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[effingcustie]

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[Morninggloryseed]

Fun with old ass recordings. This is a recording I made in the late 90s. Tonite I transferred the multitracks to PC and did a quick on-the-fly mix. The vocals were never finished...second verse I went off tune and got frustrated, and exclaimed 'fuck this' and that was the last I worked on the track. Timely song for MGS tonight since I'm nursing a broken heart as I ended something that was going nice, but in the end is going to cause me more pain than it is worth. Nothing more drugs can't fix of course.

I'll have to get a new vocal on there. Yeah, the melody was sorta stolen from the Kinks "Ape Man" but I changed it enough that no one has sued me yet.

I Want To Have More

 

[elucidator]

Whats with these scales nowadays? This shit just shuts down when im putting material on it little by little. Ok, its good that it shuts down automatically when idled long enough, but when I'm weighing the substances and it goes off out of the blue when 2 seconds earlier I dropped 10mg more material on it is bullshit. Its good for 20€ but srsly


What do you guys think about Shulman?

NSFW:

That Shulman track is very cool, I love that sort of stuff. With you being from finland, do you get into Suomisaundi, Xammy? I have just found it recently and i find the majority of it to be a very welcoming change to the usual psy stuff that i listen to, way more playful and flowy.

Some scales do not respond very well to incremental addition of powder, and may be shutting down from an error in the computer mechanics. Try adding it all at once, as it may be adding drift every time you add more little by little.

Welcome to the club, and thanks for the schadenfreude.

Cheers dude, and i'm glad my temporary discomfort brightened your day.

How many of you guys are in a relationship?

I havnt been in a proper relationship since i was in high school, so thats like around 7 years ago. Gee time flies when your having fun on drugs. I know many wonderful women, yet i am searching for one that shares my love of psychs and disso as much as i do. Im kinda glad that i have stayed away from the meaningless relationship front, as the majority of my friends who have gone there, tell me they are not worth the headfuck.
Im sortov happy being single atm, but it would be incredible to share these high times with someone i loved.

I love your artwork fromn a few pages back. The form and stucture of the one you sold resonates very well with my eyes and the color forms are very intricately blended. I sincerely hope that you do well and get into an exhibition, as your style is very fresh and highly skillful. I would love to purcghase one if the opportunity presented itself, as i have just started collecting artist direct artwork.

Nothing better to do on these insomniac nights.

Insomnia sucks aye. Sometimes it takes me 6 hours to get to sleep after lights out.

I got intoxicated pretty much every night for the last 3 days.

Careful with dosing like that, Xammy. Tolerance rises fast and MXE tends to make you feel that everything is better when on, so when ur not on it, the temptation to use is sometimes incredible. I just finished the last of my first 3g bag and I am feeling considerable psychological connections to it. I really want to buy another bag, yet i am not sure if it is the right thing to do. It feels astoundingly good and kinda feels like a perfomance enhancer, but it seems to disconnect me from reality in a way that is different to any other disso i have tried.
I think i will buy more, but ill go way easier on it this time.

Fun with old ass recordings.

Cool song dude, very refreshing after the Macy Gray atrocity above it. Sorry ur feeling down. Remember, hearts are fixable and they tend to be stronger after a bit of battering.

 

[Morninggloryseed]

Cool song dude, very refreshing after the Macy Gray atrocity above it. Sorry ur feeling down. Remember, hearts are fixable and they tend to be stronger after a bit of battering.

Thank for listening. I'm only feeling down because I guess I developed expectations that could not be met. I didn't have to end it, but I know it will only prolong the eventual dissapointment so it felt like the smartest thing to do. Frees me up for someone else, and gives me more time to work on recordings. Hey look, this is the first picture anyone has ever seen on MGS. That is me enjoying my nicotine vapor device and trying to figure out this new webcam.

 

[elucidator]

Cool, you look younger than I have visualized you in the past. Prolly from mass life experience. I feel honoured to be one of the first on the net to have seen you.

The trick for that, ime, is to have no expectations or presumptions about any particular relationship paradigym, and it becomes nearly impossible to become dissapointed.
Far easier said than done tho.

