I do you favors and everything you ask, I love you, forgive you..everything that I can. Why does that make you so angry. I am not your dad, I am not doing these things to manipulate you. I understand you had a hard childhood. I understand you're depressed. I can't even count the hours I've spent comforting you, talking things through giving advice. I had a tough childhood ... I spent years shooting heroin, cleaning up, relapsing, cleaning up... Do you think that was easy? Do you think no one else in the world struggles? How can you always say how much you want to leave and never do it? How can you treat me this way when you supposedly love me.
Yeah, you need time to get better. It's been over a year and a half, and your rage has only gotten worse. I've told you I'm not man enough to break up, even if that's what I really wanted. So leave if you want, but quit trying to take me down with you.
Or, be happy. There Is not a goddamn thing holding you back but you.
Enjoy my company. Help me. Show me that you love me. I need physical affection sometimes. Sure we fuck but my touch seems to repulse you. My kind words make you shake with rage. My interests annoy you. My compliments make you defensive. My efforts make you think you are all alone. My struggles aren't nearly as bad as yours. Just because I don't have an emotional breakdown twice a day doesn't mean anything. Do you wonder why I stifle my emotions? Do you wonder why I am so scared of you?
I guess what it comes down to is... You are so used to be hated.. You react the same way .. Even when you are being loved.