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i don't like bats. i love animals in general but bats are towaards the lower end of my list.

by the way

if you're not angry, you're not listening

thats not from me but i've discovred that everything i have to say is better said by a punk rock lyricist.

i should move over to the i'm fucked thread.
 
jancrow said:
I'm batman.
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You mean you wear tight tights :p

Thanks Sadie, I'm doing really good. Totally stressed out by that damn job of my mine that sucks so much of me and my life, but applying some sense to it and enjoying life with the man, families and my garden.

Regretting the drastic hair cut mind...its so hard to work with :\ lol

When do you start your course / work placement?

Edit: Evening chinup, hope you're in a good fucked place babes.
 
I'd love to see your new cut.

Sorry to hear things are stressful at work. Hope they get better. Glad to hear life is treating you and the Mr well.

I start later on in the year.
 
Well chuffed for you, sounds like the ideal course for you.

Ock my job's like that, somtimes it's grim, sometimes ok - I get out of bed in the morning thinking least I'm doing something good - keeps me going, and I'm paid well so shouldn't complain really.

I'm fed up with people commenting about my hair loss! Embarrassed by it now. However I did it because I needed "change" a new look. I'll get used to it and it'll save me a fortune in shampoo and conditioner haha, Been heavily getting into meditation and mindfulness of recent, a step beyond CBT - all good. Wish you'd taken that up btw <3

Spending less time on here has been good for me.
 
I meditate a lot.

I do writing therapy. That works for me. I also find solitude in a quiet room or drawing. It's really been beneficial.

I went to my CBT appt. The woman said if anyone one was in no way in need of CBT it was me. She said I dealt with things logically. Doesn't mean that a bit of therapy wouldn't bloody go amiss. I've seen a few in my time and they always help me out. Hence the reason CBT doesn't work for me. I know how to deal with things. She said it's because I'm dealing with too much. But meditation has helped greatly. I also do music therapy. Of course all that off my own back. I don't get outside help. but that's soon to change. I've got great contacts now. Better than my doctor can offer.

Yeah, I'm looking forward to my course. I just want to help people. Be a good person and offer support to others when they need it the most and make sure they get good after care as well.
 
Im sitting here playing Karma Police by Radiohead on my guitar
I reckon I have it down , although a piano would be more appropraite
 
nice one! I was listening to Easy all stars version of that just earlier today. Much better than the original IMO. BUt both are pretty ace.

I gave up on Guitar too easily. Would love someone to teach me now. Broke mine in January so don't even have one to be taught with.
 
Sadie said:
I meditate a lot.

I do writing therapy. That works for me. I also find solitude in a quiet room or drawing. It's really been beneficial.

I went to my CBT appt. The woman said if anyone one was in no way in need of CBT it was me. She said I dealt with things logically. Doesn't mean that a bit of therapy wouldn't bloody go amiss. I've seen a few in my time and they always help me out. Hence the reason CBT doesn't work for me. I know how to deal with things. She said it's because I'm dealing with too much. But meditation has helped greatly. I also do music therapy. Of course all that off my own back. I don't get outside help. but that's soon to change. I've got great contacts now. Better than my doctor can offer.

Yeah, I'm looking forward to my course. I just want to help people. Be a good person and offer support to others when they need it the most and make sure they get good after care as well.
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That's fantastic you must be doing well, you deserve it too <3 Didn't realise cbt had anything to do with logic mind, you learn something new every day :) It's not at all like that for me. I just hate seeing you post in the angry thread etc and wondered if it was a tool that would be useful to you..I'm jealous you can do other things like this and off your own back too - I cant :\ You're some gal!

How are you finding mediation practise? It's some journey eh, well for me any hoo.

I'm off the g btw, you too?
 
@Sadie: yeah its very easy to give up on things. I have given up on things before and maybe I wish I had stuck with them
I kind of stuck with the guitar and I suppose in the end you get out of something what you put in. Just takes some effort I guess. And I am really lazy
 
kate said:
That's fantastic you must be doing well, you deserve it too <3 Didn't realise cbt had anything to do with logic mind, you learn something new every day :) It's not at all like that for me. I just hate seeing you post in the angry thread etc and wondered if it was a tool that would be useful to you..I'm jealous you can do other things like this and off your own back too - I cant :\ You're some gal!

