☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: Somatic Swirly Sepia Summer Sausage Stage Set Suppository

[Kaleida]

Hope you feel better soon, Gravy. I didn't go that overboard, but I did justify having a couple beers to myself tonight to get rid of a headache, despite it really not being that bad. Not the craziest thing ever, but definitely contrary to my desire to never drink again.... These paths are definitely not the easiest to walk.

Yeah dude, ciagrettes/nicotine is the weirdest drug I have ever encountered. I actually dislike the nicotine buzz, I always have. All other drugs I have been compulsed to/addicted to make sense to me... they make me feel awesome so I want to keep doing them despite negatives. But with nicotine it's all negatives. I dip when I don't smoke and that's feeling pretty damn negative too. It's like everything about nicotine is bad for me, except for I just like the action of smoking. But the dip doesn't even make sense, I dislike dipping, but for whatever reason I want to feel nicotine, even though I know it isn't going to feel good. It creeps me out kinda... what the fuck sort of drug is nicotine?

This is how diphenhydramine was for me, but times like a thousand. The actual effects were completely miserable every time. Strong but boring or frightening hallucinations, strong dysphoria, strong confusion, a worse body load than any other drug you've ever taken, several days of hangover, negative aftereffects lasting weeks or months from single uses. And yet, I always felt compelled to go back. It was actually very difficult for me to stop using all together, I used to use it without even thinking when I was in a bad emotional headspace. Even after years of complete abstinence and regular reassurance to myself of how horrible it was, I still sometimes find myself feeling nostalgic for it and wishing I could have that trip one more time.

Curious that both of these drugs work directly on the acetylcholine system.

As of now it's looking like my plans for the night consist of pushing farther with DPT. I'm thinking 25mg plugged followed by another 25mg thirty minutes later, although everything I've read on dosage is highly contradicting leaving me still a little unsure if that's enough for what I want or if it's even too much. More research to follow and possibly changed dosage, but we'll see.

Hope it is/was awesome. I'd be curious to hear how it goes/went. I'm pretty interested in exploring that ROA with base tryptamines myself.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

Cannabis is a godsend on this bleak planet. God how I love thee, THC.

 

[solistus]

The show was fantastic! Really positive vibes from the crowd, some pretty kickass Halloween costumes, and my little bro seemed to get into it. He wasn't really digging the opening acts as much, we stood around near the back of the crowd and he wasn't really dancing/moving to it at all... But when Beats Antique took the stage, we got right into the heart of the crowd and danced pretty much for the entire 2 hour set. It was a ton of fun, and methinks a very good bonding experience with the lil' bro. It was his first ever concert of any kind, and he loved it. I'm much older than my siblings (I'm about to turn 30, he's 21, and my little sis is 18 ), so I've spent their whole lives thinking of them as my "kid siblings" - but Max (my brother) is a bona fide adult now. Developing a relationship with him as a peer has been such a trip. And my sister is living on her own for the first time now that she's started undergrad - I can't wait to hear stories over the next family holiday. My little siblings are all growed up, and it's awesome

Now I'm bringing my roll to a warm, fuzzy end with some good ole' THC. Feeling pretty good after the bowl I smoked as soon as we got home, but now my Volcano is beckoning to me, tempting me with tales of cannabinoid receptors yet untouched. Shall we, then? Yes - verily we shall.

 

[yepyepwoah]

Have fun solistus! I wish I could make it out but I just don't have the money to be going out, especially when the show is at the venue it's at *bleh*

As of now it's looking like my plans for the night consist of pushing farther with DPT. I'm thinking 25mg plugged followed by another 25mg thirty minutes later, although everything I've read on dosage is highly contradicting leaving me still a little unsure if that's enough for what I want or if it's even too much. More research to follow and possibly changed dosage, but we'll see.

Thats a good dose. I like 25-30mg increments plugged. It can be a beast, better to wade in.

 

[yepyepwoah]

Have a good weekend PD. I'm gonna finally do my 2C-C/MXE combo on Halloween night as a celebration of this mysterious universe we live in.

