What is really freaky is that there are people (Oliver Sacks wrote about it) that are so utterly colorblind that they dont even see monochromous like black and white which is still 1-dimensional... their vision is 0-dimensional. To them vision is just like everything is made of lead and there is no global lighting. Just pure form.
On high dose LSD or in deep meditation (also without acid but after a long while getting deeper) I've had everything turn into golden light, colour also disappears as it is normally but converges into this new supercolour that is energy in a different or less determined view, I then see not difference in colour but the direct difference in energy / frequency / wavelength...
awesome... synaesthesia can also approach this since this pure energy is the common denominator in sensorical throughput. The determination of it is secondary, multiple interpretations remain possible. Simultaneous sensing and awareness of superpositioned perspective. Thoroughly integrated expansion of consciousness.
Damn I love this particular DMT smell, found some to be scraped of off a ponypack and just put it in a joint a while ago. Maybe threshold effect and this sweet incense aroma reminding me of the equanimous potential of the drug
Pepper do you mean you have a hard time understanding it or is it sensitive? Of course Id get if you are bothered by this. People who have this often have a conflict since they have their loyalty and within it is the desire to live up to expectations, but you still know you should choose yourself... if their priorities in life are much different than yours but their selfrealization suffers then there must be a split that is strained and not easily accepted.
The things you stand for supporting your identity are ruled under the banner of your mission in life. I think it is a lifes shame if personal development is suppressed by an ideal image that is projected on you with force. It's like depriving your soul, no one should have to surrender their happiness like that, rather there is potential to be a mirror to these others, so that they may see themselves and come to insight about their own realizations of happiness.
But I know it's easy to speak so liberally about it if you don't have this conflict at home. But having this conflict with the general modern philosophy is plenty I suppose.
Swilow hope youll find strenght man, try not to fall into the trap of pointlessly struggling from too much dissonance in yourself - were almost all busy thinkers here but that can really do a number on us if the resulting thoughts bring us of out of balance rather than in it...
Need to work on this myself actually, for a good while
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