I like noopept for short periods of time. I always dose it nasally, just like 10mg is ideal because more does tend to give some brain fog. Nasally dosing it gives a slight stimulant effect and mood lift, too. I notice my thoughts move very quickly and multitasking is markedly easier. Using it for more than a few weeks daily starts to feel like it becomes counterproductive. Overall I prefer piracetam as it feels the lightest and cleanest, and does give me a notable mental boost. But its effects are subtler.
Is it just me, or did the socio-political situation degrade rather quickly....it seems to have become severely polarised just in the last decade or less. Maybe even only since just before Trump was elected.
I know the build up to the current situation is a long time coming, it just seems to have accelerated rapidly in the last few years.
It's been divided for some time but yeah it's gotten much worse in the last 5 years. Although I think that for a lot of people it was already pretty bad in their minds and this presidency just gave them a voice. Also the 24 hour news cycle on both sides has been incredibly destructive and irresponsible.
Anyway, man I had an awful day yesterday, fuck, made me want to just not do drugs at all other than trip sometimes when I feel like it, I haven't successfully felt that way since towards the end of my detox retreat, before shit blew up again. I mean I have wanted to, in an ideal fashion, but I have also clearly been wanting to do a bunch of drugs, that was a foolishly epic binge of a weekend. I have not felt as low as I did yesterday in a long time. I think I'm getting some vicious rebound from dosing a lot of benzos for 2 days in a row (but like, a lot, especially to knock myself out). It's better today but I still feel pretty low. I also realized I needed to unplug from world events for a while, that stuff is really toxic.
Felt like my brain was unable to work yesterday, I just was staring at the screen most of the work day, after work I couldn't think of anything to say to my girlfriend. I was SO tired and was passing out uncontrollably on the couch, but once got in bed I couldn't sleep at all, although in the early morning I had a bunch of dreams, so I must have slept some.
Today I'm just using some L-theanine and diphenhydramine to take the edge off the anxiety. Feelin' like a dumbass... again. Oh well, I'll just let this motivate me. Even delta-8 THC sounds unappealing to me right now, because of anxiety. Only opiates really sound good, but fuck going down that road again. I'm just gonna lay low and rest and eat well.