i never wanted it to come to this,but it has,i hate to say it but its your fault!!!! dont what ever happens blame yourself for what im going to do,all you need to know is that i love you always have always will,and that im going to be a much happier person when i kill myself tomorow,an no one try and stop me iv made up my mind,im in too much pain,i cant cope with it,coupled with everything else i cant live anymore,i jus simply cant do it.rachel im sorry and i love you,ami there will always be a place in my heart for you,your my best freind and ill wait for you at the white shore,tom im sorry i hope u can understand and you......i hope you burn in hell,you no who you are.