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I've been drinking way too much. Since I last posted, I doubt I've had a single day where I didn't consume at least 100 ounces of beer (and I drink craft beer, nothing under like 6.5%).

I hate my life. I hate where I live. There's nothing here for me now. My girlfriend/fiance who I've been with for four and a half years is moving in with her mom. That's what started this downward spiral. It was not a mutual breakup. Everything's been great, zero problems, but apparently she doesn't love me.

Fuck her. My job I've been working towards notified me that I'm almost done with the hiring process, I should be out of here and making like 5k per month sometime around June.
 
trozzle said:
I've got bitch shoulders, so upright rows are definitely something I like getting into. Shame I've got crappy range of movement though, makes me look weird doing them since my elbows flat out refuse to even make it up to shoulder height let alone above them :(

My favourite lifts are the good ol' compounds - squat, bench, and deadlift. Only just getting back into deads again though....every time I work my way back up to a decent weight, I fuck my lower back and have to forgo on them for ages....taking me back to square one :( though I only ever got them up to 180kg once upon a time....back to 130kg 5-8 reps now :(
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I misread that and thought you said your own weight got up to 180kg at one point. It confused me a bit.

Joining the club on the blergh vibes, I've been feeling really low on energy and overall blase for about a week now. Last night saw some unintended and spontaneous tears; crying can actually be very cathartic and this seemed to release built up shitness but the generally melancholic feeling has returned. Not sure what to do really, so I think I'm going to go for a run, see if I can lose it....:(- well not quite, more like :\

edit: and some pretty bad stomach pain accompanying bloating... Sometimes I get afraid of the damage my insides have taken from passt addiction... Scares me, especailly when stoned and paranoid.

Sorry for dropping the blues all over the place but they say sharing helps (question the charity of sharing negativity). Myeh.

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thenightwatch said:
"People took such awful chances with chemicals and their bodies because they wanted the quality of their lives to improve. They lived in ugly places where there were only ugly things to do. They didn’t own doodley-squat, mso they couldn’t improve their surroundings. So they did their best to make their insides beautiful instead."

-- from Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut
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My grandmother loves Kurt Vonnegut. I still have her her copy of Jailbird? I think from the seventies. Anyways its the one where he is in russian jail jor being a nazi when really he's jewish US reporter iirc. I just like the cover because it is a man-baby with a swaskita painted on it's face with Israel's flag his stomach and the soviet union's hammer and sickle.mixed in there somewhere.
 
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trozzle said:
I've got bitch shoulders, so upright rows are definitely something I like getting into. Shame I've got crappy range of movement though, makes me look weird doing them since my elbows flat out refuse to even make it up to shoulder height let alone above them :(

My favourite lifts are the good ol' compounds - squat, bench, and deadlift. Only just getting back into deads again though....every time I work my way back up to a decent weight, I fuck my lower back and have to forgo on them for ages....taking me back to square one :( though I only ever got them up to 180kg once upon a time....back to 130kg 5-8 reps now :(
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Power cleans are like a double compound lift if that makes sense lol works every muscle you've got. Deadlifiting ALWAYS fucked my back. I miss the days when I was benching 275/power cleaning 225 at 165 pounds. Fuck you MXE:p

Edt: I'm about to leave for a work shift starting at 530am but since my boss owes me one I think I will actually get to come home at 11am instead of 330pm giving me enough time to take a nap and be up and about to enjoy my evening:)
 
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trozzle said:
though without said enthusiasm, how do these new substances find their way out of RC status :(
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widespread illicit/grey-area use of a substance basically guarantees that it will always retain "rc status" at best, or worse be scheduled and never have a chance to be used for legitimate purposes. realistically, once a substance hits the "rc scene" in all likelihood it will stay there forever.

thenightwatch said:
"People took such awful chances with chemicals and their bodies because they wanted the quality of their lives to improve. They lived in ugly places where there were only ugly things to do. They didn’t own doodley-squat, so they couldn’t improve their surroundings. So they did their best to make their insides beautiful instead."

