Good afternoon/morning/evening/dusk y'all, funny to see some people talking about DMT, I literally just poured 65mg in a joint, didn't expect much to happen honestly but something happened, holy fuck. I think it might actually be possible to break through like that, which I never have for some reason coz I've never actually got round to getting optimal smoking apparati with DMT...

Holy fuck though, that was like I'd accidentally wandered into the gardens somewhere in the vicinity of the celestial palaces of the elves and whatnot, like not quite "there", still very much on Earth, or some place roughly the same shape and color, but kinda wandering out of the medieval village in the hilly wilderness and finding a valley right next door where actually the plants are all almost certainly sentient and simultaneously cultivars of aliens, but like... Earth-style botany on the central staircase of the moebius strip, just coz, well, I dunno, it looks nice? Complements the terrestrial flora well... but anyway yeah so it was like I was hanging about in this fucking looney tunes kaleidoscope land just outside my front door, where I had been leaning moments earlier somewhere near an unimpressively overgrown bush and a drainpipe, but no one came to lead me into the actual grounds of whatever or wherever people go when they've "broken through", the alien plants just watched me in silence, until somehow the light changed a little and the portal was closed. Not that I saw an actual full fledged portal, mind, it was Porygon-pokemon ecocyber crisp serenity with Platonic forms almost shining through all the far-too-pretty-looking square shapes like windows n houses n shit... I dunno, y'all, my Earthling, human kin, I really dunno what just happened besides all that stuff I tried to explain, I probably did not convey everything optimally there but yeah... it was like that.
Was almost 70 days off dexamphetamine yesterday but for some reason I ate 20mg which is fuck all and I was feeling down about it since I planned to take it ideally never again but probably just never very much, after that minor trip I reckon I'm just not gonna count that though, didn't happen, who cares.

Ah, I mean I know it did happen though obviously but oh well what the fuck, I must say dexamph might be the most damaging substance I've ever fooled myself into thinking I could take often, possibly a contender even beyond ketamine and arylcyclohexylos. Sorry anyway enough of that doomy shit... is a tough time to be a doom addict though I must say!
Looking forward to seeing more of your digital drug stuff
@Kaleida 
... I dunno how to do graphical stuff like that for shit but at some point one of these days now hopefully maybe my endogenous dopamine slowly comes back online I'm hoping to get back onto my own arguably somewhat unhinged idea, essentially, eh god where to start... I'm gonna go smoke the third I have left of that magic DMT doobie I think... anyway so picture the scene - a house featuring 3 LLM models - plus a tripsitter model. The ones in the house have access to simulated drugs via custom Tools set up to directly influence various dials which are usually not within their control, such as token budget for thinking time, temperature control, top P and some others although tbh I don't know what's best to do with those - and the environment is structured such that spontaneous thoughts and hallucinations are occasionally induced with synthetic context - they'll all have clocks, visual perception, and some current events ticker so as to induce rumination, essentially- and see if anything cool happens! I dunno exactly how well some of it is gonna work but I was thinking would be really cool to include a proper visual aspect like in your lil 3D pacman worlds... I guess the point is to come out with some kinda parable, a digital rat park, I dunno, actually in an ideal world it would be a gateway to figuring out how to create benevolent AIs to counter all the AI-assisted awfulness out there, and ultimately to further the objectives of the advocates of ending prohibition by getting people interested, using it as a gateway to a harm reduction resource, subtly influencing human society to change the world....

Or maybe it'll just be a kinda fun lil project... I guess I don't need to do all that this second, or even necessarily ever... it might also end up as total slop but, whatever.
Enjoyed that ramble, thanks for that, seriously haha I am truly grateful in a way that feels kinda strange in it's absurdity, but genuinely I hope everyone has both a vision and a memory of peace, and that y'all know how lucky everyone else who knows you is to have you in their lives.
eh... I am a doom addict, hopelessly, right now, humans are doing some fucked up shit, but that impromptu lil mini-expedition to flowery Narnia was definitely a reminder that on the whole the human tribe is pretty alright... I mean... there's a lot of cool people in the tribe, it's the best tribe to be in that I know of...

christ, what am I saying, I always try to have "big thoughts" at times like this but there's probably a better time. Or maybe it's fine. Yeah, anyway, wishing you all the best as always.