well I'm still awake but the subutex weed and beer has made me feel very mellow.. thought my sleeping was coming back after depending on benzos for so long, this week actually had at least 4/5 hours a night, but this evening my brain was goin like mad, maybe it's because I'm seeing my dad soon for the first time since he found out I've had real drug problems, I reckon he might feel slightly vindicated for moaning about me smoklng weed when I was younger haha
damn wish I had more comfy meds, going home is going to be very sober.. I need to be, long overdue a few weeks of not doing lots all the time and got several thousand words to write for uni but tonights my last night to get a lil fucked.. don't think their going to be as liberal with the booze this time as I told them it makes me crave drugs, which is true.. and my mum will certainly have made sure the bad meds are well hidden away as I recently admitted to stealing them last time I was there
yep, think I may have been a little too honest! :D my sis will hopefully make sure theres at least some hash in for the sleepless nights, don't think I'm ready for total abstinence, but its going to be good.. trying to stay clean is no easy task, hopefully a couple of clear headed weeks in the sun will make it easier