-- from Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut
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that's a great quote from a great book

i mean i'm not judging anyone, lord knows i have my own issues with certain substances, and i totally understand the basic human need to escape from reality. but sometimes i think the culture of this forum can be anti-HR in the sense that it makes it seem so normal to go munching down every new compound that hits the scene, which eschews the reality that ingesting unresearched compounds is inherently risky and unreasonable behavior -- it's essentially like playing russian roulette with your health. i think for the most part, people are much too casual about it (and i'm not calling out anyone in particular, really it has become an embedded part of PD culture at this point and is almost ubiquitous). personally, i decided years ago that i'm not comfortable with being a guinea pig. the entire idea of it makes me uncomfortable, it even makes me nervous taking FDA-approved pharmaceutical drugs with short histories of human use.

just thought i would throw my perspective out there as a counterpoint to the prevailing zeitgeist of the forum.
 
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LSDMDMA&12845164 said:
I doubt working out is going to help me. Trying to cheer myself up with kesha
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Don't knock it til you try it. Being in shape improves almost everything about the way you feel, both mentally and physically. It's just science.
 
I ain't no guinea pig I'm manbearpig! lol

I remain weary of new compounds for about the first six months of people abusing it and experiencing side effects then once those people consistently say they're still okay after completely irresponsible dosing then I decide, hey maybe i'd try an active dose of that compound.

I think one of the appeals is that people will just say a new drug is awesome then they'll want their friends to do it with them just to be the one who got to show the new drug to everyone.

I honestly feel like i'm not being a much of guinea pig at all by doing MXE simply because of the people on the MXE threads posting shit thats along the lines of, "man i've been taking pretty much a third of a gram per day for the past three years and somehow I still have a bladder" shit like that makes me feel better about having done a decent amount of an unresearched chemical.

also, while there is a possibility for new drugs to come out that are going to have more side effects and stuff theres also the possibility of discovering an overlooked drug that turns out to be way better than any of its known counterparts/analogues

I'm not trying to support being a guinea pig just analyzing the guinea culture on this forum lol

edit: I have had stupid guinea pig behavior since i was like 15. I tend to push drugs that are supposed to be like "mild legal highs" to the limits without really thinking about the consequences, such as eating ~700 morning glory seeds when I was like 16 or so. Or more recently, trying an atrociously large dose of phenibut for the first time just to get a gist of the full extent of its effects.

edit: I think a new term for this behavior is in order, I propose "Wookie Pigs."
 
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If we are talking being in shape right
if i am doing any kind of exercise i would just run.
we r who we r is a banger though.
i fucks with kesha. She doesnt take herself too seriously and thats what i like about her
like
eksmans mixtape independance day is the hardest thing i ever heard.
 
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FlawedByeDesign said:
My grandmother loves Kurt Vonnegut. I still have her her copy of Jailbird? I think from the seventies. Anyways its the one where he is in russian jail jor being a nazi when really he's jewish US reporter iirc. I just like the cover because it is a man-baby with a swaskita painted on it's face with Israel's flag his stomach and the soviet union's hammer and sickle.mixed in there somewhere.
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the plot you described more closely matches his book Mother Night
 
For those concerned about me... I did receive my tianeptine today. I'm having a bit of a down day, just feeling flat and a bit anxious, due to not being all caught up on sleep yet and having an MXE/alcohol night last night that went really late. I took 50mg, and it's nice, not recreational at all but I feel considerably happier. Doesn't feel like an opiate at all at this dose. I have been getting into the habit of using phenibut most of the times I practice/jam with the band because I find it to greatly enhance my flow of musical inspiration... I've been partaking more often than I should though, at this point sometimes just because I get to feeling a bit down from all the partying I've been doing. I can see this being a good tool (at this dosage level) for helping me to get over a down day without resorting to phenibut, which I am feeling the pull of.

I'm on that 50mg of tianeptine right now and it doesn't feel opioid at all... not making me think about or crave opiates either. I think I will keep it as a handy tool for occasional use. It's really been quite effective at kicking me out of my minor funk.
 
