Like a great number of people I've considered checking out more than once but I currently conclude that I really should stick around for the rest of the show, death and whatever might follow will seek me out when it's good and ready.
Small beans as it is you'd certainly be missed in these parts
Thanks for for your supportive messages. I had actually written a longer post but it disappeared.
Starting so early in life, having a kid with 18, terrified to lose my job and my scholarship and losing so much of my health due to heavy need of drugs makes me feel older now. Maybe I'm just exhausted.
Feels like being on my 40s but feeling like I'm over 60. And still terrified about losing my work, etc.
The need of having a sober life after 27 years of drug abuse gets in the way.
But your messages give me hope. Thank you!
Erikmen your post resounds with me, I'm 49 and started abusing myself and drugs early...hmm 14-15 and never really stopped. Well the odd pregnancy or 3 and breakdown stopped it for a bit but I agree it takes a heavy toll on you as you age and makes you wonder about all that damage. But as I creep towards 50 and my family are now off my hands I feel a that I do have a chance to make something of "what's left" however long that may be. I'm keen to grasp it with enthusiasm and make the most of it. Take risks and try new things - hell what have we to lose?
Throw yourself into a new era, you never know what joy it may bring or not. But the roads long and there's mileage to go yet, new things to see do and experience to be enjoyed - It's still life babes, you gotta run with it