Septsober - The September gettn and stayn sober thread

[Just A Guy]

if anyone wants a movie to watch that is life affirming and will give you shivers of ecstacy and will take your mind off any craving its "kiki's delivery service" from ghibli, i watched it for the first time last night (i know!!!!), and experienced feelings and muffled crackling laughter pulsing from inside my body, the likes no media in a year a least has drawn out in me.

Love that movie. So do my kids. Another one that is just simply amazing, by the same studio: Spirited Away.

 

[spork]

6 months opiate free today!!!

So awesome, girly!

 

[neversickanymore]

6 months opiate free today!!!

:D​

 

[ad lib]

Thanks everyone!!

 

[GenericName12]

It took me a while to come back because of all the shame I feel.

I failed guys. My girlfriend is pissed and I'm horrible.

It's so fucked. It wasn't what I dreamed it would be. It sucked. I was miserable. Yet my body craves it.. goddamn this addiction thing makes no sense. When I was all messed up, I wasn't even having fun. But yet I just NEEDED more and more and more thinking it was going to make it better. Maybe this next drink will give me the feeling I desire. I feel like I NEED more now even though I don't actually want it. It's just so.. depressing.

But it wasn't there. It never came. Probably a good thing.

The reason I relapsed was because I surrounded myself with old situations, old friends, etc. and let myself fall back into old patterns.

 

[stardust.hero]

Mid-day 13 for me. A bit busy today but wanted to check in!

 

[neversickanymore]

It took me a while to come back because of all the shame I feel.

loose that shit.. you dont need iot where you are going.. your an alcoholic so you relapsed happens to all of us until we figure it out.. and then we are never absolutely safe.. just a learning experience quit beating your self up.

I failed guys. My girlfriend is pissed and I'm horrible.

Just apologize and say than you have learned from the mistakes you made and moving forward and going to do the best you can.. that this is hard but your moving forward

It's so fucked. It wasn't what I dreamed it would be. It sucked. I was miserable. Yet my body craves it.. goddamn this addiction thing makes no sense. When I was all messed up, I wasn't even having fun. But yet I just NEEDED more and more and more thinking it was going to make it better. Maybe this next drink will give me the feeling I desire. I feel like I NEED more now even though I don't actually want it. It's just so.. depressing.

Remember this right here.. cause the next time it whispers at how good it is going to be you can call it on its bullshit right away.. remember when I tried to throw out a realistic view of what drinking actually was, I threw out a bunch of things that work for me when i get the urge.. now you have a recent experience that you have actually looked at honestly.. this is often very powerful.. I use undeniable truths as major weapons to shut cravings down and I hope this technique will work for you as well. Hopefully now you may flip from the thinking that you really want to not drink to having no real desire to drink.. this often helps as well. Its funny we often say we need just a break from fighting the addcition for a bit, but it always is harder and worse after we use a bit.

The reason I relapsed was because I surrounded myself with old situations, old friends, etc. and let myself fall back into old patterns.

the lesson learned right.. sucks but thats the way we have to do it..

your doing great 12.. dont beat yourself up.. forward and upward 12

 

[Just A Guy]

12! I love you, brother man! You took a hit, but you're still standing. Here's a purple heart. Now to get back from the war alive, and you're going to.

 

[ad lib]

It took me a while to come back because of all the shame I feel.

I failed guys. My girlfriend is pissed and I'm horrible.

It's so fucked. It wasn't what I dreamed it would be. It sucked. I was miserable. Yet my body craves it.. goddamn this addiction thing makes no sense. When I was all messed up, I wasn't even having fun. But yet I just NEEDED more and more and more thinking it was going to make it better. Maybe this next drink will give me the feeling I desire. I feel like I NEED more now even though I don't actually want it. It's just so.. depressing.

But it wasn't there. It never came. Probably a good thing.

The reason I relapsed was because I surrounded myself with old situations, old friends, etc. and let myself fall back into old patterns.

Please don't ever feel ashamed to come on here because of a relapse. We're all on the same team and rooting for each other

Relapses happen as part of recovery; it's okay! I promise. You found your trigger- and now you know what to avoid. You're able to do it, I promise. Brush yourself off and keep fighting on.

xx

 

[stardust.hero]

Generic don't ever feel ashamed to come back here as a day one. It takes some serious guts to admit you've submitted to the addiction but you are fighting it by admitting and starting over. Go you!

