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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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Got my hands on some acid, feel like i really need it but an institution is always a challenging place to trip...
 
bingey said:
Got my hands on some acid, feel like i really need it but an institution is always a challenging place to trip...
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And exciting too, in a way. Like the school playground, fear plus excitement. Two elements that when combined in just the right ratio, and well tempered, can make for an extra special trip.

But I’ve never been institutionalised, so it’s unknown territory. I reckon I’d still plunge though. Maybe drop at 10 pm. Good luck making the best decision and finding a gap for a comfortable, secure enough trip.
 
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And exciting too, in a way. Like the school playground, fear plus excitement. Two elements that when combined in just the right ratio, and well tempered, can make for an extra special trip.

But I’ve never been institutionalised, so it’s unknown territory. I reckon I’d still plunge though. Maybe drop at 10 pm. Good luck making the best decision and finding a gap for a comfortable, secure enough trip.
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It's not the first time for me, and yes I'll drop at 9:30, so I'll be left alone.

And it adds not so much excitement as a sensation of freedom when it pans out correctly , like @Perforated says deinstitutionalized on the inside.

Only thing is these bloody APs I'm onmake dosing kind of a shot in the dark.
 
bingey said:
It's not the first time for me, and yes I'll drop at 9:30, so I'll be left alone.

And it adds not so much excitement as a sensation of freedom when it pans out correctly , like @Perforated says deinstitutionalized on the inside.

Only thing is these bloody APs I'm onmake dosing kind of a shot in the dark.
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Yes 9.30 even better. I would have suggested too, but really in my mind, past 10 pm is safety time. One minute before 10, it’s like you are still by unwiritten law, a “harassable” citizen, whose duty it is to be subjected to reality.

10 pm, not now fucker lol, I’m tired, it’s late, it’s my time see you tomorrow maybe.

But if you can feel secure before 10 go for it, if you do.
 
bingey said:
Only thing is these bloody APs I'm onmake dosing kind of a shot in the dark.
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Yeah I'll be finding out how Seroquel XR affects things sooner or later. I'm only on 150mg a day, but likely more in the near future.

Going to another psychiatric thing tomorrow, couple of weeks, maybe two months we'll see. I'm honestly relieved, I haven't been stable at all so days have been intense. And on top of that it's choosing between the boredom and flatness of Ritalin or running around like a maniac all day.
 
Perforated said:
I don’t. I like being safe inside. With drugs for happiness and my dog for companionship.
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Me these days, I feel so very safe out anywhere in public.

I really feel like my energy field and presence of conscious energy, total absence of any detectable body language fear or insecurity, inferiority, makes me the last weak link the predators spit with eyes closed.

It’s only the fact that you have to keep on the move, or at least mindful, of your surroundings and potential outsiders when away from home.

Apart from that, I’d be in any public area, never at all threatened by the idea of any other person.

If someone’s gonna batter me with baseball bat, against my will, despite my attempts to civilly reason a polite request not to lol, or fail to dash away at the last moment if that fails, then so be it,

But I’m very self assured in the sense, I’m comfortable in my own mind. I’m so grounded. I’m happy to talk to anybody, reason anything out if needs be, there’s purpose, and importantly reason is the currency.

But I’m not one tad obliged. I can look but not touch. Listen but not talk. Act, move, anyhow I choose. I did it with not a superiority but natural freeness and command. I’m not antisocial, I Naturally engage without fear or aloofness.

But only because I feel like it, choose to, in my own way, terms and limits.

It’s really, zero social anxiety. Except when I’m really trashed on Acid, talking to a straight neighbour brings it home.

But it’s that freeness, feeling of being my own dominion. You can exude that, and it’s like being immune, invisible or on a different floor.

I do feel fully safe only at home when a trip is really intense, but I like to go out for walks too, the busy Sunday morning world was a spectacle really it was worth it, check where you are at sometimes.
 