How are you finding mediation practise? It's some journey eh, well for me any hoo.

I'm off the g btw, you too?
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I get frustrated so I post in the Angry thread or the new Sad thread. My logic has always been a problem shared is a problem halved. I just like to get my frustrations out. EADD despite some dickhead is usually full of people who are full of support. Most of us stick together and offer a kind word when all is not well with the world. The people ( most ) are just amazing here. Couldn't ask for a better bunch of folk.

It does sadden me quite a bit that I'm not the happy person I used to be. I have two events from last year to thank for that.

I'm healing though. It takes me a while. I don't find meditation a journey. More of a cleansing. I feel better, clean after. I find music, writhing and drawing therapy works best for me. Meditation can get a bit heavy sometimes but I do feel the air is clear after.

I have to do things off my own back. There just isn't the NHS Funding to help me. I was on a waiting list for nearly a year before I got to see someone for CBT only to be told that it wasn't right for me. I'd have to wait another year to see a therapist. :\

Glad to hear you're off the G. I don't like to speak about such things on the board for reasons you're aware of but yeah, same here. In fact the worst I've had really has been cider and fags.

Wooooo, I live life on the edge 8) Thats just the way things are just now.

th3 s1aught3r said:
@Sadie: yeah its very easy to give up on things. I have given up on things before and maybe I wish I had stuck with them
I kind of stuck with the guitar and I suppose in the end you get out of something what you put in. Just takes some effort I guess. And I am really lazy
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I gave up on the guitar because I found it so difficult. I used to play bass as well as several other instruments. Music always came easy to me. Guitar was just more difficult and I gave up to easily. :\
 
Meh, I've had to cope from a young age and a few rather traumatic experiences. Hence the happy person I had become. I just have to build myself back up again.

Doesn't happen over night but it does happen. Life hasn't killed me yet. Might make me vulerable for a while but in the end I only end up strong for it. :\


Funny, I always admired your happiness and kindness despite what's going on in your world. You've always seemed to me to be such a kind, caring soul. I've always admired that about you. You seem to bring snoo with you when you're on the board. :) <3
 
Aww you are too kind.

I now aspire to be a troll on EADD...must refine my tactics lol

It's getting late for me, have lots planned for this weekend, so should attempt some shut eye soon. I want some energy tomorrow :)

Have a good weekend pretty lady, hope to catch you again here sometime soon <3 nighty night EADD.
 
You have a nice sleep Kate. Hopefully we will catch up soon. Have a great day tomorrow. Think I won't be far behind you in going to bed.
 
Sadie said:
It does sadden me quite a bit that I'm not the happy person I used to be. I have two events from last year to thank for that.
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I know of a book would do you wonders Sadie. It's titled 'Defeating depression - a self help guide'.

It's by Dr G Tomlinson and is CBT based.

Here's a quote in relation to what you just said.

"It is very common for depressed people to believe that they have lost something very important to them, although often this is not really the case".

Also remember that automatic negative thoughts have alot to blame for feeling depressed.
Here's 4 genuine characteristics of 'NAT's (negative automatic thoughts).

1) They are automatic: they pop up in our mind without any effort.

2) They are unhelpful: They maintain the depression and make it hard to change.

3) They are believable: So much so that you don't think to question them.

4) They are persistent: They can be very hard to switch off, it takes effort.


Anyways, if you can, grab a copy. It's well worth it!
 
will do Cornish, thanks for the heads up. Think I'll enjoy that and gain a bit from it.


How are you anyway honey? Glad to see you about again.

(edit) Just saw your last post, night night. Hope you have pleasant dreams
 
MORNING ALL :D
i woke up feeling very refreshed and happy (maybe its saturday.. :P)
but yeas, got a lovely afterglow from a few crabbies, about 50mg of blues a xanax and a few midazolam at bedtime to zonk me, worked a treat and woke up feeling great :D

how is everyone?
 
hmm i notice i log on and dominate all the threads, sorry guys, seems like my rantings arent evryones cuppa tea, ill quieten myself down and let others post..depressing seeing every recent posts last post made by moi! :| lol
 
Just got up, the sun has vanished today in my area :( Shitty cloudy day.

Finishing the last couple DHC's then I'm done with recreational opiate use for good.
 
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