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You can go to 4th paragraph, crux, to know what happened...
Experience 1, last night
Background
So this whole week at night, when I turned off my room light and laid in bed, within the first minute, I sensed a presence like an unusually cold breeze in the room or floating mist/fog, strange light or shadow movement. So this whole week, when I saw and felt those things, I went to sleep in my mom's room with her or went outside, but last night, I stayed.
Intro
I saw a man's face upside down and was being too close, in my face in a nice and creepy way with me, and was a bit freaked out because I saw like rave orgy with lots of people. I felt bothered and I told them I wasn't into that, and have fun and I went to my mom's room.
Transition
In my mom's room, my head barely hit the pillow and he or they were there so I got up and I went downstairs in the lit kitchen for a pause and went back to bed in my room to read, but i felt disturbed by this/these presences, so I had to deal.
Crux of Story
I saw the guy's face (looked younger than before) and asked questions, I could see facial expressions and read lips but it was difficult seeing detail bc my room wasn't totally darkened and my vision sucks, and I think the sharpness of the spirit wasn't great. I started asking questions because am i supposed to learn from this, what am i seeing, is this my past behaviors, and am i suppose to reflect, and do i know u, and when he said yes, I had to darken the room and eventually learned that he was an x bf telling me he still loved me (but honestly, I wasn't so distraught about the whole thing and hadn't been thinking about it much since we broke up 5 months ago). I was more into asking questions like am I crazy, how are u doing this? etc... I could read his lips and kind of hear him say that I have done it (but I get scared and come back). Floating xbf implied that he astral projected just as I have unintentionally experienced on past occasions. he told me he loved me and i said that i dont know what that means from him.
I ended up hanging out with xbf, his housemate, and a few others, even though there were lots of other people there. I put on music but seeing their rave sticks and dancing spirits, I guess they had music on too. At times, I could feel a little weight, and electricity or tiny vibrations to from touch. Xbf wanted to kiss and stuff, but without being able to feel, i couldnt do it because I like to hold and feel and touch things, like buttons on a phone; plus im still hurt by him and I dont fuck around w ppl i dont love and if he doesnt love me. Eventually, I could feel his leg, a little bit of weight, and faintly feel hand movements.
I was an emotional rollercoaster-- crying, then amused, feeling cared for. The one thing I was able to really touch was the softball size bubble ball handed to me.
So the scene went from what I first thought was really bacchanalian hell (I literally felt molested by these spirits) to more relaxing scene with 2 familiar people and 2 strangers being nice and chill in the middle of a sex rave.
End of story
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Experience 2
There was another time a few months ago I had all these cute, mythical creatures with a human like (but slightly smaller stature) protector. The creatures seemed like catlike, and friendly flowers and insects and little people and I could see them more clearly and could sense there weight more, and feel them when they touched me. A little girl gave me a dandelion seed like flower (made of more solid lines) to play with.
I had my friend next to me in my bed and he had never believed in spirits but now he could sense them and see the mist and felt a hand. The night before this one, I sensed spirit presences with mist/fog and asked questions and was able to have a physical body sensation linked to a yes or no.
So these things happen to me when I'm awake, I am pretty sure I am not asleep, without my asking. I have had supernatural occurrences throughout my life, not everyday, but after an OD, a naturally occurring DMT awakening, and kundalini awakening/prana surge in 2008, I had periods of more intense occurrences followed by more months of non-activity.
I was raised Christian, believe in God, and spirits, chakrahs, but I actually practice Christianity and not the meditative, new-age, yoga, whatever this is way.
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For u readers...
Anyway, I am wondering if you have any comment to make on these supernatural things I experience because I don't have any guidance and do get freaked out sometimes. I don't try to experience these supernatural things. I don't know why these things are happening or how I am supposed to take in these experiences. Also, if I saw my xbf and housemate is it totally from me or did they do something, I txted one of them, but havent heard. Any thoughts or comments?