Buzz Lightbeer said:
You don't run around inside? The amount of circles I walk around the table in my living room while thinking about what I was doing, gonna do, or just thinking about things lol
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I just bought a stationary trainer for my mountain bike so even on rainy days or when I’m busy there’s no excuse not to do a few miles. It holds my ipad and displays a course to entertain me.
 
I really, really miss holing. My wife bought me a scented candle I used to always use when I'd snoot MXE later in college for Christmas and I just stumbled upon it again. It was a very kind and thoughtful gesture by her, but... damn it, I wanna do MXE >.>
 
If I may, I will relay what I read all those years as someone that does not really like ketamine and MXE. But from the sidelines I remember the MXE batches that drove people nuts. All coming back as MXE when tested yet having different effects profile. The one batch was killer, then some others that came after did not live up to it. One was more mellow the other energetic. But I have never seen so much speculation about a substance since the threads on LSD purity. Two batches of MXE but each having different but consistent effects. I was almost glad I did not participate. In the threads there was one person that bought like 5 subsequent batches hoping to get the same effects as the original one. Although I may not use a drug I do like reading people's experience.

One day I have a vision of purity. Any substance we want to be Heisenberg level of quality. :) I think I have mentioned the state of purity of street drugs is very depressing these days. Other than cannabis and psychedelics it seems other drugs can be completely adulterated. I don't use street drugs but if i did I would be totally bummed. Fentanyl for heroin, God knows what for speed or ketamine. I really wish we would demand more purity. If I want to go back to heroin I should be able too and not get fentanyl.
 
I agree with @JackARoe on the appalling state of drug quality both on the street and on the dark web. But having recently discovered ketamine I have trouble imagining what a ‘more pure’ product would offer above what I’ve found online. First couple of goes I didn’t really like it, but once I got used to just grooving with the ride with my eyes closed I’ve come to find it every bit as enjoyable as acid which also seems to be as good as it’s possible to imagine and ridiculously cheap. The shitty quality and crazy prices of everything else have been a great incentive to go with K and Lucy. Although I’m keeping a close eye on my bladder and associated organs.
 
^ Being so out of the loop on things I can't really say anything about street drugs. I know you know methamphetamine better than anyone Perforated. And you probably are getting ketamine. The only thing I can say is when I tried 32 years ago there was no black market for ketamine .I had a bottle of Ketaset from the vet I worked at. Took a couple of bottles from storage. but the dosage I knew from any literature was 25-50 mgs was a small dose 75-100 mgs was strong and 125 mgs and over was just blacking out. It had to be IM'd as far as I knew. No problem. But people here say they can do 500 mgs lines. I mean that probably has more to do with tolerance than wrong dose info. But yeah ketamine was the only drug I left sitting and ended up throwing out.

I've always wondered if learning the whole dark web stuff would be worth it but now it seems to almost be the same crap. Take money and run. I really thought the fight would be for who had the best quality. (my vision of heaven lol)
 
Snafu of the Forest said:
SWIM's 4th cousin's mirror reflection captured on a phone camera, digitally scrambled and encrypted then recreated with ham, eggs and pepper smoked some weed once and wants to know if it was laced with PCP.
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This is actually less annoying than most examples I actually see people use (though people do it much less now), because at least it was funny.

Buzz Lightbeer said:
You don't run around inside? The amount of circles I walk around the table in my living room while thinking about what I was doing, gonna do, or just thinking about things lol
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I do this when I talk on the phone. Endless pacing. I look down too, and try to make a pattern to my steps based on the textures or patterns of what I'm stepping on. I try to use an even number of steps in each step pattern I do, too. Somehow it helps me concentrate on what I'm saying.

