So Who Likes Benzos? Ver III: Blackouts and Amnesia

[pinkanga]

Yay. more alpraz on hand. MUST. NOT. ABUSE.

Couple weeks ago I did 50 xanax in a couple weeks then ran out. Then had to go straight into 3 major uni assessments due around the same time. I was using dex to get through them, but the combo of the dex, assessment stress and sudden stoppage of xanax use in 2-3 week period almost did my fucking head in!

Thank god for codeine and my habit of compartmentalisation. Was not a comfortable period.... either physically or mentally. Using restavit to sleep was ok but getting up and feeling groggy for half the day was a BITCH.

So yeah. Benzos. Respect them. This thread is great for getting that message across.

 

[mangs]

relating to some of the post about uppers and xanax. I had some jack3d which is a pre workout supplement, then had some xanax a little later on a basically felt nothing from it, was a bit disappointing lol. Although I thought that might have been the case.

 

[pinkanga]

^^^ Doesnt really make sense.... right? Whats in the supplement?

Even are dexamps I usually feel a lot more relaxed after a couple xanax.

 

[Verybuffed]

^^^ Doesnt really make sense.... right? Whats in the supplement?

Even are dexamps I usually feel a lot more relaxed after a couple xanax.

Jack3d contains 1,3-dimethylamylamine also known as DMAA. There are much cheaper ways to buy DMAA as it is legal in Australia. It is prohibited for use under WADA though.

When using DMAA look out for "stim dick"

 

[the_ketaman]

Just finished deciding whether to take 25mg valium or 4mg xanax, I chose the valium. I believe that maybe coz I was such a frequent user of xanax years ago the equivalence to other benzo's doesnt really add up. I feel much lower doses of benzo's other than xanax that dont equivelate to my xanax doses/tolerance. Its weird how I need so much more xanax. I think about 6mg of xanax feels like about 40mg valium to me.

Anyway last night after having 4mg xanax earlier I shot some morphine(150mg+60mg top up, MS-Contin, nearly fell off my chair a god few times so I was "there" ) last night as coincidentally id had some time off bupe due to being busy and not being able to pick up my doses. After about 2-3 years of not having one good shot/rush/nod(and when I say good nod I mean completely smacked out ) I am so content, I got an amazing rush and ive been missing the beautiful feeling of the opiate and after only having methadone, bupe and the 3-4 weak shots of H in these 2-3 years last night just hit the spot and even though I might get more today I have no real opiate craving and am happy to get back on my bupe tomorrow. The downside though is I have woken up this morning(even though I didnt really wake up, just snapped out of the nod I was in all night) with the sorest neck and back from the bad posture hence me taking the valium coz I dont think xanax would work as well for muscle relaxation.

Anyway I drank the juice and pulp from one large grapefruit last night, now I think I remember MR_Blonde saying that the highers plasma levels of the enzyme are in the body/liver after about 24 hours. Do you think ill still get potentiation now after maybe 16 hours? Should I drink another GF now and wait an hour?

 

[Christ!]

Have the chance to get some alprazolam but don't think I will after reading through a fair bit of this thread

Was addicted to benzos years ago and I've kind of forgotten how crap it is...have forgotten pretty much everything from back then actually.

 

[pinkanga]

If you have self discipline and can give yourself the rule of never more than 1mg at a time then youll be fine.

Good luck with that though.

 

[pinkanga]

So lorazepam? Whats the consensus in this here thread.... meant to be pretty decent right? Think I remember some glowing reviews earlier in the thread.

I wanna try a new benzo other than diaz, temaz, and aplraz

 

[Mr Blonde]

^ I liked it; nice anxiolysis and muscle relaxant qualities. One of my favorites, actually.

 

[Tripman]

Have the chance to get some alprazolam but don't think I will after reading through a fair bit of this thread

Was addicted to benzos years ago and I've kind of forgotten how crap it is...have forgotten pretty much everything from back then actually.

Exactly, I recently tapered off 12mg alprazolam, 120mg diazepam and 2mg flunitrazepam daily. I realise looking back a whole year of my life is unaccounted for...

It took a horrible taper with clonazepam and Lyrica to get off that. Benzo free for 2 and a half months now.

 

[pinkanga]

Goddam. Shitty weekend after only a couple weeks of daily 3-5mg alprazolam use each day then nothing at all. Wish I had some diazepam to help with sleep etc. Im hoping that because it was only a couple of weeks I should be feeling right again in a couple of days.

Fuck Im a slow learner. I really need to not do this again.

 

[redsweater]

going to the doc each month for a new xanax script is a fuckin pain, i have taken it for over a year but still don't get repeats.
is it rare to get repeats, or just my doc???

 

[Christ!]

If you have self discipline and can give yourself the rule of never more than 1mg at a time then youll be fine.

Good luck with that though.

lol yeah cheers

I'm not so good with self-discipline, when it comes to drugs. All it takes is a moment of weakness or just not thinking to pop a couple of 1mg tablets...after that it seems like it's very easy to convince myself that it'd be a good idea to take just a couple more, and etc. etc.

