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PepperSocks said:
I'm glad as fuq you were here when I came back!
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lol i've been on 2 extended hiatuses since you left. i almost left forever, but hotel california style, "you can check out any time you like, but you can never leave"...

but srsly bro, some day we'll kick it and it will be epic. i'll bring like a shopping cart full of microbrews and shenanigans will ensue :D
 
Roger&Me said:
lol i've been on 2 extended hiatuses since you left. i almost left forever, but hotel california style, "you can check out any time you like, but you can never leave"...
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No kidding eh? This last one was my longest yet, mid June to mid February. I find I need a break sometimes, but after a certain amount of time it actually starts to hurt. Knowing there's people out there that I just up and disappeared from is a hard thing to live with. It's strange how this simple digital interface of text can convey such a powerful sense of belonging and friendship, but it does. <3

edit: after I left, I had it in my mind I wasn't coming back too. I just couldn't do it.

but srsly bro, some day we'll kick it and it will be epic. i'll bring like a shopping cart full of microbrews and shenanigans will ensue :D
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Deal! :D We'll hold each other to it man. I like travelling and I know I'll be able to do it because I want to. :)
 
Went trippin down memory lane; not the tallest flames ever, but by far the hottest fire I ever built:

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We all had to bail and pull back the chairs. A friend was passed out on a cot amongst the chairs and the heat woke him up, he had to move (that's him getting up :P). That cooler on the left; well, when we moved back in we found the side facing the fire had melted the plastic and it collapsed.

It remains my greatest creation. I cannot put into words the heat involved. It's standard to move back when a fire gets going, but this was obscene. To stay within ten feet for more than a second meant skin burns.

The key is the pallet; it allows air to access the primary fuel source centrally placed on top. In this case it was an old tire off a semi.

The trick here is to throw out environmentalism for a short period of time in the name of glorious luminous thermal energy. I'll never forget the roaring sound and blazing heat and light. The rush I felt when it was peaking; pure glory. :)
 
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man.... i'm going to feel like shit tomorrow. i've been up all night drinking wine and beer and fucking vodka....... listening to billie holiday, she is so beautiful that I can't even fathom such a person. i'm about 20 drinks in the hole since 6 o'clock this evening.. tomorrow morning is going to suck ass. i have to go to work and shit.

what the fuck, man

alcoholism requires too much work imho, i've really got to stop this shit. its just too much. the motherfucking hangovers, they are so bad that they take a little bit of my soul every time. there is nothing worse than peeling my swollen eyes open out of a drunken slumber, and the necrotic wave of self-loathing washes over me and the only thought in my head is "please god, let me die... just let me die".

fuck. i've been pretty good and sober for the last month or so, but i keep going back to it. it's not any fun at all.
 
Getting DT's in the morning between drinking and my benzos; and nearly throwing up every bus ride to work made me realize a change was in order. Plus drinking 3-4 bombers and almost a 5th a night was making me broke.
 
i hear ya, enthebro. i woke up this morning after a few hours of terrible sleep, shaking like a motherfucker and then i vomited and dry heaved for a good fifteen minutes. good god...

felt like total shit all morning, then got some lunch, a couple cups of coffee and a couple beers and now i feel alright.

i'm sure my niqqaz at work think i'm crazy as a fucking loon, which is probably true.

how's the benzo taper coming along, man?

thenightwatch said:
20 drinks is a lot.
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lol dude i went to the grocery store and bought what i intended to be like a week's worth of booze, and i drank it all and then as if that wasn't enough i polished off the last of some vodka i had in the fridge

i have no idea why i do this shit. total insanity.
 
I know that feeling, when you walk into work in the morning and you can tell everyone know you feel like shit.
It's going good dude, thanks for asking. Im down to 1.5mg clonazepam twice a day with 1mg alprazolam prn. That about a 50% reduction plus I don't drink anymore. I don't use GABAergics to get high anymore so im feeling good about it
 
Roger&Me said:
alcoholism requires too much work imho, i've really got to stop this shit. its just too much. the motherfucking hangovers, they are so bad that they take a little bit of my soul every time. there is nothing worse than peeling my swollen eyes open out of a drunken slumber, and the necrotic wave of self-loathing washes over me and the only thought in my head is "please god, let me die... just let me die".
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So true. My worst hangovers ever are alcohol related. When I get plastered to the point of oblivion I'm laid up for 3 days afterwards in physical toxicity and as you say, self-loathing. I don't really get MDMA hangovers anymore but back in the day I thought it was the worst thing ever. I've since learned that alcohol trumps it by a good margin.