 

[Morninggloryseed]

I agree with regards to no expectations. Funny this one started off like that, open and everything. But since the begining of the year, it's taken off in a far more serious path. Really it's the open relationship part that caused me trouble. They are fine when it's me with 2 or 3, but the rules of 'open relations' I guess were never discussed...in my case all partners know another is in my eye before it happens, in this case, i wasn't told until after and other stuff going on made me realize I am way too emotionally dependent on this person and after a messy breakup in 2004...I decided I need to back the hell out of this now before it really turns my world upside down.

Yeah, easier said than done.

Thank you for saying I look young(er). I do take a lot of pride in the fact that I do not look my age. It is a lot of fun and it's how I get away only dating people 10 years younger than myself. I appreciate the nice words, I need em tonight.

 

[elucidator]

^ Sounds complicated, seems that once you get emotionally connected to someone during an open relationship, it would become incredibly messy if the connection isnt completely mutual. I think it was the smartest thing you could do to back out of the situation. Getting too involved would vastly raise the chances of you getting hurt in the future. I hope you recover well. Ill send some happy vibes ur way.

 

[Morninggloryseed]

Really appreciate it. I need the good sentiments right now and don't take them for granted.

 

[《Plasticity》]

Damn you do look young for your age MGS, I always imagine some sage older looking man when reading your posts.. Anyways I plugged 50mgs of aMT 13 hours ago and I'm ending things off with 75mgs of 6-apb and 10mgs of moxy. I'm surprised moxy went so well with the chems listed as they seem to have contraindications stemming from MAO inhibiton bur I feel in no way dangered. Don't mind me, just In a really great state ATM :D

 

[swilow]

Hmm MGS, definitely of an amorphous age. I couldn't begin to guess (and yes, I am curious). You know when you have a sort of mental image of a person, usually completely unconsciously developed....Yeah, well you haven't proven mine out, whatever it was...Maybe I thought you had long hair? You actually might, how could I know...

Its nice to see you though- face to name/pseudonym and all that...


FWIW, I'm 31...

Insomnia sucks aye. Sometimes it takes me 6 hours to get to sleep after lights out.

Oh yeah. I utterly relate. Its absurd, I just sit up and read these days (nights). As soon as I lie down, my brain just sort of rolls over and starts really verbosely processing random bullshit that occurred during the day. Just gotta let it happen and accept it.

Sleep has always been weird for me as I have lucid/semi-lucid dreams very regularly. Even sleep isn't as restful as it probably should be.

Meditation is helpful

How many of you guys are in a relationship?

I am. Same Miss Willow as always....

just me and my dogs

Hey, they are really cute. All snuggled up...

Also like the fact you 'hang out' with your bong. :D

 

[《Plasticity》]

Oh yeah. I utterly relate. Its absurd, I just sit up and read these days (nights). As soon as I lie down, my brain just sort of rolls over and starts really verbosely processing random bullshit that occurred during the day. Just gotta let it happen and accept it.

I totally feel ya willow as I have the same issues as well. It just seems like my mind doesn't wanna shut down and as a result I'm up for hours thinking about random pointless shit and what I should do tommorow (which btw the plans NEVER follow through). I've always had real issues with insomnia...

How many of you guys are in a relationship?

I am and with a girl I expect to be "the one". We've been together for five years and have recently started living together in a place of our own and things are going great! The sex life is off the chain, we share common interests, and the trust is totally there in spades. I couldn't ask for a better woman in my life!

 

[Morninggloryseed]

Hmm MGS, definitely of an amorphous age. I couldn't begin to guess (and yes, I am curious). You know when you have a sort of mental image of a person, usually completely unconsciously developed....Yeah, well you haven't proven mine out, whatever it was...Maybe I thought you had long hair? You actually might, how could I know...

Its nice to see you though- face to name/pseudonym and all that...


FWIW, I'm 31...

As long as I am revealing the vessel to all (been revealing the soul for years), might as well tell the numbers. My word guys, I am a ripe old age of 36. Sigh, way to close to 40. I think it is better to burn out than to fade away but having a face that allows me to say I am 25ish means I still have a while to go.

