Just sitting here this morning, drinking coffee and doing the usual morning check ups on my phone, but really marveling at the 180 my life has taken in the last six months. In July I was out of my mind from a massive meth relapse, unemployed, beginning a monstrous secondary psychosis I had to deal with after the meth, mind falling through the basement floor of some psychological abyss, there were both multiple involuntary hospitalizations and suicide attempts. I pushed everyone and everything away from me. I ended up homeless, again. But I kept fighting, just didn't give up, I didn't do anything to land me back in prison, and now I'm over 6 months clean, I've got my mind and my wits back about me, undeniably SANE again, stabilized on medication. I'm employed, been there three months and just got a dual promotion at work with a nice raise pending. I'm back indoors with family, and just paid my first month's rent for the place I move into in two days, just bought an awesome new ebike, and now I've finally resolved the daily struggle of waking up dope sick from methadone everyday with a split dosing regimen at the clinic, so I'm actually well when I wake up in the mornings now. I've got a home, a career, transportation, hobbies, and I'm even working on friends lol. Oh, got me a lil modstick here on BL too.
Idk, I just woke up feeling like sharing some massive positivity this morning, for anyone else who might be going through their own ordeal - as they say, don't give up five minutes before the miracle. Because I felt like I was just spinning my wheels up to about two weeks ago, with very little progress, and then the dam just burst wide open. You might not see it immediately, but hard work and perseverance, doors WILL open. I promise.
(Thanks for letting me share lol

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