Ok so I've had a few of these episodes, they seem to be sleep paralysis but not in the conventional sense, a lot of times I hear about sleep paralysis victims 'waking up' to the state, however I actually feel my body enter it and it's ALWAYS while I'm dreaming.
Bear with me, this might be confusing cause even I don't know what's actually happening, I guess ill just recite what happened to me earlier.
I was having a dream, and I woke up from it, I think it was a false awakening, have no idea though. (if I just wake up from a dream and go back to sleep I normally start dreaming almost instantly) in my false awakening, which was lucid I think, I seem to have thought I was lucid in the previous dream and thought, ill go back to sleep and see if I can have some fun.
Now this is where it gets weird, I close my eyes and I get this strange sensation in my mind, like I'm being warped into sleep paralysis mode, its like I'm literately being sucked into it, and the longer I wait while having this sensation the harder it is to get out until I am in it. I can't describe it one bit...its very weird. It probably takes 5 seconds to enter sleep paralysis 'mode' after the sensation/mindwarp starts.
This is where the sleep paralysis starts, still got that weird feeling in my head, and I seem to be able to move my head, atleast I think, i don't exactly take notice of these things, and if I do move my head its a tiny bit since I don't look back cause I don't want to see the evil presence, so yeah classic sleep paralysis symptoms here, evil presence in the room, today it was making sounds (when I say it, I don't actually think its a real demon or something, its just easier to refer to it like that) and sounds in the hallway, could have been my family, since they closed a door and I thought it was just the SP. and im on my stomach for most of these episodes, thats why I refuse to look back acuse I don't want to see anything.
anyway, my mindstate is normally calm, at first, and gradually it gets more anxious and scared, especially when I feel the presence and hear sounds, I felt my heart beat faster and faster. Normally for the first few attacks I was completely calm, but as more have happened I seem to be getting more scared, not less. Though they are progressing worse and worse.
anyway when this ends, i wake up but all hazy and EXTREMELY drowsy, however if I lay down and close my eyes the weird feeling comes back and it happens again. I have no idea if im actually awake, since one in this state I rolled over looked at my wall and there was a my name engraved in it with a red glow. but there never seems to be a waking moment where ill be walking around and wake up, probably just a hallucination cause I just woke up from REM sleep.
So yeah, this mind warm feeling this is quite distressing, thank god it doesn't happen often,
and just to note, I completely sober and the last thing I done was pot like a week or two ago.
I really want to see if I can move and possibly turn around, look at this thing and just say "hey" But I think i'll be too frightened, I know it's just a dream but still...also, this is the only time I ever get scared in dreams, even if I'm having a regular nightmare I'm not scared (well then it's not a nightmare is it? lol)
