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POLL - EADD: How old are you?

How old are you

  • 0-18

    Votes: 1 1.9%
  • 19-24

    Votes: 5 9.3%
  • 25-29

    Votes: 11 20.4%
  • 30-34

    Votes: 12 22.2%
  • 35-39

    Votes: 10 18.5%
  • 40-44

    Votes: 5 9.3%
  • 45-49

    Votes: 4 7.4%
  • 50-54

    Votes: 4 7.4%
  • 55-59

    Votes: 0 0.0%
  • 60+

    Votes: 2 3.7%

  • Total voters
    54
I know that we all have to die sometime but im hoping that's it an incredibly long time away.

I'd suggest this is the optimal human outlook on the rather unavoidable nature of death. Why fear what will happen no matter what any of us try to do to avoid it as best possible? And, at risk of sidelining the discussion a little, surely Christian-believing folk should have the least to be worrying about? I'd like to think that one of the sole purposes for any religion is to mimimise fear of death. Given none of us can ever know whether or not we met up to any given arbitrary set of rules on who does good, bad or indifferent in any possible non-living state surely it should only suggest making the most of what life we have and maximising life enjoyment and appreciation for all as best we can. Fearings really shouldn't be a part of anything relating to death beyond not putting yourself too firmly in it's path if you'd rather keep it at bay a little longer as best you can. Im(secular)o and all that.
 
I only really sulked about being 30

I thought becoming 30 was gonna be a big life-changing event too. I splurged about £3000 (inheritance money) on a round the world holiday at the time to try and "block it out". What utter bullshit. :D

I'd like to have that 3 grand back and give 30-year-old me a kick in the balls. :p
 
i think it's natural to fear death - it's hard to imagine a living being not fearing death on some visceral level for evolutionary purposes if nothing else.

but the intellectual or philosophical consideration of mortality is different. i've met people who are terrified of death to the point where it obsesses them and starts to impact their quality of life. talk about dying a little every day...

i had an interesting 'death' experience in the depths of a 5meoDMT trip. it was set in the time of the french revolution and i was being guillotined. the vision was incredibly real: the smell, the sounds, the ominous walk up the steps, etc.

i had heard somebody say a few days earlier "at the moment of death all life's questions are answered". i was thinking about this at the point at which my head was cut off. my trip moved on somewhere else after that... if you have tried 5meoDMT you'll know that it's pretty intense. i was, during the trip in danger of freaking myself out. however, i kept coming back to the saying and it was, rather, a really serene experience.

anyway, if the saying is true, i can't wait to find out where all those lost socks went :)

seriously, i think it's made me generally more accepting of (my own) mortality.

alasdair
 
I had a close friend convinced on that one for about 4 years, then one day he mentioned it in front of Mrs A and the bubble burts, you may wonder how he belived I was 29 for 4 years but this is because you have never met Dave :)

I've met Dave, who hasn't.

I have a look and physique that allows me to plus or minus 4 or 5 years. I'm 32 in reality.
 
Here' "Dave" on the left:

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i think it's natural to fear death - it's hard to imagine a living being not fearing death on some visceral level for evolutionary purposes if nothing else.

but the intellectual or philosophical consideration of mortality is different. i've met people who are terrified of death to the point where it obsesses them and starts to impact their quality of life. talk about dying a little every day...

i had an interesting 'death' experience in the depths of a 5meoDMT trip. it was set in the time of the french revolution and i was being guillotined. the vision was incredibly real: the smell, the sounds, the ominous walk up the steps, etc.

i had heard somebody say a few days earlier "at the moment of death all life's questions are answered". i was thinking about this at the point at which my head was cut off. my trip moved on somewhere else after that... if you have tried 5meoDMT you'll know that it's pretty intense. i was, during the trip in danger of freaking myself out. however, i kept coming back to the saying and it was, rather, a really serene experience.

anyway, if the saying is true, i can't wait to find out where all those lost socks went :)

seriously, i think it's made me generally more accepting of (my own) mortality.

alasdair

I've only ever taken 5-MeO-DMT in the form of Yopo snuff many, many years ago and never did get the technique down to get more than peripheral effects. That does indeed sounds like quite the experience. I've had numerous pscyhodeaths of many forms and in many situations and circumstances - some far more physically imminently abrubt-seeming than others. Can't rightly say any of it's done anything other than lessen any fear of death as I definitely did have (overwhelmingly so at times - somewhat ironically mostly during the times I was most putting it at risk to find out one way or t'other). Still have no firm conclusions beyond it just being inevitable but I'd rather it didn't happen to soon.

Socks? There's likely a marble or two I wouldn't mind being reminded of before I leave. Had some gorgeous big gobbies swelling my pockets at one point as I recall.
 
YI'm scared of dying. Am I the only one that has this fear of death? When i was on citralopram it disappeared but now it's back with a vengence. I know that we all have to die sometime but im hoping that's it an incredibly long time away.

When i was a child I'd often obsess over death n the sheer frightening prospect over it happening one day.

My Nain Peggy was a BIG Christian she read the bible every day as a child n would talk about Jesus. Anyway i said to her once "Are you scared of dying?" She looked at me n said "no, I'm going to God n I'll go when God wants me." I'd like to think she's up there with my Taid n the other members of the family who are now in Heaven.

Maybe when people get old they stop fearing death but I've not stopped fearing it. Maybe that's a blessing in disguise. Some anxiety is good for us.

And every time I have these thoughts I want to live life as good as I can. Apologies for the morbid post.