A nice combo! I took 100mg 2c c and 100mg mxe plugged over a few doses years back. +4, intense as fuck. 2c c is finally on my short list of purchases. Wonder how it will combine with 2cd? Mmmmm

 

[xammy]

Every time I see my girlfriend it gets more and more intense and better in every way. I don't know what have I done to get this much joy in this life. I've been looking for this feeling 10 years and it finally came - I won't ask anything more from the world. I got more than I could ever dream of. On friday evening she finally said the words "I love you". God how good it felt even when she has been calling me "dear", "my love" etc. It's only been a little over a month since we met, I hope this honeymoon phase never ends.

She tried ketamine yesternight for the first time. I took some too and then licked the remains of 3-meo-pcp from my scale and gave her some too. It was perfect.

 

[SKL]

As I've mentioned I've been working on a lot more creative writing, including raps and short stories I've posted here. Poetry is a new medium for me, but this morning I kind of got up and spontaneously wrote this:

Portrait of a Document at 99 Years.

 

[Solipsis]

I enjoyed that ^

Friends stayed over this weekend, visited the zoo and had excellent weather.. made an interesting thai green curry.. they left and I'm still quite happy with some homebrew hard cider that was gifted and salsa i made, modicum of 3-meo..
Ah that was cool, now a nice moment of relaxation, after hard work preparing for them and building my plant growing unit, which I will continue shortly and start a hopped pear cider brew of my own..

Tomorrow to hunt for some fungi.. but I heard it reported that not a single bolete has been harvested where previously there had been a regular cornucupoeia..

So nice to hear about your significant others, can't wait for that again myself. First, takin care of business and myself..

I am stocking up on 4-HO-MET i think by the by, and also saving the docu "life that glows" for that, which I am told has pretty epic moments.

 

[Xorkoth]

idk man, that 2 months away with the ex business would definitely not fly with me

Why's that though? I mean it would depend on the situation. But in this case, they split up 5 years ago, the way they split up was that they eventually realized they just weren't romantically interested in each other anymore, they were just friends. I've spent a good amount of time with him, and with the 3 of us together, never have I seen or felt the slightest hint that there was anything there. She gets a chance to make a lot of money, by going and staying at his place with a variety of other trimmers, every year. If I made it into a problem that would be my issue, it wouldn't have any impact on the reality of the situation except that she would feel unfairly controlled by me (rightly so, I don't own her and I don't own her past, she has the right to be friends with her ex). There is no problem. It was tough for me the first time because I hadn't met him yet. I just see the whole thing as an opportunity for growth. I don't HAVE to have a problem with it, it's almost just like there's this idea I SHOULD have a problem with it.

But yeah I have literally zero percent worries about anything going on between the two of them, it's only hard that she does it because I don't get to see her for 2 months or so.

 

[xammy]

My girlfriend still lives in the same apartment with her ex, father of her child until she finds a new place. I have no worries, he cheated on her and everything she has told me there is no way they would ever get back together or would there be anything between them if it wasn't for the child.

 

[Xorkoth]

It's like, you either trust someone or you don't. If I didn't trust her to not cheat on me, I wouldn't be with her. My lack of trust in her would create a problem, and it would be my fault. Early in our relationship I got really insecure about this very thing, since I didn't know her well yet, nor did I know him, nor had we gotten serious, but I decided not to externalize that insecurity to her, I did ask her if it was all over between them and she said yes and then explained to me how it ended. I'm glad I just dealt with (and overcame) the insecurity internally, because now neither of us has ever done anything towards the other to create any sort of baggage on our relationship. Therefore everything is still sun and rainbows after over 2 years.

 

[xammy]

Yeah absolutely. I refuse to mistrust anymore, if something happens then so be it. It really killed me with my first love and it took years to get over that shit. We both have experienced our partner cheating us so that is one of the many things that is connecting us.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

Hell, I'm so happy I'm the only guy my gal has been with. You guys can rationalize things all well and fine, but I'm incapable of it... There's no ex-lovers to come from her past (nor mine really) and ruin the trust, which is something few people have and I'm very thankful for. I've been working to lower my guard though of course, it can't be healthy to be so worried. She hangs out with a male coworker or two sometimes and I just force myself to get over it. After 7 years, I just have to trust her.

