throatgorge
Bluelighter
I used to have a problem with GHB, then it was a problem with Phenibut. I began phenibut taking a teaspoon (3 gram) dose. It was close enough to G for me and I did get a addicted a couple of times before I learned to only use it twice a week. I liked the "downer" high. Liked how it made me manic in a FUN way (at first) and most of all loved the prosexual effects, which mirrored G exactly-- extreme sexual arousal paired with difficulty achieving orgasm. I cut my dose to half a teaspoon (1.5 grams) to 1/4 teaspoon, to 1/8th of a teaspoon! That's a mere 375 miligrams-- less than they put in "Happy Camper."
The new problem isn't addiction. And virtually EVERY search on phenibut substitutes focus on "addiction" even when "Rage" is a search term...
That's my problem. Manic rage EVERY SINGLE TIME even on a dose barely high enough to feel!
There are great substitutes for the downer high-- Kava and Amanita muscaria in particular are my favorites, both a little pricey for a poor man, BUT nothing gives me the prosexual effects that I enjoyed and my wife enjoyed even more! (Now I just yell at her and hurt her emotionally.)
I quit the shit altogether about a month ago and have been looking for either a decent substitute or something to keep the manic episodes, the blind rage away!
I thought I'd give valerian a shot, but the four ounce vial of valerian essential oil (the strong stuff that has all the volitile oils that make fresh valarian SO much more powerful) that cost me about $15 a few years ago has now skyrocketed to TEN TIMES that price! Valerenic acids are the good stuff, they say, but all I can see available are valeric and isovaleric acids and there is some question as to whether those are actually psychoactive (Gabergic) or not.
I have had facoracetam in the past, and it really impressed me as to how similar the VERY mild sensation of that EXPENSIVE stuff was to phenibut. Facoracetam and ginseng are both listed as GABAB antagonists and are said to reset the brain's response to phenibut. I now have a new love for ginseng, but have yet to dip into my old stash to see if I can avoid rage.
Gotu Kola, has a GABAB agonism which is the closest thing to phenibut that I've found. I take two teaspoons of the stuff in an extract form that you're supposed to take only an eighth of a teaspoon of. Can only be used on an empty stomach, once a week or it has no effect at all.
Then there is the matter of upregulating the GABA receptors and trying to get back "that old magic" (another topic I get results on, but none of them mention manic fury). Also, not having had the stuff, I STILL fly into rages due to PTSD triggers, but at least I can calm down. On phenibut I don't stop raging until it wears off, which causes my wife to flee the home.... VERY sad about this!
We're going to start therapy tomorrow, in case anyone is alarmed, and it has been only verbal abuse so far...
Reading that passionflower upregulates GABA in the brain, and wondered about harmaline rich syrian rue, which I can gather 200 grams of a day this summer, more if I didn't have to wait until an hour before sunset to be able to tollerate the desert heat.
Harmaline and harmine turn out to be inverse GABA agonists, so it seems likely that will do the trick, BUT harmala seeds, as anti-depressant aphrodiciacs may be an ideal SUBSTITUTE (just collecting seeds for trade currently, two more afternoon walks near my home should do it, then on to treating myself.
Anyhow, I really wish I could go back to Phenibut without going into a crazy rage and having full psychotic episodes. Any advise on something to substitute or kill the manic response?
I don't even want the FUN kind of manic anymore, but I sure loved the aphrodisiac effect!
The new problem isn't addiction. And virtually EVERY search on phenibut substitutes focus on "addiction" even when "Rage" is a search term...
That's my problem. Manic rage EVERY SINGLE TIME even on a dose barely high enough to feel!
There are great substitutes for the downer high-- Kava and Amanita muscaria in particular are my favorites, both a little pricey for a poor man, BUT nothing gives me the prosexual effects that I enjoyed and my wife enjoyed even more! (Now I just yell at her and hurt her emotionally.)
I quit the shit altogether about a month ago and have been looking for either a decent substitute or something to keep the manic episodes, the blind rage away!
I thought I'd give valerian a shot, but the four ounce vial of valerian essential oil (the strong stuff that has all the volitile oils that make fresh valarian SO much more powerful) that cost me about $15 a few years ago has now skyrocketed to TEN TIMES that price! Valerenic acids are the good stuff, they say, but all I can see available are valeric and isovaleric acids and there is some question as to whether those are actually psychoactive (Gabergic) or not.
I have had facoracetam in the past, and it really impressed me as to how similar the VERY mild sensation of that EXPENSIVE stuff was to phenibut. Facoracetam and ginseng are both listed as GABAB antagonists and are said to reset the brain's response to phenibut. I now have a new love for ginseng, but have yet to dip into my old stash to see if I can avoid rage.
Gotu Kola, has a GABAB agonism which is the closest thing to phenibut that I've found. I take two teaspoons of the stuff in an extract form that you're supposed to take only an eighth of a teaspoon of. Can only be used on an empty stomach, once a week or it has no effect at all.
Then there is the matter of upregulating the GABA receptors and trying to get back "that old magic" (another topic I get results on, but none of them mention manic fury). Also, not having had the stuff, I STILL fly into rages due to PTSD triggers, but at least I can calm down. On phenibut I don't stop raging until it wears off, which causes my wife to flee the home.... VERY sad about this!
We're going to start therapy tomorrow, in case anyone is alarmed, and it has been only verbal abuse so far...
Reading that passionflower upregulates GABA in the brain, and wondered about harmaline rich syrian rue, which I can gather 200 grams of a day this summer, more if I didn't have to wait until an hour before sunset to be able to tollerate the desert heat.
Harmaline and harmine turn out to be inverse GABA agonists, so it seems likely that will do the trick, BUT harmala seeds, as anti-depressant aphrodiciacs may be an ideal SUBSTITUTE (just collecting seeds for trade currently, two more afternoon walks near my home should do it, then on to treating myself.
Anyhow, I really wish I could go back to Phenibut without going into a crazy rage and having full psychotic episodes. Any advise on something to substitute or kill the manic response?
I don't even want the FUN kind of manic anymore, but I sure loved the aphrodisiac effect!