Pastely--good to see you in here love sending lots of loves

It's the ending to my 13th Day. In 13 days I've accomplished more than I have in 6 months I would say. Mostly mentally but both physically. My entire life is turning around and becoming positive. I feel a sense of security and well-beling--something I havn't felt truly in so long. I faked it..I held onto what little bits and pieces I had at any given time..but I feel a break in the black clouds that have been hovering over me for quite a long time. Not quite as long as I can remember but a loooong time.

Feels good. Goodnight 13 (a good and lucky number for today )

Love you all! Keep it up! Just for today!

 

[escape20]

Around 40 days sober! I say around because honestly I stopped keeping track and since I just got from vacation i'm too tired to do the math. But who really cares, all that matters is that i'm feeling great and I have no interest to getting high on opiates right now . Things seem to be getting better each day and finally I think i'm at the point where i'm all in to this recovery thing. The small part of me that still sorta wanted to use seems to have gone for now and i'm really grateful for that. I'm liking this sobriety thing alot more then I thought I would.

I still have a ton of work ahead of me though and I know that i've probably been feeling so good lately only due to being on vacation. But a few months ago I would'nt of even been able to leave the country and enjoy a vacation without drugs. I was in pretty bad shape with the heroin and diladiud man, in the last month before I went to rehab I started using needles and if I didn't get help right then I would've still been shooting up today most likely. Really thankful that I got help just in time!


P.S. If anyone on the east coast needs to find a good rehab, I would highly recommend fathermartinsashley (FMA). It's kinda expensive but with good insurance it's not too bad, and it really is a damn good place to get help. I would've stayed there longer if I could.

 

[neversickanymore]

yep killed another 24 everyone​

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

I'm still doing OK at a year and a month.

 

[nervousone]

4 days. Just got hit with some serious cravings... I was feeling better than expected this morning but I forgot how quickly moods can change during withdrawal.

 

[stardust.hero]

escape, 40 days wow congrats! Over a month is a long time!

NSA you are a true inspiration.

Priest wow over a year. From what may I ask? How are you feeling these days? Give the new ones the hope! Tell the word .


Been busy these past couple of days but it's that good kind of busy, waking up and going straight to the computer to check order status--lots of work . So havn't been able to check in until the evening.

2 weeks for me, or My 14th feeling great, handling stress well, have a bit more anxiety today (just today specifically, oddly) than I have in the past week. Perhaps it's because I have a meeting with my therapist tomorrow (2nd overall visit). It's by no means out of control, it's mild and tolerable. Before this it was over the top like a river surpassing the floodgates with no amount of mental willpower to calm it down or control it--now it's there but I can push it down and walk over it. Different feelings.

Each day is a new challenge. I accept it and I am excited for it !

See you all at check in later tonight Loves to you all!

 

[neversickanymore]

24​

 

[ad lib]

24​

Love it, neversickanymore! (My phone had your name stored in my phone from typing it so much- I don't say NSA anymore because of the NSA )

Everyone is doing real well so far! I've cut back on my benzos a little after a horrible etizolam binge on Sunday. I've only been taking my 2mg once (twice if i REALLY need it) per day just to keep withdrawal away. I'm proud of myself. Even though its baby steps, it's progress- "progress not perfection".

Stardust is my inspiration

 

[junglejuice]

I'm in!

Good luck guys...ODAAT!

:D

 

[stardust.hero]

Day 15

 

[PriestTheyCalledHim]

Priest wow over a year. From what may I ask? How are you feeling these days? Give the new ones the hope! Tell the word .


Been busy these past couple of days but it's that good kind of busy, waking up and going straight to the computer to check order status--lots of work . So havn't been able to check in until the evening.

2 weeks for me, or My 14th feeling great, handling stress well, have a bit more anxiety today (just today specifically, oddly) than I have in the past week. Perhaps it's because I have a meeting with my therapist tomorrow (2nd overall visit). It's by no means out of control, it's mild and tolerable. Before this it was over the top like a river surpassing the floodgates with no amount of mental willpower to calm it down or control it--now it's there but I can push it down and walk over it. Different feelings.

Each day is a new challenge. I accept it and I am excited for it !

See you all at check in later tonight Loves to you all!

1 year and a month from Alcohol. The rest of the stuff it's been years and I don't really keep track of it.