Hope you're doing ok with all the benzo shit, mate. I know how it is, been there myself as you know. Stay safe
Been off the daily scripted valium for several months now after tapering for the 2nd time. W/ds that time were cake compared to the last time tapering off from a year of daily scripted valium that followed 3 years of using blackmarket benzos most weekends for comedowns.
I'm not scripted benzos anymore, though I still use some blackmarket serepax (oxazepam) every so often for d-amp comedowns, potentiating opiates and as a sleep aid. Taking it much easier though these days - don't want to develop a dependancy on the stuff again.