Experience 1, last night
Background
So this whole week at night, when I turned off my room light and laid in bed, within the first minute, I sensed a presence like an unusually cold breeze in the room or floating mist/fog, strange light or shadow movement. So this whole week, when I saw and felt those things, I went to sleep in my mom's room with her or went outside, but last night, I stayed.
Intro
I saw a man's face upside down and was being too close, in my face in a nice and creepy way with me, and was a bit freaked out because I saw like rave orgy with lots of people. I felt bothered and I told them I wasn't into that, and have fun and I went to my mom's room.
Transition
In my mom's room, my head barely hit the pillow and he or they were there so I got up and I went downstairs in the lit kitchen for a pause and went back to bed in my room to read, but i felt disturbed by this/these presences, so I had to deal.
Crux of Story
I saw the guy's face (looked younger than before) and asked questions, I could see facial expressions and read lips but it was difficult seeing detail bc my room wasn't totally darkened and my vision sucks, and I think the sharpness of the spirit wasn't great. I started asking questions because am i supposed to learn from this, what am i seeing, is this my past behaviors, and am i suppose to reflect, and do i know u, and when he said yes, I had to darken the room and eventually learned that he was an x bf telling me he still loved me (but honestly, I wasn't so distraught about the whole thing and hadn't been thinking about it much since we broke up 5 months ago). I was more into asking questions like am I crazy, how are u doing this? etc... I could read his lips and kind of hear him say that I have done it (but I get scared and come back). Floating xbf implied that he astral projected just as I have unintentionally experienced on past occasions. he told me he loved me and i said that i dont know what that means from him.
I ended up hanging out with xbf, his housemate, and a few others, even though there were lots of other people there. I put on music but seeing their rave sticks and dancing spirits, I guess they had music on too. At times, I could feel a little weight, and electricity or tiny vibrations to from touch. Xbf wanted to kiss and stuff, but without being able to feel, i couldnt do it because I like to hold and feel and touch things, like buttons on a phone; plus im still hurt by him and I dont fuck around w ppl i dont love and if he doesnt love me. Eventually, I could feel his leg, a little bit of weight, and faintly feel hand movements.
I was an emotional rollercoaster-- crying, then amused, feeling cared for. The one thing I was able to really touch was the softball size bubble ball handed to me.
So the scene went from what I first thought was really bacchanalian hell (I literally felt molested by these spirits) to more relaxing scene with 2 familiar people and 2 strangers being nice and chill in the middle of a sex rave.
End of story
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Experience 2
There was another time a few months ago I had all these cute, mythical creatures with a human like (but slightly smaller stature) protector. The creatures seemed like catlike, and friendly flowers and insects and little people and I could see them more clearly and could sense there weight more, and feel them when they touched me. A little girl gave me a dandelion seed like flower (made of more solid lines) to play with.
I had my friend next to me in my bed and he had never believed in spirits but now he could sense them and see the mist and felt a hand. The night before this one, I sensed spirit presences with mist/fog and asked questions and was able to have a physical body sensation linked to a yes or no.
So these things happen to me when I'm awake, I am pretty sure I am not asleep, without my asking. I have had supernatural occurrences throughout my life, not everyday, but after an OD, a naturally occurring DMT awakening, and kundalini awakening/prana surge in 2008, I had periods of more intense occurrences followed by more months of non-activity.
I was raised Christian, believe in God, and spirits, chakrahs, but I actually practice Christianity and not the meditative, new-age, yoga, whatever this is way.
-----
For u readers...
Anyway, I am wondering if you have any comment to make on these supernatural things I experience because I don't have any guidance and do get freaked out sometimes. I don't try to experience these supernatural things. I don't know why these things are happening or how I am supposed to take in these experiences. Also, if I saw my xbf and housemate is it totally from me or did they do something, I txted one of them, but havent heard. Any thoughts or comments?
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