My hairs is short, it started thinning as will happen so I wear it military style. Here is a pic of a happy camper filled with glee on his graduation day, a bit over 12 years ago. Look at that Jewboy, so filled with optomism for the future. Being a junkie never crossed his mind. Ah what a tool. I had long hair back then, and I do miss it. This was in 2002. Jeez, I was stoned in that pic.

 

[elucidator]

I totally feel ya willow as I have the same issues as well. It just seems like my mind doesn't wanna shut down and as a result I'm up for hours thinking about random pointless shit and what I should do tommorow (which btw the plans NEVER follow through). I've always had real issues with insomnia...

Same here and most especially after an eventful night, an above average trip, or I run out of weed. Brains are weird how they like to reshuffle themselves after one goes to bed.
Im glad you are having a good night on your highly desirable stack of goodies.

Oh yeah. I utterly relate. Its absurd, I just sit up and read these days (nights). As soon as I lie down, my brain just sort of rolls over and starts really verbosely processing random bullshit that occurred during the day. Just gotta let it happen and accept it.

Sleep has always been weird for me as I have lucid/semi-lucid dreams very regularly. Even sleep isn't as restful as it probably should be.

Meditation is helpful

Completely, meditation has saved me from many long nights and works incredibly well to regulate the flow of thoughts. Willow, You say you lucid dream regularly, have you ever tried Calea Zacatechichi (aztek dream herb)? I find it to be very effective to raise the lucidity of a dream state and even has some strange subtle psychoactive effects in the awake state. Highly reccomended, esp for when one has no weed, for it is more effective with the lack of thc in the system.

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Cool pic MGS, You look happy.

 

[Xorkoth]

I love your artwork fromn a few pages back. The form and stucture of the one you sold resonates very well with my eyes and the color forms are very intricately blended. I sincerely hope that you do well and get into an exhibition, as your style is very fresh and highly skillful. I would love to purcghase one if the opportunity presented itself, as i have just started collecting artist direct artwork.

Hey, thanks! Nowabouts would be the time to buy one because my prices are pretty low, I haven't gotten into any galleries or anything yet.

 

[Xorkoth]

Sitting around at Barnes and Noble waiting for my car to be worked on... good morning PD social.

Nice to finally put a face to the name, MGS

 

[amanitadine]

Heheh you look as Jewish as I do MGS. And I mean that in the best way Jews. All of our suffering translates to goodness me thinks

I'm mid late 30's...a geezer 'round these parts....been in the same relationship since I got out of prison (hint...join date) She is a decade younger, and was a big time head when we met, and saw some valor in serving time for psychedelics. So do I, but the experience certainly fucked me up. It's been a great relationship, but I have strained it the past few years with my opioid problem....went on suboxone a year after we hooked up, and then was on Kratom the last 2.5 years, with many attempts at quitting. Hiding your drug use from your partner does not do good things for a relationship! We used to trip constantly, but haven't tripped together in almost two years. Too many skeletons in the closet, and trust issues from my drug issues......relapses I've tried to hide, binges on arylcyclohexylamines, whatever...

Now that Iboga seems to have loosened that hold, I think an MDMA, MDA, 2C-B or DMMDA session would do us wonders. Gonna give it a few months though...there have been too many false starts with breaking free from opioids, and premature declarations of victory. This time feels different, but time will tell.

A committed relationship has been quite nice though. Prior to getting busted I spent 7 years in no real relationships...just trysts. I was living a secret life and couldn't afford the risk. It was an exciting way to live but in retrospect quite lonely.

Random: fuck benzos. Down to 10 mg diazepam a day from 60 ten months ago...doing it Ashton style, but slow. Got up to 60 mg of etizolam a day, tapered down to 8, and switched to diazepam. Been off and on benzos for 15 years....they eased the stress from my pre-bust career, eased the stress after doing time. Now they just keep me out of withdrawal and in a state of constant low level anxiety. Opioids, benzos....what a waste. Stick with psychedelics youngins!

Ok, that is enough forthcoming info from me! I usually don't say much, but Iboga changed my brain chemistry! And now that most of my old ADD buddies are no longer on Bluelight, I figured I'd venture back into PD....been mostly hanging in EADD.

RIP Knock....one of the best mods Bluelight has ever had, and I've been here in various incarnations since the beginning. Helluva guy and it breaks my heart that he is now gone....

