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I used to work for a 24 hour messaging answering service, one of the campaigns was a helpline for women who wanted to be put in touch with a service for counseling for Domestic Violence. We weren't trained to deal with the calls, all we could do was transfer them through to their local service, usually Women's Aid (who are amazing!) but by this time the woman had already spilled out her entire story to me. I'd always gently try and interrupt and advise them that I was transferring them to a trained counselor. If they were in immediate danger I'd always tell them to call 999, it was always the first question I'd ask them as soon as they call came through!

Some of the stories were heartbreaking, and so hard to listen to. Little did I know at the time how much I would come to rely on a service like that myself. Most of the domestic abuse support worker's I've had, also came from abusive back grounds, however at the moment it's not something I could consider working with. I'm still suffering with PTSD and nightmares from the incidents at the moment.

I do want to get involved with care work, just not anything that i've been through recently. Maybe one day.

You're making the right moves Sadie, good luck with them :)

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Grr.. might be something to do with working alongside vulnerable people, can be a bit of a nightmare getting all the paperwork etc done..
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Hell yeah, I put in an application to volunteer on a ward at the BRI. Still waiting for paperwork and full background check to go through, and the CRB. I already have a CRB, which took a long time, but obviously you need a new one for each job/volunteer position. Something to chase up once I get back to Bristol town :)
 
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CBT was amusing.

She said I had a great outlook on life and seem to deal with things rather well and CBT isn't for me.

She said I've got a hell of a lot to deal with right now and everything considered I'm coping really well.

If anything I suppose it boosted my confidence. I left with a smile on my face.

I've got some very stressful events coming up so she say's she want's to see me after that to make sure I'm dealing with them in the best possible way.

All in all, I've had a great and productive day. Sun is shining, and I think I'm gonna potter about the house, prepare dinner and do a bit of spring cleaning clearance. I want rid of some of this clutter in my house. Nice Clean and clutter free.
 
Good, good, Sadie :)

Although if you feel you need help of some kind and the CBT folk don't think their form will be of any help to you (snap!) were any other options suggested? Nice they had the honesty to admit that CBT may be great but has its limitations too.

Also, sorry to hear about Ratty. Missed that last night. Which one of the poor lil blighters went to Rat Heaven? I'm guessing the auld fella but must admit I never did get the hang of telling which one was which :o
 
I'm glad you're feeling good about it Sadie. I have to say, I bang on about CBT, but I'm not surprised they don't think it will help you because its essentially just common sense, which you seem to have enough of.

anyway hello eveyone, i've not been around for a few days. prob for the best cos i'm stuck at the bottom of a massive hole, dug entirely by me, and actually think i might be properly going insane.
 
You seem to have found a useful ladder to find your way towards the surface again if you're back posting again then, Chin. Holes in the absence of ket are a Bad Thing. Hope it's getting shallower by the minute and please do make use of the BL hole escape and avoidance facilities available here to all. They've certainly helped me out of many a hole. There's always space in my PM box if it's of any help at all <3

Actually there is rarely any space in me inbox but there is at the moment. For once 8)
 
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CBT was amusing.

She said I had a great outlook on life and seem to deal with things rather well and CBT isn't for me.

She said I've got a hell of a lot to deal with right now and everything considered I'm coping really well.

If anything I suppose it boosted my confidence. I left with a smile on my face.

I've got some very stressful events coming up so she say's she want's to see me after that to make sure I'm dealing with them in the best possible way.

All in all, I've had a great and productive day. Sun is shining, and I think I'm gonna potter about the house, prepare dinner and do a bit of spring cleaning clearance. I want rid of some of this clutter in my house. Nice Clean and clutter free.
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That made me happy to read that Sadie :)

Big smiles on cherry's face =D

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All is happy in the Cherry and Mcpanda household today too. Got to sort some soft black out for my Dad later. Once my hair has dried, gonna go for a walk in the sunshine and take some more photos.

