went to physical therapy while I could afford it. Was going 3 times a week for 3 months despite not improving. Was doing exactly what they were asking me to do and giving it my 110...

I also realize that I'm in horrible shape. Was trying to work on that-to the point of starving myself. I already gotta shoot up steroids, would rather not end up shooting up insulin as well.

Sorry to fuck up your social, again...
 
Guys ive got an appointment with a doctor tomorrow about being referred to some form of specialist clinic for drug dependancy. I think this is because the therapist that the uni I am at as made me go to realised that whilst I am not 'addicted' to opiods , I have a mild dependancy that is being reinforced by the pain I experience daily. I am hoping to try and get on bupe , that way I will have some form of painkiller and something to help with the cravings somewhat. Because it is a total pipedream that I would ever get anything that did help me properly. I'm just hoping that the specialists will be receptive of the lengths i have gone to for pain relief (oxy,heroin,diconal and so on) . I am unsure whether I should really tell them about using benzos and amphet/freebase cocaine because I have already shot myself in the foot pain management wise by overdosing at campus , being found slumped in the libary and spending a fortnight blitzed on clonazepam- ive found that the more shit I take the better I can detach myself from reality and therefore pain.
 
zomg no way turning to com central now. ran out of weed today, and i took a day off from suboxone woohoo. i supplemented with rigorous exercise though, and i feel good. how's everyone else's day been?
 
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tentram said:
oh i'm with you now.an i fix you one of my coffee's:D



i think xanax has terrible muscle relaxant properties:\ great anxiolytic of course.
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The therapeutic (or recreational) benefits associated with benzodiazepines vary from individual to individual with some having a higher prevalence than others of being the most common type of effects seen. Its no surprise that people will experience benzos differently the in therapeutic or recreational effects. Alprazolam for me has enjoyable muscle relaxant effects (they mold well with opioids), solid anxiolytic relief that one starts to feel around 15 mins or so after dosing which is why it works well for panic/anxiety attacks, what feels like a physical high (or perception of the PNS) that is soothing and what could kinda be called as warm (not quite like an opioid like hydrocodone), doesn't create a weird mental state that I just can't put my finger on that I see with clonazepam (it used to be a lot more annoying in the past), works pretty well for getting to sleep, and decent for staying asleep with out the morning grogginess like with what I've get from clonazepam. I could go on comparing it with others (or the other benzos with alprazolam/other benzos), but I'll spare you. I wish that if xanax had like one-two hour longer duration than what it currently has to prevent the need for any more than 2 doses. With two doses, I generally should wait a little later than when I first get up before I take 0.5mg to 1.0mg first dose, then a larger dose before bed. This seriously become hilariously evident when I slow started to get sleepy, not completely understand what I wrote or what I was writing, and then feel asleep with this computer in my lap, for like 2 hours i think.

Even with just a little longer than a 1 week break, I didn't think 2mg was going to be that strong, weird my tolerance went down like that so much.
 
tricomb said:
Idk. Who's excited for halloween!?
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My hubby won't let me decorate the house for Halloween. He says its worshiping the devil.

I am going trick or treating with my kids. I will not take that away from them.

I'm going as a sexy gothic vampire.

My hubby can be the devil in the house. :)
 
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