I need to quit caffeine. It does literally nothing good for me. Barely gives me motivation even, maybe a tiny tiny bit for like 5-10 minutes but that's it. The rest of the time which is indeed a fucking long time... it's just awakeness, sometimes not even that, like lethargy with my heart and mind racing.
But for some reason... the thought of facing the day without it makes me anxious as well, even though drinking it usually leads to a messy shit within a pretty short time, disappointment at the lack of the actual motivation I was seeking, and then just baseline anxiety the rest of the time...
I did quit for 2 weeks recently and the week after going back to it was a damn productive week. I was like fuck - I've cracked it! But then week after is diminishing returns. Week 3 and fuck this, take 2 ditching that tasty black legally sanctioned crack.
Although people often tout the health benefits of coffee - I have read, without bothering to cite sources but anyone please feel free to - that there is a fair amount of genetic variation in response to caffeine. There are some degrees, but the kind of people who can drink a coffee before bed and be absolutely fine are likely to be fast metabolisers for whom coffee has significant health benefits - within reason. Those who react very strongly to caffeine are likely to be "slow metabolisers", and excess consumption (more than even a cup a day, possibly) no doubt still get nutrient benefits and whatnot but also can predispose themselves to certain types of heart disease or other maladies.
I feel I should double check this data, I might be slightly off, but, I'm sure that's roughly accurate. Anyway, day 1 no caffeine. Woop.