pharmakos
Bluelighter
Well I needed to pay my cell phone and car insurance somehow =\ so in this case it was alright but damn. $60 in late fees just to float some money for a week and a half.
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pharmakos
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Jabberwocky
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You can tell your bank to not allow overdraft. A lot of people don't know that.
But sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. Probably better to take a microloan from one of those apps.
But sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. Probably better to take a microloan from one of those apps.
pharmakos
Bluelighter
pharmakos
Bluelighter
Tried those apps and they all denied me, my finances are in literal ruins after six years of being on disability, four of those years on chemo, and the last year barely avoiding homelessness. Probably should just file bankruptcy I guess....
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Oh bro my credit score is like 176...... They'd probably deny me too. I'm still recovering too after my mental break and homelessness.
Glad you're doing better man. I'm probably the only person on earth that knows how awful chemo is and I never had cancer. Had a near fatal overdose on chemo meds... Long and awful story.
I'm considering filing as well... I just can't even afford a lawyer to file... Fuck me right?
pharmakos
Bluelighter
Re: DXM
Those that have known me for years know it's probably the drug I have the most experience with
Anymore, tho, after having access to more powder than I knew what to do with for a couple years, I can't stand store bought cough medicine. Even five Robogels (75mg) makes me nauseous lol. But I can handle like 500mg-1000mg of powder.
Really, tho, the best use for DXM is in combination with other dissociatives. It adds that warm, slightly serotonergic push to it, and offers a much more music euphoria than most dissociatives. DXM + MXE and DXM+3-MeO-PCP are great combos.
I've told the story here a few times, but once upon a time when I was a BL newbie (note -- I knew who Xorkoth was even before I started posting on BL, from back in my days being an Erowid Crew member helping triage trip reports. Xorkoth's old trip reports are still like the highest rated ones on the site lol). I had a series of strange dreams during a weird transitional phase of my life, around the same time I was using a lot of DOI I believe, and I had a dream that Xorkoth died (knock on wood!) and in remembrance of him, to get the word out to as many psychonauts as possible, Robitussin put a little "RIP Xorkoth" thing on every package of cough medicine lmao. And in the dream, seeing the bottle was how I got the news, hadn't found out from the site yet.
Xorkoth has heard this story a few times now, and I think the only response he could even think of (I mean how do you respond to this, I probably couldn't either lol) was that it's especially weird because he doesn't really use DXM lol.
Those that have known me for years know it's probably the drug I have the most experience with
Anymore, tho, after having access to more powder than I knew what to do with for a couple years, I can't stand store bought cough medicine. Even five Robogels (75mg) makes me nauseous lol. But I can handle like 500mg-1000mg of powder.
Really, tho, the best use for DXM is in combination with other dissociatives. It adds that warm, slightly serotonergic push to it, and offers a much more music euphoria than most dissociatives. DXM + MXE and DXM+3-MeO-PCP are great combos.
I've told the story here a few times, but once upon a time when I was a BL newbie (note -- I knew who Xorkoth was even before I started posting on BL, from back in my days being an Erowid Crew member helping triage trip reports. Xorkoth's old trip reports are still like the highest rated ones on the site lol). I had a series of strange dreams during a weird transitional phase of my life, around the same time I was using a lot of DOI I believe, and I had a dream that Xorkoth died (knock on wood!) and in remembrance of him, to get the word out to as many psychonauts as possible, Robitussin put a little "RIP Xorkoth" thing on every package of cough medicine lmao. And in the dream, seeing the bottle was how I got the news, hadn't found out from the site yet.
Xorkoth has heard this story a few times now, and I think the only response he could even think of (I mean how do you respond to this, I probably couldn't either lol) was that it's especially weird because he doesn't really use DXM lol.
pharmakos
Bluelighter
I guess you don't really need a lawyer? Still trying to figure out myself what my best course of action is tho
How the fuck did you end up taking a bunch of chemo??????
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
One of my buddies filed a few years ago and said he had to pay the lawyer 1800 or something. Idk how it works.
About 12mg Xanax and 10 beers. Went around and burglarized several houses blacked out. One of the things I stole was a vial of chemo meds. I was SOOOO high that I thought it was some psychoactive drug. Drank the entire bottle...
