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Should I roll alone today? I have some fire molly right now! Urgent!

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Sublime947

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Hi. im 19 years old. i have a crippling social anxiety disorder and have not many friends.

I have rolled since late 2011

I lost my main group of rolling friends because they turned out to be mean fake people. i stopped rolling with them.

well i have some flame molly rn, a .12 delicious looking rock. and i went to see a psychiatrist today and I got diagnosed with social anxiety disorder and mild depression.

I got prescribed prozac, an SSRI (I know i havent heard many good things about this thing either...) but im going to give it a shot

i havent rolled in 2 months. That is a very long time for me. I want to roll really bad at my house in an hr or two.

im just gonna jam out to music like MrSuicideSheep, Pretty Lights, and meditate and hopefully overcome some of my anxiety


then i will be taking prozac the following week

is this a good plan or no? I won't be able to roll/trip while on prozac since of the drug interaction won't allow me to roll/trip so ill say goodbye to rolling/tripping for a while

Experiences and advice welcome :D
 
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Yeah you're not gonna feel much from the molly because of the prozac but you will feel the classic amphetamine effects
 
Wait what? So you're just asking if you should get high or not, and haven't started taking the medication then?


I don't see where this thread is going.. Yeah, you can roll alone now... if you really want.. sounds boring lol but as long as the drug is out of your system when you start your meds there should be no problem.




I'd really advise looking into ANY other treatment but SSRIs though. Seriously. It's not just saying goodbye to tripping for a while, they're meant to permanently rewire you..
 
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Wait what? So you're just asking if you should get high or not, and haven't started taking the medication then?


I don't see where this thread is going.. Yeah, you can roll alone now... if you really want.. sounds boring lol but as long as the drug is out of your system when you start your meds there should be no problem.




I'd really advise looking into ANY other treatment but SSRIs though. Seriously. It's not just saying goodbye to tripping for a while, they're meant to permanently rewire you..
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Folley, hey there I see you post alot and you have great interesting advice a lot. didnt know u were a mod here now. you probably dont know me.

sorry for going off topic lol. Thanks. Well I want to roll alone because I dont have anyone to roll with and I am starting the medication next week or this weekend. So I won't be able to roll for a while you feel me? So I'm just gonna try and meditate and jam out to music... idk ive never rolled alone b4 lol so should be interesting right?

I can't do anything about it.. I asked for benzos instead but my doc told me about the addictive potential and cognitive dysfunction.

I mean SSRI's cant be that bad can they? I know they aren't great but I kind of have to do this :/ if I don't like it I can always tell my psychiatrist
 
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You don't have to do anything you don't want to, it's not like they can force the pills down your throat... in the end it's up to you man, I would definitely go for the roll, but do put a lot more thought into if you actually want the meds or not.


Rolls alone can be very introspective and helpful, just not quite as action packed aha. I'd say take your pill and have a nice long think about yourself :)
 
True, to be honest I don't really want to take it. But my parents want me to at least try it.

I've had some bad mood swings lately and my parents were the one who kinda signed me up for this psychiatrist with very short notice. I think it is for the best and I need to take it tomorrow..... they say they will monitor how I feel and if I don't react well I can always stop it.

and thanks :) About to drop. I bet this roll will solve a lot more than the SSRI's will but I need to do it I have no choice. Why are you so against SSRI's btw? I know they aren't good but can they really be that bad?

I am supposed to take them to make uncomfortable situations easier for me according to my psychiatrist and will go through exposure therapy also.
 
I just know far too many stories of depressed users turning to SSRIs and horribly regretting it later.. the worst part is they never seem to get off them either, always just get shuffled around from drug to drug.


I would just say try and cope without them for as long as possible. But, you may really need them... so do think it over and decide what is right for yourself.





My parents tried to get me on SSRIs way, way back.... sure as fuck glad I never went on them as most of my Bi-polar symptoms have disappeared overtime
 
Thanks for the advice.
If I do end up trying them I will make sure to definitely NOT STAY ON THEM
Btw, would it be okay to take an SSRI tomorrow morning after popping a roll just now? i wont get SS or something right
 
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Hey friend. What reason do u want to roll tonight? I've always felt mdma is a great tool whether it be for a rave/festival or for some introspective searching through my current mental state. IMO. Don't roll bc you want to just get high. Save your mdma for something much more important or epic. Just my .02 cents
 
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Hey friend. What reason do u want to roll tonight? I've always felt mdma is a great tool whether it be for a rave/festival or for some introspective searching through my current mental state. IMO. Don't roll bc you want to just get high. Save your mdma for something much more important or epic. Just my .02 cents
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I already took it, lol sorry. I am doing it because I won't have an oppurtunity to roll again for another 2 months or 3 and I am doing it not to just get high. But rather explore my brain.

I haven't rolled in a while and when I haven't I get good epiphanies so I hope for some tonight.

Hope this works. No regrets now :) (maybe.... i'll see xD)
 
I a perfect world, you would be able to take the mdma in the comfort of a therapists office and use the experience as a way of working through the problems you are facing. However, this does not mean that you can't have a very deep therapeutic mdma session on your own. Good luck.

Also, I would recommend you try to find a different doctor. A good doctor should respect your wishes and allow you to experiment with a variety of treatments until you find what works. Nobody knows your mind better than you do, even if someone else my have a better understanding about a particular problem.
 
In relation to using mdma now......it appears you have made that decision.

As Folley said...........ensure you wait at least 48 hours before you begin the prozac.

In regards to whether you take it at all or not.............yes you should.

Nobody here at Bluelight is qualified to determine whether or not you should take your doctors advice.

Your doctor knows your situation best and you should always listen and heed the advice they offer.

IF you have any reason to not believe that the doctor is acting in your best interests then by all means get a second opinion.

Just because he chose this particular drug for you to use first up does not mean that is the correct one for you........that is something that the doctor will monitor with you over the coming months. Sometimes it can take a while to arrive at the correct one for you............took them 3 goes to get mine right.

Not taking prozac because you wish to roll again or because some anonymous people on the internet said not to is not a very smart idea.

Always ensure you answer the docs questions honestly and accurately as only then will he have a chance of being able to help you to become the person you want to be.

Best of luck.
 
Thanks for the advice everybody.

Well I ended up taking more MDMA than I thought I did last night, lol. Around the 300-350mg range. I rolled hard and just took showers/laid in bed and listened to music. I had a very trippy and enlightening roll and I feel a lot better and less scared of life for some reason now. I think this is due for me not rolling for 2 and a half months. Breaks really do pay off.

I will begin Prozac tomorrow and if I don't like it I will be sure to tell my doc
 
Rolling is better at home, alone, or with one or two close friends in my opinion. You never get as much control of your environment as you do in your own house.
 
If you take ssri and mdma together youcould die from serotonin syndrome. My friend got it once. Mdma will fry your serotonin system making you more depressed. I guess having anti depressants will fix that. I'm trying to get those prescribed
 
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