 

[《Plasticity》]

Wow I took a look at those pieces of art and their beautiful. That technique you discovered is very sexy and abstract (my favorite art). I've never seen such beatiful brushstrokes, keep up the good work man cuz your definately talented. How did you manage to blend the colors so well on a tiny 5x5 surface? Either way your style of art has a very psychedelic twist that really draws me in..

Same here and most especially after an eventful night, an above average trip, or I run out of weed. Brains are weird how they like to reshuffle themselves after one goes to bed. Im glad you are having a good night on your highly desirable stack of goodies.

Yeah it sucks, I also have GAD though so that's what contributes to most of nonsense that my brain goes through when attempting to sleep, only things I've found use-full are benzos but I only use them rarely as benzo withdrawl is something I wish to never experience, thanks for the good vibes, 16 hours in and I still feel great. I thought the moxy would make things turn uncomfortable but it had unexcpectedly amazing synergy between

Since everyone is posting pics of their appearance I'll post a pic of me tommorow, I'm a small 20 year old who could pass as a 17-18 year old easily.

 

[Thanatos]

Does anyone know if you have to have a degree to join the peace corps? Or technical training?
I'm thinking about putting in an application today but the website seems to suggest that you need degree.

 

[amanitadine]

You need a degree or specialized training in a field that makes you useful to them....keeps the hooligans out. Unfortunately I Don't think extensive knowledge of drugs and drug culture counts but who knows...

 

[Xorkoth]

Heheh you look as Jewish as I do MGS. And I mean that in the best way Jews. All of our suffering translates to goodness me thinks

I'm mid late 30's...a geezer 'round these parts....been in the same relationship since I got out of prison (hint...join date) She is a decade younger, and was a big time head when we met, and saw some valor in serving time for psychedelics. So do I, but the experience certainly fucked me up. It's been a great relationship, but I have strained it the past few years with my opioid problem....went on suboxone a year after we hooked up, and then was on Kratom the last 2.5 years, with many attempts at quitting. Hiding your drug use from your partner does not do good things for a relationship! We used to trip constantly, but haven't tripped together in almost two years. Too many skeletons in the closet, and trust issues from my drug issues......relapses I've tried to hide, binges on arylcyclohexylamines, whatever...

Now that Iboga seems to have loosened that hold, I think an MDMA, MDA, 2C-B or DMMDA session would do us wonders. Gonna give it a few months though...there have been too many false starts with breaking free from opioids, and premature declarations of victory. This time feels different, but time will tell.

A committed relationship has been quite nice though. Prior to getting busted I spent 7 years in no real relationships...just trysts. I was living a secret life and couldn't afford the risk. It was an exciting way to live but in retrospect quite lonely.

Random: fuck benzos. Down to 10 mg diazepam a day from 60 ten months ago...doing it Ashton style, but slow. Got up to 60 mg of etizolam a day, tapered down to 8, and switched to diazepam. Been off and on benzos for 15 years....they eased the stress from my pre-bust career, eased the stress after doing time. Now they just keep me out of withdrawal and in a state of constant low level anxiety. Opioids, benzos....what a waste. Stick with psychedelics youngins!

Ok, that is enough forthcoming info from me! I usually don't say much, but Iboga changed my brain chemistry! And now that most of my old ADD buddies are no longer on Bluelight, I figured I'd venture back into PD....been mostly hanging in EADD.

RIP Knock....one of the best mods Bluelight has ever had, and I've been here in various incarnations since the beginning. Helluva guy and it breaks my heart that he is now gone....

Wow, 60mg of etizolam? That's extreme! I have taken 2mg once and I blacked out. 1mg doesn't do much but then I don't really like benzos anyway, I barely feel anything from them except that I start operating at a lower level of consciousness.

Yes, hiding drug use from a SO is a very bad thing, it's my half of the reason why my marriage is now over. Addiction is a hell of a calamity to hit a person's life. And non-addicts do not understand the hardship. My wife is not an addictive person and she really never got it.

I am more and more interested in trying iboga. I need something to give my brain a reset. Is it the sort of thing you can take yourself at home? Or is a sitter necessary?