I became VIOLENTLY sick. I had several seizures and nearly bit my tongue in half. Obviously lost all my hair and shit too. Bleeding gums... It was bad.
I honestly have no idea how I did not die. I did not go to the hospital... I am very lucky to still be here. There is a high chance I am now infertile due to this.
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Dxm kind of sucks...
Disability attorneys will just take a cut of your backpay check, and there's no need for one for the initial filing.
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I'm going to be taking cancer meds soon for some $$$, I dont know if it's chemotherapy but when researching the investigational drug I found some reference to "similar to other chemotherapy drugs" in reference to it. Thankfully I only have to take a single dose of it, but I will need to take phenytoin daily for like 2 weeks which I'm not excited about as they are testing the interaction between these two drugs, and phenytoin sounds like it could be pretty unpleasant on its own (drug induced lupus? Bone problems? Suicide? Life threatening rashes?) Hopefully I'm not the first one dosed, and will have at least an hour between the first patient being dosed and myself so if ppl start dying I can opt out (on combo day
Edit: jeez, saw you ronbed a bunch of houses on a benzo blackout. Thankfully the worst of mine involve obnoxious behavior or having to be carried around
Edit: jeez, saw you ronbed a bunch of houses on a benzo blackout. Thankfully the worst of mine involve obnoxious behavior or having to be carried around
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Xorkoth
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Edit: I’d like to think I’m one of the psychonauts included in your comment re: DXM, Xorkoth
You are.
I don't care for DXM much either, I am hypersensitive to it (like CG described) and it feels pretty bad in my body. I have had a couple of pretty good experiences with it, but also some awful ones.
pharmakos
Bluelighter
Do you know what med it was???
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
No. I have a vague memory the name of the chemical started with an M, that's all and I'm not even sure if that memory is true
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Methotrexate? Whichever chemo med it was you're lucky to be alive.
I didn't know him well. Not even sure if he's alive. He did go to psychedelic conferences from time to time though and was often out of his mind at the time. Scuttlebut is that he got into PCP and more or less lost the plot. He was a weird dude. Very intelligent (kinda obviously...) Probably on the autistic spectrum, which anecdotally I've noticed is very linked with greatly enjoying dissociatives.
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Could be. Also I think I remember the vial said "take for pain" which is the reason I drank it, not sure if that's a false memory... Sounds Wong, but maybe a clue.
And yep... Very aware. Luckily that event inspired years of sobriety and I never robbed anyone ever again. Good things came after. That happened 15 years ago.
Honestly the worst part of that story is I had just gotten out of 9 months of inpatient rehabs and the quack doctor AT REHAB prescribed me xanax... Me... A heroin addict. I left rehab with that bottle of 2mg brand name Xanax and then that all happened... The whole thing is fucked up.
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pharmakos
Bluelighter
This is something I've noticed as well, honestly.
Did you know that DXM+quinidine is used as a treatment for pseudobulbar affect? I think the blunting of emotional affect combined with the altered consciousness, with the inward focus, probably makes it more than just a palliative treatment -- it's essentially the exact therapy that many autistics need, I'm sure.
I believe myself to be undiagnosed autistic. I'm already on SSI/SSD/Medicare/Medicaid, going to talk to my shrink about "proving" it soon.
I mean, it makes a lot more sense than what the shrinks have been telling me -- that I have every single fucking mental disorder in the fucking DSM basically lol. So much of the info out there about undiagnosed autistics focuses on females. Hopefully that won't be an issue. I remember my mother being told by my teachers that I should be tested for ADD and autism and she refused to get me tested.
I used to be thankful for that.
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The only good thing about dxm is its afterglow, other than that it's the worst of the dissociative, i mean I never tried memantine, but yeah, wish there was otc K available, id be a daily shopper at walgreens
pharmakos
Bluelighter
There's a particularly lucid other-worldliness to high dose DXM that I don't get on high doses of other dissociatives. Could just be that, at this point, it's the language my brain understands, tho, lol.
Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Dxm + LSD had a very unique high compared to LSD + K
Both produce a bit too much mania in me tho, too weird for my taste but very trippy
Fuckin dissos man weirdest drugs on the planet IMO
Both produce a bit too much mania in me tho, too weird for my taste but very trippy
Fuckin dissos man weirdest drugs on the planet IMO
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