Perforated said:
I agree with @JackARoe on the appalling state of drug quality both on the street and on the dark web. But having recently discovered ketamine I have trouble imagining what a ‘more pure’ product would offer above what I’ve found online. First couple of goes I didn’t really like it, but once I got used to just grooving with the ride with my eyes closed I’ve come to find it every bit as enjoyable as acid which also seems to be as good as it’s possible to imagine and ridiculously cheap. The shitty quality and crazy prices of everything else have been a great incentive to go with K and Lucy. Although I’m keeping a close eye on my bladder and associated organs.
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Ironically the best quality drugs these days appear to be from clear net vendors of quasi-legal psychedelics. Not all of them of course. But many vendors stock very high quality (as confirmed by me recently when I sent a number in for lab testing) substances, which is more than you can say for most other drugs anywhere these days.
 
So man, what a day at work. I have been offered a serious promotion, to head all programming and development efforts, which includes the team I was recently a programmer on (the "curated" side of the work, ie, executing custom client projects), and all developmental stuff, which is what I was previous doing by myself. I'm replacing my old boss in running the curated team, which I felt awful about at first since he's a good friend, but turns out he's not being fired as I originally though, I will just be his boss and I will get to decide his role. Turns out he actually really didn't want the position in the first place, he just felt he had to take it. And probably wanted more money. I'm unclear whether his pay is being reduced... I hope not. But I'm sure he won't hold it against me. I have a lot of thinking to do about how I want to arrange it all, now that I am suddenly managing a lot of people. I've never been a manager before. I am certainly going to be making a significantly larger amount of money. That talk is tomorrow.

I'm excited and also nervous. It's a lot more responsibility. I don't want to find myself unable to do all the things in my life I want to be doing. Thinking of the band when I say that. Fortunately it looks like things are cooling off yet again because of covid... just at another time when I pretty much need to focus more on work because of a big transition. Crazy how that timing keeps working out.

I already work full time and make the band work, I will still be working remotely. So it should work out, once I get my bearings and get things running.

They are making this transition with me because they said of anyone they've talked to in the company, I am the only person who seems to have a complete idea and the skillset needed to revamp our entire process across the whole company. And things are not working as is, everyone is overloaded and there are massive inefficiencies. I have been working to improve those for years but now I will have a whole lot more agency/authority to do so.

Lots to think about...
 
JackARoe said:
^ Being so out of the loop on things I can't really say anything about street drugs. I know you know methamphetamine better than anyone Perforated. And you probably are getting ketamine. The only thing I can say is when I tried 32 years ago there was no black market for ketamine .I had a bottle of Ketaset from the vet I worked at. Took a couple of bottles from storage. but the dosage I knew from any literature was 25-50 mgs was a small dose 75-100 mgs was strong and 125 mgs and over was just blacking out. It had to be IM'd as far as I knew. No problem. But people here say they can do 500 mgs lines. I mean that probably has more to do with tolerance than wrong dose info. But yeah ketamine was the only drug I left sitting and ended up throwing out.

I've always wondered if learning the whole dark web stuff would be worth it but now it seems to almost be the same crap. Take money and run. I really thought the fight would be for who had the best quality. (my vision of heaven lol)
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That long ago, every possibility it was the proper, Veterinary Ketamine.

I tried it once in 2002, by 2003 it was replaced with the then pure, uncut, pharmaceutical Ketamine, which was still great.

But that Vet ket you likely had, fuck, mental stuff.

Because the doses you list, I was going to politely ofc lol, debate otherwise, then saw 35 yrs back, aha!

So that makes sense.

I was so lucky, right in the London & UK party scene early 200’s when ketamine was all everywhere.

We got pure uncut always.

But 250 mg’s was a lovely fuzzy dose. 0.333 could lay you on your back, k hole you.

0.5 not really necessary but doable and fun, not unconsciousifying always either.

1 gram, could be messy. Eyes open froze like scarecrow for hours, rigorously Morris style lol,

But again I am referring to Pharma Ket. If it was veterinary Ketamine and pure at that, 1 gram even 0.5 will be an abyss of another place.

I’d really dig some ketamine now. Kava has helped lot tonight. Friend randomly visited. We sat garden, smoked/vaped ganja, I guzzled kava.

Just winding down finding some peace a bit more anyway.
 
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