I had a really rough day today... last night I started withdrawing so I took 10mg of MXE rectally, and I suddenly felt so calm and nice... took another 10mg 2.5 hours later and went to bed, had a pretty restful sleep, except I woke up at 6am with my legs kicking, so I took another 10mg I had capped up and got back to sleep.
But then when I woke up, I felt so... off. The kicking legs started to come back, but I didn't want to take more MXE because I had to work, and I dislike the feeling in my head from dissociatives if I'm trying to actually function... it makes me feel weird, like it's hard to apply myself and get work done. I felt so strange and down this morning, I was just in a really bad place, with a cotton-filled head, discomfort, and I felt very emotionally drained and "put upon"... ie, everything just felt bad. I was going to try to low-dose MXE for the next week or so until the withdrawal went away. I had bought all 3 of the locations of the store I get poppy seeds from out of all of their poppy seeds over the last week, so I expected to not be able to get any, but I called to see and they had restocked all their locations with plenty of seeds so I broke down, went out and bought a nice dose for myself. I proceeded to have the strongest poppy tea high I've had in a while, and that fixed my woes. But of course, only temporarily...
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I've finally had my first truly eye-opening experience with fungi. Ate a delicious eighth of it in a small peanut butter sandwich and experienced ego death. I have tripped on acid twice before and it was nothing like how exciting this was. I was very serene, very calm. I experienced consciousness outside of my body and felt completely at peace with the concept of death. Sure, my body can die, but consciousness is not tangible; it can theoretically live forever. My thoughts were fairly negative but I wasn't freaked out or scared.
I think I'll stick to some good weed for a little while though. I definitely need some time to process all that.
Awesome man, congrats on having a nice psychedelic experience.
Are there any cannabinoids that would assist in Kratom withdrawals, now that I've gotta do it again since I dropped the ball on my Ibogaine epiphany? Like more CB2 selective or partial agonists? Those full CB1 agonists are too much for me at this point, and as I haven't bought weed in ages I dont aim too....but some cannabinoid action can work some magic during opioid withdrawals...for precisely the reasons Roger so eloquently stated earlier in this thread...
I find cannabis itself to help decently, mostly in the mental department. It doesn't help as much as I'd like though and sometimes it can increase the anxiety and in those cases it is counterproductive. As for synthetics that would work, I don't really know a lot about the synthetics. I didn't even know most of the ones mentioned in this thread existed.
Xammy, here is an interesting bit of info. Learning to trip on pot seems to be a 'learned behavior' and here is why I say that...first off on a personal level I have always had these psychedelic effects from pot..and I was totally unaware when I started smoking that marijuana did this. I thought pot just made a person laugh and act silly, so the first time I got high and started experiencing all of the effects I read about that were associated with LSD I was very taken aback. I like to say I had my first trip on pot because it is true. Now here is what is interesting..to me anyway. I have had a couple people, one as recent as this summer, who have smoked pot a lot longer than they knew me...start to experience these psychedelic marijuana effects after hanging out with me, becoming aware pot can be psychedelic, etc. This is probably a subcatagory of the 'group high' or 'contact high' phenomenon. I just find that fascinating...that a person can smoke pot all their adult lives and never experience the 'psychedelic side' until someone makes them aware that it even exists. I have always wondered why I managed to trip out on weed at the tender age of 15 right away but most likely it was because I was obsessed with the Beatles and I was becoming obsessed with learning all I could about psychedelic drugs, so when I first tried marijuana and first thing I did when I felt something was put on Sgt Pepper....no doubt in my suggestible state something clicked and I experienced a trip.
I used to have very psychedelic experiences from weed... that's why I liked it so much. I smoked weed as my only drug (besides alcohol) for about a year and half after I started. Most of my friends just got "fucked up" from it but for me it was a spiritual awakening... one of my friends (who is still one of my best friends) and I both got these effects and we would frequently write about our experiences. I had a "theory notebook" (I filled up 2 of them, 200 page spiral notebooks) that I nicknamed "The Bible", where I would write everything I thought of while high. My friend and I would go out and smoke, and take notes, and then the next day in school we'd write in our notebooks and then at lunch time we'd read each others' stuff. Awesome times.
I actually thought I had lost "The Bible" due to a careless action by another friend, but I found it a few months back. It was such a trip to read back through it, you can really see the progression in it from my first theories ("the universe can be represented by the graph of y = x(squared) + 2, mannnnn"), to some really interesting and well-thought-out ideas by the end. And also a collection of short stories and poems I had written.
Claim to fame/Just showing off: Y'know I am to blame for the term 'swirlies'? Well I am. It's probably the closest to a Good Thing I've done since being here 8)
neckbreaking ramble
(actually it isn't but it really would be a bit wanky to specify and am being quite wanky enough as it is... i blame the booze
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He speaks the truth! I remember when you coined the term, Shambley. It caught on right away, some people even still use it.
Should DMT dissolve in room temp water?
Not going to try to iv it or anything, just curious
No, it's a freebase so it will not dissolve in water.
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