Tripman - that's a massive achievement I only got up to about 10 x 5mg diazepam tablets a day - as best I can remember anyway. Never used to have a steady supply until I got a doctor, so was using whatever I could get my hands on. It all started when someone I know died of cancer, was cleaning out their house and found a whole bunch of rivatril liquid bottles - most of them full.

 

[Mr Blonde]

going to the doc each month for a new xanax script is a fuckin pain, i have taken it for over a year but still don't get repeats.
is it rare to get repeats, or just my doc???

I wouldn't say it's rare, but it is more common to see single scripts rather then repeats. Just depends on the doctor and how they want to play it I suppose.

 

[pinkanga]

re convincing yourself that another couple mg's will be alright...this thread is full of stories of people waking up to find their benzo stash much diminished.

My thing seems to be an impulsive decision to drop a couple in a shot glass of water and wait till they break down (not water soluble) and then shot it. The onset probably isnt much quicker than just popping the pill but its fun in the moment.

 

[The-Future]

I've been taking benzos on and off for about 3 months, haven't touched any in nearly 2 weeks and wow, I thought I had anxiety and insomnia before I started taking this shit. Rebound effect in full swing. I'm hoping this won't last much longer, fark.

 

[pinkanga]

Good times hey. Should always leave yourself enough to taper. I stupidly didnt this last time.

 

[Tripman]

lol yeah cheers

I'm not so good with self-discipline, when it comes to drugs. All it takes is a moment of weakness or just not thinking to pop a couple of 1mg tablets...after that it seems like it's very easy to convince myself that it'd be a good idea to take just a couple more, and etc. etc.

Tripman - that's a massive achievement I only got up to about 10 x 5mg diazepam tablets a day - as best I can remember anyway. Never used to have a steady supply until I got a doctor, so was using whatever I could get my hands on. It all started when someone I know died of cancer, was cleaning out their house and found a whole bunch of rivatril liquid bottles - most of them full.

It certainly wasn't easy. Damn doctors actually prescribed me that amount. Highly irresponsible of both them and me IMO.

 

[biomech]

^Geez, wish I had a dr even half that 'irresponsible'

I first tried valium when my dentist prescribed me some (5 x 5mg) because of my 'dental-phobia'. I took 2 beforehand and was able to get my teeth fixed after being unable to visit a dentist for 6 years. For me it was a life-saver.

Recently my doc prescribed me temazepam for a long haul light (my 1st in 18 yrs due to a massive fear of flying) - they did NOTHING and the whole flight I just sat there freaking out, wondering how i was going to get home. Luckily, the trip was to Thailand, a magical place where 10mg valium is easier to acquire than marijuana & alcohol (at least during elections). We were only there for 1 week, but 4 of those days were alcohol free due to aforementioned elections - I doubt I would've even thought of vals i it wasn't for that policy. So i was able to endure/enjoy the flight home.

When i got back, I had an overwhelming desire to quit pot (after being a daily smoker for 17 years!) Cut to 2 months later, having massive sleeping problems due to quitting pot, my doc once again prescribed temazepam... 2mg x 25. I took one, felt nothing. Took two, still NOTHING. It took THREE damn tablets before I felt any effects, and even that was just enough to help propel me into sleep by 3am (not much help when you have to be up by 7am). Go back to doc 1 week later with 5 pills left, explained that it took 3 tabs to get to sleep, hoping to get transerred to 5mg diazepam... and she freaked out! NO MORE TEMAZ FOR YOU!! EVER!!! She marked my file "NO BENZOS OR SLEEPING PILLS", even after I tried to explain to her that I used 10mg valiums just a few weeks earlier in Thailand so I probably still had a slight tolerance, and had no problems with the 5mg diazepam from the dentist. Worst part is I'm currently trying to taper down on codeine (down to 10 pills a day from 30), and have read that valium can work wonders for this... and I'm back to smoking pot to help with sleep At least I'm down to 1 joint a day, but dammit, I'd rather be prescribed something that can be managed - the OTC codeine is just too tempting as a self-medicating sleep aid.

It's like there's no middle ground - seems docs are either ridiculously liberal or total nazis when it comes to prescribing these meds!

 

[Tripman]

^^ Eh it really isn't a good thing, trust me, you don't want a doctor that irresponsible.

Coming to baseline I was struck down with seizures and insane rebound anxiety and insomnia. I was basically a gibbering mess for a couple of months.

On top of that I can look back on the last 12 months and honestly say I have very very little recollection of what happened. It all turns into a benzo induce blur.

My regimen was 4mg xanax and 40mg valium at 8am, 1pm and 6pm followed by 2 mg Hypnodorm at 10pm.

Some days I would take 30+mg xanax just to get myself functioning normally. Friends and family tell me I was not "there" for a very long time.

I have been prescribed/dosed in clinics with every benzodiazepine that is legally available in australia and have used several others on top of that.

Alprazolam, diazepam, temazepam, oxazepam, clonazepam, nitrazepam, triazolam, flunitrazepam, bromazepam, lorazepam and Midazolam have all been prescribed or administered to me by doctors.

On top of those I have tried lormetazepam, brotizolam, phenazepam, etizolam, estazolam, flutoprazepam, tetrazepam and nimetazepam.

Benzo's ruined my life for a few years, causing me to lose several jobs, friends and basically become and invalid.