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Say something you can't say to their face

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To her:

My feelings are getting stronger for you every day...

I wish you would leave him...

What are we? Are we just friends with benefits? Or are we lovers? What is this? Will we ever be together? Will you ever have room in your heart to love me? Do you feel the same way about me as I do you?

I'm doing everything I can to keep myself from loving you - I'm fucking as many other girls as I can, I'm forcing myself not to think about you, I try not to adore you, I try to focus more on our physical relationship, I remind myself every day that you'll never be all mine and that this is probably just gonna be temporary - we can't keep it a secret forever. But how can i not love you? It seems inevitable...

To him:

I envy you oh so very much... You get to see a side of her that I don't, you get to see her whenever you want, you get to be a part of her life, you get to experience her love, her warm embrace, you're allowed to love her. You have no idea how lucky you are, you ungrateful bastard.

You don't know me, you don't even know of my existence. Maybe you have your suspicions... I just hope you never find out. And if you do I'm sorry, I'm not a great person, I know I'm at fault here and you have every right to kick my ass. I won't even defend myself. Kick the crap out of me, I deserve it. I hope if she ever tells you, she lets you know that I care about her and it's not what it seems. Just know that if I ever get the chance to steal her, I will (so that makes us enemies right?); I will cherish her every day and never take her for granted. Just know that if you let her go she'll be in good hands...

-Anonymous
 
umm well... kind of used u to get my hands on the 'cid... but i did think that you were cute and cool.

...then you lied and said my ex broke into my house for no apparent reason. u were good in the beginning at concealing what a weirdo u were, but i want to know the reasoning behind why you did it.
 
I deserve more than this. You deserve more, too. But I should start worrying about me for once in my damn life.

It's not healthy, being with you. A completely one-sided, codependent relationship that leaves me exhausted. I feel like I have to work for your attention. It shouldn't be that way.

What's worse is that I will never have the strength to leave you.
 
I used to lie o you about being high. I took 2C-B on one of our most memorable dates and I never told you.
I'm sorry I'm a drug addict and you were always sober when we were in love.
 
You are such a good influence on me, I really dig that you don't drink alcohol and still don't mind that I enjoy a drink. Sorry I didn't come to the gym with you (I'm feeling a bit lazy today and watching winter olympics from bed). Can't wait to see you when you get home <3
 
You're my friend! We cannot do this. We cannot, you're my fucking homie, not my lover! You've got 3 dealbreakers. I already have boundary issues. Let's keep it business, seriously.
 
I let it get out-of-hand again last year. Real bad. Of course you know this. And it doesn't bother you because you're just that good of a girl.

But it absolutely kills me knowing that I’m only now able to be a person who could be there for you for friendship, empathy, entertainment and company at night, and yet I cannot do any of these things right now, practically speaking. I can barely sustain here, where the cost-of-living is so low. Moving back where you are is not possible anytime soon, though I am doing everything in my power to make it happen as soon as I can. I am trying to live better these days, and I am sure you see it. I was a stupid little kid when we dated, and even that stupid little kid you praise as your best months ever. I’m working, I’m staying clean, I am taking great care of my mind and body. I’m sure you can understand how my confidence is raising, how I am functioning better within society and how I’m growing through a lot of my old behaviours that were holding me back. I just am so overwhelmed financially right now that I don’t know how long it might be before I’d ever be able to relocate back where you are and give you the companionship that you’re worrying more and more each year that you’ll never find.

You remind me that I am not actually a sociopath. That I am not completely selfish. That I can truly care for another human being. And even when you cause my emotions to go crazy, I cannot ever really be upset with you. You’re so similar to me inside of your head that I can immediately understand why you do what you do. Of course it makes my heart pound when you complain about your one-night stands, but I never let you know that it bothers me. And it only bothers me on an animal level, I know that you are just trying to have fun. I’m sure you’re the same way with me. And I know that it’s unfair to think that you’d wait for me. And I feel like a terrible person for not truly being able to come around to the idea of letting the thought of us go so that someone else could make you happy. I know that I need to, but that involves giving up, and you’re just too good to ever give up.

But I know that you had a really bad day today. I did too at work. We’re too good of people to feel this terrible during a beautiful snow. I wish that we could both escape our suffering for even ten minutes and take a walk around the lake in the snow. The flakes are really big and there’s no wind at all. You know how we both get really creative when we hear the silence of the snow. We could pretend that we were walking through a fluke snowstorm in the French countryside and talk about it possibly closing our gallery down later. Or we could just spend those ten minutes not saying anything and just enjoy being next to each other.

I just don’t know how long it’s going to take for me to be able to romance you like we both want. How many months of intellectual foreplay has it been? For the first time in my life, I have the confidence that I could be a good person for you. I’m just torn up over whether that good person would want you to wait for him or not.
 
I miss u so much. It hurts that u don't feel the same. I know he's enough for u, you don't need me like I need u. I know this relationship is unhealthy for me and yet I can't leave u. I wish u cared about me and didn't ignore me. I think I might love u....
 
I don't know why you can't be honest with me. It hurts me beyond belief. I may act like everything is ok but I'll never look at you the same.
 
I want you to relise what you did overrides anything negative I've ever said to you. But will you ever relise that? Probabaly not
 
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maybe you could learn to hold your tongue, foo'

:)

takes two to tango

so put a sock in it future if you can't deal with the fire you incited
 
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