Evey

Interesting. I my case I wish I could die soon. I have this feeling like enough already. I'm 42 but don't really want to be here when I'm 50 for example. Life used to be simpler. Jobs didn't require so much media and I started too early. Was a father with 18.
Worked since 14. Studied too much too. Don't really want to learn new things.
My children are okay.
It would be a lovely gift simply to go.

Sorry for the morbid post as well.
 
Interesting. I my case I wish I could die soon. I have this feeling like enough already. I'm 42 but don't really want to be here when I'm 50 for example. Life used to be simpler. Jobs didn't require so much media and I started too early. Was a father with 18.
Worked since 14. Studied too much too. Don't really want to learn new things.
My children are okay.
It would be a lovely gift simply to go.

Sorry for the morbid post as well.
C'mon Erik! Don't die yet. Please analyze your state of mind when you have been clean 1 year, maybe you'll feel like becoming a yogi? ;)
 
C'mon Erik! Don't die yet. Please analyze your state of mind when you have been clean 1 year, maybe you'll feel like becoming a yogi? ;)

Much as I can't help a certain admiration for a state so apparently... clear... almost certainly not the right word but there is a distinctly zen-like quality of clarity to what you say, Erik, I would very much agree with this sentiment. Certainly not something to be hurrying along - it catches up with as all in its own good time I'm sure. Yogi or not it does almost sound like something of that nature would actually rather suit you.
 
Wow, there's more of us oldies on here than I thought. I'm 50, with the mentality of a 20 year old but unfortunately not the looks. I don't really think about aging, but always feel a bit depressed when buying booze at self service checkouts and the assistant presses the box on the screen marked 'Customer is CLEARLY over 25'. Way to rub it in you cunts :(
 
i think it's natural to fear death - it's hard to imagine a living being not fearing death on some visceral level for evolutionary purposes if nothing else.

but the intellectual or philosophical consideration of mortality is different. i've met people who are terrified of death to the point where it obsesses them and starts to impact their quality of life. talk about dying a little every day...

i had an interesting 'death' experience in the depths of a 5meoDMT trip. it was set in the time of the french revolution and i was being guillotined. the vision was incredibly real: the smell, the sounds, the ominous walk up the steps, etc.

i had heard somebody say a few days earlier "at the moment of death all life's questions are answered". i was thinking about this at the point at which my head was cut off. my trip moved on somewhere else after that... if you have tried 5meoDMT you'll know that it's pretty intense. i was, during the trip in danger of freaking myself out. however, i kept coming back to the saying and it was, rather, a really serene experience.

anyway, if the saying is true, i can't wait to find out where all those lost socks went :)

seriously, i think it's made me generally more accepting of (my own) mortality.

alasdair

Interesting. That does sound interesting.

I hope there is something after. Because the idea of not existing freaks me the fuck out. I mean how do we kniw that all these experiences people have all not mere illusions, blinding us from the truth? All these NDEs, stories etc. how do we know it's the the fabrication if someone's illusions through fear of what could be? Who's to say that when we die we don't just cease to exist n that's it?

On the other hand what would be the point? We have every, individual lifeform here; living, learning, growing, just to one day BANG gone. Dead? It seem ludicrous. But there's so many religions. Who's to say which one is right? Speaking from a philosophicsl viewpoint here.... Who's to say spirituality is right? I vaguely remember astral protection as a kid n having sleep paralysis but who's to say they weren't illusions?

But then I had prophetic dreams n I can't explain those away.

Evey
 
I think im 31. My wife says that, as a pig, I am 32; but she also believes herself to be 28 when she is, in my reality, 27.

:sus:
 
Interesting. I my case I wish I could die soon. I have this feeling like enough already. I'm 42 but don't really want to be here when I'm 50 for example. Life used to be simpler. Jobs didn't require so much media and I started too early. Was a father with 18.
Worked since 14. Studied too much too. Don't really want to learn new things.
My children are okay.
It would be a lovely gift simply to go.

Sorry for the morbid post as well.

Just as others have said, don't go checking out early, things are always changing, in truth the very 'stuff' that forms reality is in a constant state of flux so none of us know what's coming next.

Like a great number of people I've considered checking out more than once but I currently conclude that I really should stick around for the rest of the show, death and whatever might follow will seek me out when it's good and ready.

Small beans as it is you'd certainly be missed in these parts <3
 
Time to live
Time to lie
Time to laugh
Time to die

Takes it easy, baby
Take it as it comes
Don't move too fast
And you want your love to last
Oh, you've been movin' much too fast

Time to walk
Time to run
Time to aim your arrows
At the sun

Takes it easy, baby
Take it as it comes
Don't move too fast
And you want your love to last
Oh, you've been movin' much too fast

Go real slow
You like it more and more
Take it as it comes
Specialize in havin' fun...

Never seriously considered topping meself tbh. Although I'm not at all religious in the conventional sense of the word, there's always part of my mind that says 'what if?' I'm not willing to take that gamble in case I end up in eternal purgatory with all the other lost souls..
 
I was going to base mine on the hackneyed adage 'you're as old as the woman you feel'. Unfortunately, that age bracket would not appear to be listed.
 
Like a great number of people I've considered checking out more than once but I currently conclude that I really should stick around for the rest of the show, death and whatever might follow will seek me out when it's good and ready.

Small beans as it is you'd certainly be missed in these parts

Thanks for for your supportive messages. I had actually written a longer post but it disappeared.

Starting so early in life, having a kid with 18, terrified to lose my job and my scholarship and losing so much of my health due to heavy need of drugs makes me feel older now. Maybe I'm just exhausted.

Feels like being on my 40s but feeling like I'm over 60. And still terrified about losing my work, etc.
The need of having a sober life after 27 years of drug abuse gets in the way.

But your messages give me hope. Thank you!
 
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