Sounds like it could do the trick man :) you're obviously far too conscious of any signs to let yourself get into trouble with anything here like the Phenibut :)

Fingers crossed my MXE shows up today, or at least before next weekend...2 weeks so far, though having to cross the US by snail mail before finding it's way over the Pacific ocean would probably take a while :(
 
SONN said:
I remain weary of new compounds for about the first six months of people abusing it and experiencing side effects then once those people consistently say they're still okay after completely irresponsible dosing then I decide, hey maybe i'd try an active dose of that compound.
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see, the problem is that people on this forum are not a representative sample of the general population. what if (just an example off the top of my head) you happen to express a certain enzyme in a different concentration than most people do, and that results in a compound undergoing a different route of metabolism from what is typical, which results in higher concentrations of a toxic metabolite that ends up damaging your kidneys or something. what if one of these compounds is carcinogenic? (something i worry about with the synthetic cannabinoids especially) carcinogenicity is something that doesn't show itself until 20-30 years down the line when a bunch of people start getting ball cancer or whatever.

i dunno, maybe the fact that i have a degree in "durgs" makes me more paranoid than i should be. but this is the kind of stuff i worry about a lot. tbh i rather take something that i know is bad for me and exactly how it's bad for me, than to just play it like a crapshoot.

like i said, not judging anyone, i used to be the same way. i just felt like i should lay out my perspective on the issue for HR purposes, maybe it will help somebody.
 
Roger&Me said:
widespread illicit/grey-area use of a substance basically guarantees that it will always retain "rc status" at best, or worse be scheduled and never have a chance to be used for legitimate purposes. realistically, once a substance hits the "rc scene" in all likelihood it will stay there forever.
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I do basically agree, though in the near-term future I don't discount the possibility of an "RC" being put into schedule II or III in the U.S., or to be put on multiple schedules depending on context like GHB. The reason for this U.S. "virtue" is ironic, as I'm pretty sure the reason a drug has to kill, or be an "accomplice" to a death in a drug combo before it's emergency scheduled is because lobbyists representing the pharmaceutical industry don't want to have avenues of research on potentially profitable/patentable sister drugs blanket banned. I'm more hopeful for the not-so-near-term future, though.
i mean i'm not judging anyone, lord knows i have my own issues with certain substances, and i totally understand the basic human need to escape from reality. but sometimes i think the culture of this forum can be anti-HR in the sense that it makes it seem so normal to go munching down every new compound that hits the scene, which eschews the reality that ingesting unresearched compounds is inherently risky and unreasonable behavior -- it's essentially like playing russian roulette with your health. i think for the most part, people are much too casual about it (and i'm not calling out anyone in particular, really it has become an embedded part of PD culture at this point and is almost ubiquitous). personally, i decided years ago that i'm not comfortable with being a guinea pig. the entire idea of it makes me uncomfortable, it even makes me nervous taking FDA-approved pharmaceutical drugs with short histories of human use.

just thought i would throw my perspective out there as a counterpoint to the prevailing zeitgeist of the forum.
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Again I essentially agree. However, the extent to which I agree is highly contingent on the frequency and duration of these novel drugs' use. It's always a risk to use a drug, particularly unresearched compounds. But if others have reported using a drug without clear signs of detrimental effects I believe single or occasional use is likely to carry small risks relative to frequent or prolonged use of even most drugs approved by regulatory bodies for prescription. This is based on the simple fact that drugs are single compounds with fixed properties acting broadly within the human body, the most complexly and specifically regulated system in the known universe, and the fact that short-term consequences are the only clear physiological consequences of a drug's use barring drug-mediated changes in gene-expression and the like (the sort of information that can't truly be said to be known conclusively about even aspirin, or potentially some foods). The system can work around and recover from even egregious temporary imbalances, but if you're taking almost any powerfully pharmacologically active drug regularly for an extended period it can't. Look at overtreatment using approved benzos and suicide rates, for instance, and the withdrawal symptoms. I'm skeptical that anyone capable of holding a job should be prescribed those things, though I would hardly worry about someone getting high on them once every few weeks...
 
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lets do it
ol boy trozzy
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adelaide
melbourne
sydney
Brisbane
perth
i know you have mentioned canberra
like where have you been wot is it like etc.
your country sounds so awesome
 
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