Got a job, and worked it for several hours. I am learning the first of what I assume to be many responsibilities for my position as restaraunt lackey who will fill in holes in the weekly schedule (if I am not fired first, being not naturally a customer service type, and since my learning ability is likely impacted by my benzo induced calmness).
yeah i graduated, now i'm a businessfag in a data-related field. decided not to go to chem grad school. may go for an MBA some day. things are just kinda like damn i'm grown up now when the fuck did this happen and how am i going to deal with it.
I see, well I'm glad there is not continuing drug related strung-outness due to schooling (I maintain schools are extremely detrimental to mental health, for some of us). As for doing something other than what you figured you would, that's par for the course in the academic system. I cannot relate at all to anything relationship-y so I grant you stilted, and hopefully greeting card quality condolences,: I'm sure you feel sucky, but perhaps now you can casually explore someone with desirable attributes conspicuously absent in the ex? As John D. Rockefeller said, "I always tried to turn every disaster into an opportunity."
Being a bussiness-fag sounds most acceptable. Stability, possibility for advancement (at least with continued education, maybe as things are), a living wage...though moving can be an intimidating/exciting prospect. I imagine it could even be pleasant if you get in with a company you like, or a corporation with a pro-social ethos (hint: you are not allowed to work for Monsanto).
Interesting on the sensation/acute mental awareness of adulthood. That transition is not something that society prepares us for anymore, or ever happens with some people, and I am certainly a long way off, displaying many mental attributes of an extended adolescence (though I might more poetically describe myself as living a life of dissipation and aimlessness,a life common to those who are unable to believe in anything, and entirely removed from the socially constructed maturity spectrum). I wonder if I'll ever be where you're at, or if you are where you're at and just don't think you are? Now I'm rambling...
roger said:
did y'all think i was dead or something?
Nah, I heard you were taking a BL break. Now, willow I worried was dead or imprisoned until his recent stop by, and now Psox has been absent for a while, but I know he gets into some hermit-y things, and assume things are going well or that he is reevaluating/wilderness sabbatical.
SONN said:
Stay on the good vibesy-wave man, and I'm glad to hear how things have been going.