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Yevette
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Hello, everyone.
Let's just get into it. I've been doing box (Suboxone) and tech (Subutex) for about a year now. I had never planned on becoming addicted. I suppose no one really does, it's not really a choice. About half a year ago, my boyfriend and I decided to go to a clinic (buying it on the streets was just becoming too pricy and exhausting for us). Since then, it's been a lot easier. Although we went to the clinic to get clean, it doesn't seem like that's going to happen anytime soon. We always talk about it, but when we get the script, we just forget it almost instantly. Our best friend also goes to the same clinic. He's the person who showed me how to shoot up, and, honestly, it was the greatest high I've ever gotten from box. Now, I feel nothing when I take it. It makes me feel better, yes, but I don't get high from it anymore. I know my tolerance has gone up, but I can only take half a pill a day to last me until my next visit. It's really a bummer paying so much for drugs that don't even get you high (although it's definitely worth it just to not get withdrawals). Anyway, I have never blamed my friend for my addiction to the needle, I probably would have tried it eventually. I started doing it about the same time we started going to the clinic. Of course, I have tried to quit many many times. However, I always end up back on the needle. When I'm going through withdrawals, it's makes me feel better shooting up plain water. Yes, yes. I know ALL about the dangers about doing this. It's part of the reason I want to stop shooting and just get back to snorting it again. I have to wear long sleeves anywhere I go, even in the summer. I don't want to die. The problem is, and the reason I'm posting on this website, is I don't know how to stop. Should I just throw all of my rigs away so there's no temptation? Should I only do it once a day and gradually come off of it? I have no idea. I hope you do, as I'm sure there must be someone who has had this same problem. Any and all advice would be extremely helpful.
Thank you.
Ps: I'm sorry this is so bloody long. I guess I got carried away.
Let's just get into it. I've been doing box (Suboxone) and tech (Subutex) for about a year now. I had never planned on becoming addicted. I suppose no one really does, it's not really a choice. About half a year ago, my boyfriend and I decided to go to a clinic (buying it on the streets was just becoming too pricy and exhausting for us). Since then, it's been a lot easier. Although we went to the clinic to get clean, it doesn't seem like that's going to happen anytime soon. We always talk about it, but when we get the script, we just forget it almost instantly. Our best friend also goes to the same clinic. He's the person who showed me how to shoot up, and, honestly, it was the greatest high I've ever gotten from box. Now, I feel nothing when I take it. It makes me feel better, yes, but I don't get high from it anymore. I know my tolerance has gone up, but I can only take half a pill a day to last me until my next visit. It's really a bummer paying so much for drugs that don't even get you high (although it's definitely worth it just to not get withdrawals). Anyway, I have never blamed my friend for my addiction to the needle, I probably would have tried it eventually. I started doing it about the same time we started going to the clinic. Of course, I have tried to quit many many times. However, I always end up back on the needle. When I'm going through withdrawals, it's makes me feel better shooting up plain water. Yes, yes. I know ALL about the dangers about doing this. It's part of the reason I want to stop shooting and just get back to snorting it again. I have to wear long sleeves anywhere I go, even in the summer. I don't want to die. The problem is, and the reason I'm posting on this website, is I don't know how to stop. Should I just throw all of my rigs away so there's no temptation? Should I only do it once a day and gradually come off of it? I have no idea. I hope you do, as I'm sure there must be someone who has had this same problem. Any and all advice would be extremely helpful.
Thank you.
Ps: I'm sorry this is so bloody long. I guess I got carried away.