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Positive Share Something Positive About Your Day vs This Does Not Suck (͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)?

Got deeply hurt ,didnt drink,pop a pill or smoke,just told myself to suck it up,you been through worse,then ate clean food and drowned my sorrow in herbal tea,and watched a comedy instead of horror movies.This hurt,I'd normally do something inadvertently to hurt myself,hell even overtly years ago but the last few days total self care,I could have made today suck worse.
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today is better than yesterday. And the day before that. I am 2 weeks off those evil fucking pressed dirty 30's. I am closing in on a week off of some decent and not decent "heroin'. I didn't use the questionable heroin for more than 2 days and I think I spared myself extra hurt of withdrawals. The absolute worst part of all of this is the lethargy and those 30 second fiending thoughts that thankfully do not rule my day. I am pretty fucking determined this time. I erased any dealer #'s this time. I actually pulled a premeditated fast one on my Fent pill dealer. I asked for 9 and it was raining balls outside. So I was hoping he put the shit in his mailbox and he did. I was SUPPOSED to leave him the money. I didn't so I could burn the connect. And it has worked.

Today does not suck as bad as waking up and needing a weak ass pill to accomplish anything.

PRICELESS!!

I love you all
 
lovemissile66 said:
today is better than yesterday. And the day before that. I am 2 weeks off those evil fucking pressed dirty 30's. I am closing in on a week off of some decent and not decent "heroin'. I didn't use the questionable heroin for more than 2 days and I think I spared myself extra hurt of withdrawals. The absolute worst part of all of this is the lethargy and those 30 second fiending thoughts that thankfully do not rule my day. I am pretty fucking determined this time. I erased any dealer #'s this time. I actually pulled a premeditated fast one on my Fent pill dealer. I asked for 9 and it was raining balls outside. So I was hoping he put the shit in his mailbox and he did. I was SUPPOSED to leave him the money. I didn't so I could burn the connect. And it has worked.

Today does not suck as bad as waking up and needing a weak ass pill to accomplish anything.

PRICELESS!!

I love you all
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Yes you should stop doing this. When you do this you know even internally that there's something wrong with this.
You definitely know what you are doing. Right, so don't just keep doing it.
No false realities.


Grow, develop and be honest to yourself. Don't believe that different reality. Believe the truth. So don't believe that reality in a different way.

I am glad that you are still at it. It is not easy until you actually can do this. Based on truth. Don't lie to yourself anymore.
You are much better than that too. You really are. Don't believe lies. You can transform.

You have to find loopholes to shift your mindset to serve the truth on a day to day basis and realize this.

Or else you will continue to keep doing the same thing over and over expecting different results if you don't actually shift your frame by actually shifting your mindset.

Don't keep cheating yourself and you can actually feel better.

I can hear the strength in you and that you want to do this and you will. You and I know that
you can. Please stay strong and I wish for you to be as strong as you can also.

Take Care. I am so glad to hear that you know that you can make this better !!

That's Awesome !!! <3
 
Some days are better than others. But the reality is my day is what I make it.

I hope to do better than I started out this Morning ! And I will. Because I know I can.

And when I try I do feel better. So I feel kind of better today ! ☀️
 
Also. I got nice new warm clothes for the Season. They are soft and feel so good.

They feel nice and definitely feel warm in those extra colder days. When the sun
just isn't enough for keeping the cold chill away.

Anyway I am happy that they feel so nice. lol. And I am grateful too. It's nice. ❄️
 
I am looking for 'new' hobbies and habits. And one of them is to spend time with animals
and spend more time in nature. 🌻😎

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Edit: And sometimes minute by minute turns into day by day. Ect ect. <3
 
lovemissile66 said:
today is better than yesterday. And the day before that. I am 2 weeks off those evil fucking pressed dirty 30's. I am closing in on a week off of some decent and not decent "heroin'. I didn't use the questionable heroin for more than 2 days and I think I spared myself extra hurt of withdrawals. The absolute worst part of all of this is the lethargy and those 30 second fiending thoughts that thankfully do not rule my day. I am pretty fucking determined this time. I erased any dealer #'s this time. I actually pulled a premeditated fast one on my Fent pill dealer. I asked for 9 and it was raining balls outside. So I was hoping he put the shit in his mailbox and he did. I was SUPPOSED to leave him the money. I didn't so I could burn the connect. And it has worked.

Today does not suck as bad as waking up and needing a weak ass pill to accomplish anything.

PRICELESS!!

I love you all
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Wow, you screwed a dealer, instead of the reverse, nice, nice🤣🤣 Staying strong is even nicer, good luck.
 
Dreamflyer said:
I'm on my 12th day sober for the first time in years!!!
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Great Job, Keep up, being sober! 😀 It will get easier and easier over time.😀
( yes I know, I am on legitimately prescribed medications, they don't impair me, nor do I abuse them)
But, I lost track after over a year without drinking, Alcohol being my D.O.C..
Now, if I could only quit smoking cigarettes.😔
 
kiely said:
I am looking for 'new' hobbies and habits. And one of them is to spend time with animals
and spend more time in nature. 🌻😎

~~ 🥰



Edit: And sometimes minute by minute turns into day by day. Ect ect. <3
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I take care of 3 stray kittens and at one time, the mama too. Mama cat had finished weaning them and a month later Mama cat disappeared. So. I am mama cat now!!!! I believe the kittens were 5 weeks old when I started regularly feeding them. I never tried to pick them up, but I did play with them. After a while they figured I was safe and would sit beside me. Now they dogpile on my lap and it is one of the purest, most excellent moments of my life. Taking care of them has become my purpose. I missed one day of feeding them when I was in early withdrawal, and the guilt ate me up.
Now, it's in the 30's and 20's at night, so I made outdoor shelters for them. I just can't describe the joy I feel when I am with them. Definitely my happy place, for sure.
 
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