Happy days today. <3
 
Shambles- haha actually did just send you a PM, tho before i saw this post. and lol'd at the "holes in the absence of ket are Bad Things.' i'm actually seriously considering reattempting an MXE hole, but that wouldn't help.

i'll be ok, actually i can't promise this but i can promise i'm getting everything i deserve for being a dickhead with literally no self control so the world remains balanced from that point of view.
 
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nah, She didn't recommend anything else. Said if I wanted to I could speak to my GP about counselling. Ya know, Just so I could have someone to talk to about all the crap going on. But I've been strong enough this time round not to need anti-deps and I'm a pretty open person to those close to me so they lend me their ear when they can. That helps a lot.

Nah, She was brilliant.


I do think CBT is an excellent programme. and I know someone it's really going to help. Some people deal with problems badly, some bury their head in the sand and some just stand up to them. Can't say I'm always strong but I seem to cope rather well so she says. I've got anxiety issues that have only arisen in the past year but she gave me a great website that should help me on how to deal with my anxiety issues. They're not major so that's a bonus.

Hey Chinup! Nice to see you about today.

And Cherry <3 <3 <3 Nice to hear we're both finally on a good day.




Shammy, It was the one that made all those cute nibble nibble noises. They were both the same age but the other one seems rather healthy. Though I'm sure he's gonna get really lonely so we'll have to make sure we put aside some extra time to give him attention.
 
Fair enough- I guess I'm bitter about it because it seems to help everyone but it didn't help me. Or it did, I do CBT on myself, sometimes its helps and sometimes I end up frustrated because I now feel totally shit on top of knowing why I'm being completely irrational. However I should say its easy for me to slag it off because I had it from the age of 14-18, its second nature to me, I'd probably feel very differently otherwise and should take that into account more.

I hope you do manage to cope better, all these things end up with some kind of feedback mechanism, but i find anxiety tends to be one of the worst for spiralling out of control.

anyway glad there's a lot of positivity on here today, i need some!!!
 
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I awake at 8am and I was pissed last night, this is usually the time I stroll home in SP!! Disaster of anight, get ready to go out, realise ive left my wallet on my bed so run up to get it and tell the cock whos organising the night out to not send everyone in taxi till im back. Takes me 2 minutes but come back to find everyone gone. So I take a taxi solo to the club he tells me, he must be fucking wrong as not a single person in this shitty club. Not even thehostel folk and ive been made to pay for beers in advance thank god I only bought 2!Ended up wandering around the red light district (which is where all the clubs are) by myself goinginto all sorts of dodgy establishments. Fed up quickly, ccame home and went into the room, some prick gives me grief about turning the light on, have a big drunken argument, call him a prick and tell him to fuckk of back to bed. He's Romainian so I call him a gypsy cunt...is that racist?
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Dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddingyed!!!!!!
 
weds night would generally be the quietest to be stabbed..ahh man im new here and stoned off my box ;P
 
I had a quick nap earlier. Didn't do me much good but had some odd dream that had Shammy living next door. The police banging his door for playing his music too loud during a blackout. Me going over to ask what the fuck that was about and there being like 3 teenage girls there going mental with music that couldn't be heard.


ODD.

Still a bit normal if chosen from a list of my most odd dreams.
 
Teehee. I also recently woke up from a nap (well, a slight KO from overenthusiastic Guicing cos I only got it today) but don't think any teenage girls have been going mental to quiet music and police tend to not give up so easily when they come a-knocking. Suppose that being blacked out I wouldn't really know though so you may well be right 8o
 
oh on bad dreams, I have the most horrendous one's after serotonin inducing substances, if fact there that bad I can't bring myself to tell anyone about them, truly bizarre in a bad way lol
 
I don't think giving the other half that old snowball was worth it.

He's in a huff. Could be because I'm online, could be because of Dark rum, could be a combo of the three
 
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