Sodium Valproate
You have what my psychiatrist calls 'masked' bi-polar - you can keep a job down, and initially display a 'rational' mask to the world, but underneath your 'face' that you show the world, you are VERY bi-polar. You have EVERY manifestation of pi-polar, and you should be on Sodium Valproate, (or Lithium), and you can keep taking Ritalin on it for motivation.
It works, 2 of my friends are on it, and it has changed their life better than anything else, and they tried every drug (legal and illegal) under the sun. Sodium Valprote (Eplom) plus therapy is a great combo for long term happyness, well being, and success in life.
Good luck, you are going to need it, because 'masked' bi-polar people very often refuse to admit they are bi-polar, refuse bi-polar medication like Sodium Valproate, and are great rationalisers, and have to run into 'the wall' many times before they the stop and 'get it'.
And also, because you are in your manic phase right now, the depressive stage ALWAYS comes sooner or later. The only thing that will stop it is a mood stablizer like Sodium Valproate. If you got any wisdom AT ALL you will try it for a week or two.
I would also change your diet, because face it, it is not working for you, as Dr. Phil would say.
Try this one, it works really well for me:
www.13.waisays.com
and give up cigarettes if you smoke, they actually increase mental illness quite ALOT.
I hope this helps.
You have what my psychiatrist calls 'masked' bi-polar - you can keep a job down, and initially display a 'rational' mask to the world, but underneath your 'face' that you show the world, you are VERY bi-polar. You have EVERY manifestation of pi-polar, and you should be on Sodium Valproate, (or Lithium), and you can keep taking Ritalin on it for motivation.
It works, 2 of my friends are on it, and it has changed their life better than anything else, and they tried every drug (legal and illegal) under the sun. Sodium Valprote (Eplom) plus therapy is a great combo for long term happyness, well being, and success in life.
Good luck, you are going to need it, because 'masked' bi-polar people very often refuse to admit they are bi-polar, refuse bi-polar medication like Sodium Valproate, and are great rationalisers, and have to run into 'the wall' many times before they the stop and 'get it'.
And also, because you are in your manic phase right now, the depressive stage ALWAYS comes sooner or later. The only thing that will stop it is a mood stablizer like Sodium Valproate. If you got any wisdom AT ALL you will try it for a week or two.
I would also change your diet, because face it, it is not working for you, as Dr. Phil would say.
Try this one, it works really well for me:
www.13.waisays.com
and give up cigarettes if you smoke, they actually increase mental illness quite ALOT.
I hope this helps.