Last night I had a dream about one of her old roommates, in which I confessed my attraction to her. This happens an awful lot. My girl has had many a hot roomy and I dream about one of those 5 girls at least once a month. The dreams always end before the sex can begin though...

I'm so fucking obsessed with tail I can't figure out how to deal with it. I've come to realize that 110% of my social anxiety stems from my inability to deal with my attractions to girls. I can interact with other males like it's nothing, but then if a cute girl walks by I'm just floored with sexual desire. I wish we were an asexual species.

 

[Crashing]

Played a halloween party two nights ago at a mansion in south florida. These people know how to party, dozens of sexy people, tons on monsters roaming around. Kegs and sangria, a full self serve liquor bar, a mountain of social cocaine, guest rooms and the whole nine yards. 3-meo-pcp turned out to be quite a crowd pleaser but I got somewhat rowdy and argumentative with my girlfriend at the end and ended up making a bit of a scene off to the side. One thing i can say is that PCP and Crack cocaine are very risky combination, not recommended for the faint at heart, or to anybody really.

So i think It's just about time for a break with the Meo, but otherwise was one of the best nights i've had since the last great show i went to in NC.

 

[xammy]

I've never tried cocaine but I'm pretty sure that I'd prefer 3-meo-pcp over it x100, or any drug really. I prefer drugs where there isn't comedown or don't fuck with appetite & sleep. I'll jump back into the 3meo train in christmas holidays :D

Too bad that my vendor vanished, maybe it was meant to be.

 

[Xorkoth]

Sounds pretty wild Crashing. I like cocaine, not enough to ever buy it but it's pretty fun. Especially if someone just gives you a little bit from time to time, if you just do a bit and it's good coke, there's basically no negatives or comedown.

 

[xammy]

Yeah I believe it's fun in social situations like parties etc with alcohol

Probably boring to my taste though but it's just a guess. I love the mania and little hallucinogenic + delusional effects from dissos. I really don't think any drug will ever hit me like dissos. But life always surprises :D

 

[SKL]

good coke is a fantastic drug; problem is most of what circulates is shit coke which is why I usually prefer to smoke it, either cooking it up myself or buying hard, it tends to be purer and a better value. of course it's stigmatized but it's not as fiendish as people think. i.v. cocaine of course is a different matter, fiendish like i.v. mephedrone which is in itself a whole 'nother level; if I'm gonna go on a serious i.v. coke session (which I haven't in years, and always did with dope) I'll start an actual i.v. catheter and do proper saline flushes, etc. as good veins are at a premium and there's nothing worse than poking yourself silly with a drug that's in and of itself a potent vasoconstrictor! that kind of binge doesn't wind up being too sociable, either, especially with dope, and ideally good coke with a little booze is a perfect social drug although to people who aren't high your yammering like idiots

 

[xammy]

Yea that is another problem, I think most coke is like 10% here in Finland if even that.

And it still costs so much that I would never pay that. Rofl you can get a gram or two of the purest 3-meo-pcp with that price.

 

[Xorkoth]

Yeah almost all the coke I've ever had has been cut to shit. Most of my friends who ever do coke will get some they say is amazing and it'll be slightly better shit. My friend here got some like a year ago at a show, he was ranting about how it's some of the best he's ever had, and I tried some and I never even got very high despite doing quite a bit and after a while of just feeling pretty nice I started to feeling like shit, all cracked out feeling. Barely even numbed my throat. I've had good coke and it's totally different, whatever is cut into average coke is dirty and stimmy. Good coke, you can do a tiny bit and feel it strongly, and it's not like it jacks you up, you just feel this feeling of pure amazingness for a bit and like you have all the energy you need and want to talk to everyone about everything, and then it fades away and you feel normal (unless you do a lot of course or redose all night long). The best coke I ever had, I did 1 tiny scoop in each nostril (must have been 10-15mg per scoop, maximum) and it was so nice. It seemed to absorb into my nasal passages almost instantly and my whole face went numb. It wasn't super strong, it was just 100% goodness at all times, such a beautiful and benign feeling.