Paralogic
Ex-Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jul 18, 2007
- Messages
- 475
My positive attitude seems to be revealing some negative attitudes with the people around me (just pushing the asshole meter up a notch). I dont think its an uncommon scenario for one to have dissonant feelings when theres someone exceptionally happy around. The worst are the people that just cant stand being around someone even remotely happy. I know I get a little weird sometimes, honestly I feel like the internet is just my playground and I just love to act like a child here (Im workin on it so dont yell at me, im 19). When im out its different and I dont jump on the backs of strangers. At times my cheeryness isnt soo excessive, but when it becomes a little too much I dont think its to the point where it annoys people. Theres no pretentiousness in my diction (LOL ok ill be serious), I feel like im very good at avoiding condescendence, or just plain doing or saying anything (not typing hehe) that would bother someone else. I rarely talk about the whole psychic-ish thing which I know would bother my more conservative group of friends, and even when I do its very subtle and not something I try to cram into a 5 minute trap (I do that to my parents :D). Still, people will just start criticizing me (semi-passive suggestion) almost intentionally so they could see me cry or somthin.
This positive mindset that came out of nowhere is nothing more than a retrieval of memory; during my whole legal thing I thought I pretty much had no identity and my true self was sitting in that jail cell sleeping most of the day and my body was doomed to live the life of a deadbeat 30yr old begger. People remember me when I used to be confident and just plain happy, but over time I just realized there were actually people around me that seeked to gain out of my suffering. I avoid those types, but the ones I knew were loyal and loving seem to exude a negative attitude towards my positivity like its an itch everyone has to scratch (I can sort of admit to this too, especially when people win money or candy in front of me). Has anyone else experienced this sort of thing in social situations during ones more desirable mood fluctuation?....PLUR
This positive mindset that came out of nowhere is nothing more than a retrieval of memory; during my whole legal thing I thought I pretty much had no identity and my true self was sitting in that jail cell sleeping most of the day and my body was doomed to live the life of a deadbeat 30yr old begger. People remember me when I used to be confident and just plain happy, but over time I just realized there were actually people around me that seeked to gain out of my suffering. I avoid those types, but the ones I knew were loyal and loving seem to exude a negative attitude towards my positivity like its an itch everyone has to scratch (I can sort of admit to this too, especially when people win money or candy in front of me). Has anyone else experienced this sort of thing in social situations during ones more desirable mood fluctuation?....PLUR
