First off let me start by saying im bound and determined to do this, i dont ever get hi anymore not even a little buzz unless its somehow on accident trying to feel better.
I have to get clean first of all i need to get a new job thats gonna piss test me, second of all ive pretty much lost about everything finacially sept a few things i wish to keep. A month ago i was popping 120mgs of morphine a few times a day which then turned into 320mgs of oc a day or so.
Here right now im down to about 150mgs of morphine a day and i can go about 20 hours or so before i start dosing. I chew two or three mallie m30s at a time and usually the 60-90mgs of m take the edge off, by the time i get to the 5th one i feel like a normal human being no euphoria or anything just physically ok. Id say the worst symptoms i experince in the 20 hour persiods are sore ass legs and just genrally being tired. Cant CT becuase im to broke to not work... and usually CT just leads to alot of failure, this controlled tappering has been serving me well. Id like to be off the shit as whithin the next week or two at the most. 21 day program doent work for me and is just as exspensive as the amount of m im at right now.
So heres what i can usually get on a regular basis
m30s time release
vicoden 7.5 and 5 almost same price as m...
darvocet chheeeappp
valium and xanax
where do i go from here to make this as physically comftorable as possible? ive been at the 150mg dose of m for about a week and its not to comftorable except maybe 10 or so hours a day just enough to get through work... every time i wait those 12 to 24 hours to dose though i feel a little less uncomftable than the day before.
Ideally id like to jum; to maybe 12 darvs a day and higher doses of immodium but im not sure that will help at this point. ive been using close to everyday for a year done methadone on and off iving and so on.. so hopefully that will shed some more light on where my tolerance is and how hard it will be to jump off this shit with minimal physical discomfort. My benzo tolerance isnt very bad at all 10 mgs of valium or 1.5mgs of xanax still gets me loopy
I have to get clean first of all i need to get a new job thats gonna piss test me, second of all ive pretty much lost about everything finacially sept a few things i wish to keep. A month ago i was popping 120mgs of morphine a few times a day which then turned into 320mgs of oc a day or so.
Here right now im down to about 150mgs of morphine a day and i can go about 20 hours or so before i start dosing. I chew two or three mallie m30s at a time and usually the 60-90mgs of m take the edge off, by the time i get to the 5th one i feel like a normal human being no euphoria or anything just physically ok. Id say the worst symptoms i experince in the 20 hour persiods are sore ass legs and just genrally being tired. Cant CT becuase im to broke to not work... and usually CT just leads to alot of failure, this controlled tappering has been serving me well. Id like to be off the shit as whithin the next week or two at the most. 21 day program doent work for me and is just as exspensive as the amount of m im at right now.
So heres what i can usually get on a regular basis
m30s time release
vicoden 7.5 and 5 almost same price as m...
darvocet chheeeappp
valium and xanax
where do i go from here to make this as physically comftorable as possible? ive been at the 150mg dose of m for about a week and its not to comftorable except maybe 10 or so hours a day just enough to get through work... every time i wait those 12 to 24 hours to dose though i feel a little less uncomftable than the day before.
Ideally id like to jum; to maybe 12 darvs a day and higher doses of immodium but im not sure that will help at this point. ive been using close to everyday for a year done methadone on and off iving and so on.. so hopefully that will shed some more light on where my tolerance is and how hard it will be to jump off this shit with minimal physical discomfort. My benzo tolerance isnt very bad at all 10 mgs of valium or 1.5mgs of xanax still gets me loopy
