I miss you babe. I know it hasn't been long, and I know I fucked up, but please don't forget about all the good times we had. Our time together was short, but we spent everyday together at least a little bit, and it was special. I've never cared about another woman as much as you, and it breaks my heart that it ended like it did. I know it was selfish to go off about how much I hated my life, but at the time I was drinking and felt like shit. I wish we could have talked about things, I know you wanted to but I was afraid of upsetting you and pushing you away even more than I already had.
I think I might have herpes. I tried to be careful and used condoms when anything even slightly suspicious was about, but I never got an outbreak like that or any until we started dating. I hope you didn't give it to me, but I also hope I didn't give it to you. Even if you have it and knew about it, I would still love you and want to be with you.
Please please please don't forget about me TS. I can't stop thinking about you! I'm doing everything I can to get better and recover from my addiction and relapse and emotional turmoil about purpose in life. I know you're stressed about money and what you're doing next with your life, but I want to be there for you and be a part of your life still. I want you to be in my life!! You made me so happy, nothing came close to laying with you in bed, holding you close. Laughing, giving you foot rubs, joking around, going to walmart, smoking cigs and driving around. You meant the world to me, and I let you know that. It's still true. I don't want to have to get over you!! I want to fix this... I want to talk to you baby. I want to make you remember why we loved each other so much in the first place.
I hope we can see each other again soon and talk about this. I am still in love with you, and it hurts everyday being away from you, it's hard not to think about you. I love you. I miss you.

you TS