No substance is fun in frequency. It all goes from play to poison.

My biggest gripe with it right now is cost. I've been pilfering my parents' homebrew wine stash a bit. They don't mind a bit now and then, but I absolutely cannot take another bottle from there. I've had to cut myself of; as it is I think they'll be a bit pissed when they see it.
My resources aren't good enough to enjoy 3 beers per day for any length of time so I can't really support a liquor habit. I can however support a mild OTC codeine habit. :\
As for pleasant relaxation at the end of the day I really enjoy benzos, but don't have any at the moment. In terms of long term cost they are by far the best option and I would prefer them over alcohol or codeine.
The other option which I actually have a bunch of ingredients for is brewing my own beer. It is a bit labour intensive and the product isn't as good as what I can buy with my current level of experience, but it's the only option I have for reasonable cost alcohol. I actually think I'll take stock of what I have, get reading and start a batch today. It'll take a couple of weeks to be drinkable anyway.
 
Thanatos said:
I know that feeling, when you walk into work in the morning and you can tell everyone know you feel like shit.
It's going good dude, thanks for asking. Im down to 1.5mg clonazepam twice a day with 1mg alprazolam prn. That about a 50% reduction plus I don't drink anymore. I don't use GABAergics to get high anymore so im feeling good about it
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there's been a difference in the quality of your posts, too, entheo =p
 
I'm trying to taper from Clonazepam as well. It gets annoying. I never needed or liked benzos I don't know how I got into them. I suppose there was just an abundance of them around. Some days I can do .5mg at night. Other days I need 1mg or 1.5mg. But I'm getting there. After being hooked on like 15 etizolams per day the doc put me on 1mg of Clonaz 2x per day. I just want it over with.

In lighter news, today makes 1 full year of no cigarettes after a 12 year habit that rounded off at 2 packs per day.
 
^ benzos are the devil, Im really disappointed that so many vendors are stocking benzos now.

Congrats on your anniversary. I can't remember my exact date, but that one year mark will surely feel satisfying. Have you noticed the health benefits of quitting yet?
 
Props on no cigarettes!
A year is a long time, I made it 6 months without cigarettes but had a couple after this absolutely insane rave I went too while I was still whacked on lucy.
Only a couple though, and fuck me that first cigarette was the best cigarette I've ever had.
I still use nicotine though, chewing tobacco is far more delicious than cigarettes. However everyone does tend to give me dirty looks if I tell them I chew haha
 
Thanatos said:
^ benzos are the devil, Im really disappointed that so many vendors are stocking benzos now.

Congrats on your anniversary. I can't remember my exact date, but that one year mark will surely feel satisfying. Have you noticed the health benefits of quitting yet?
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I'm asthmatic and I no longer need my rescue inhaler, only my Preventative in the morning and night time type of inhaler. So the first thing I noticed abut a week or two after quitting was that I wasn't getting winded anymore. Also I feel like I saved a shitload of money as well. ( Not that I have anything to show for that part though lol.)

I still rely on my ecig sometimes. But it's got minimal nicotine in it, sometimes I even use no nicotine. Part of is that I don't want my 250 dollar sweet ass electronic cigarette to go to waste.
 
$250? Wow that's a hefty chunk of change. I can't see myself ever spending that type of money on nicotine. Even when I smoked 2 packs a day it was never about the nicotine. I actually disliked the nicotine bc of it negative effect on benzos. It was always an oral fixation/taking big heavy drafts that I wanted. I like the feeling of hot smoke instead of vapor.
The same goes for bud, I like direct pyrolysis better than vaping.
 
Well after breaking a few 30-45 dollar e-cig set ups it was time to invest in one that wouldn't break. I can also use it for weed as well so it's got it's purpose. The thing is like a roll of quarters too. I think I could ward off intruders with it.
 
Sounds pretty gnarly if you can use it for the dankness as well. I can see why you invested so much a lot more now.
Speaking of bud, I think it's been about 4 months since I last smoked. I was okay until a week or so ago but I really wanna get thc'd :P
 
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