☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

[AutoTripper]

I really hate the swings, there is no baseline or even a sense of what it's like. It is bound to sow distrust in oneself after a while.
Surrendering is one thing, accepting ánd being functional is a whole other matter. Add ADHD and you've got a deeply dysfunctional human being.


Too much praise brother
I just like coming here, always loved the forum way of communication. Lots of complaining and oversharing this past year on my end, but whatever, when I come here I just ride the waves as you do now if only I were able to try some of the untouched psychedelics left in my collection.........

I'll be fine, for now I've put my trust in the psychiatric system, a journey which has only just begun. Otherwise I plan to stay on this planet for as long as I can.

Haha, good luck with that very last point there!

You have commented on this before, and I think I said then, not over divulging, whinging in any way. Honest sharing is good, for us all. Holding back, we feel that too.

And caring too, actually happens around this place.

Times can change. They will. It’s a definite, we just need to work for positive change and be thankful for it.

 

[perpetualdawn]

I just like coming here, always loved the forum way of communication.

I love the free form of conversation we have going on here, you can just lay something down with no expectations.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

I haven't had much to say lately. Feeling rather apathetic to be frank.

 

[AutoTripper]

I haven't had much to say lately. Feeling rather apathetic to be frank.

You aren’t alone mate. And it isn’t “you” either, we are all digging deeper than ever to keep focus and light.

I flicker daily between none, with only a wish to strap on as many clothes layers Incan fit, take a fishing brolly, sleeping bag, and head off into wilderness. (Well, UK countryside, make my peace in a secluded far away natural spot and just waste away.

Other days I flip to motivation and hope.

I used to have days, or at least parts of days, when I reached peace and hope, has been rarer than hell lately but good glimpses here and there.

But @Cream Gravy? I try to lead by example, encourage others to drop all boundaries.

I spill it all, good, bad and ugly. Never a winge really, not cry for help ever.

I share all the good too when I can. It just helps me be real, every moment. BL is secretly my diary lol!

But creamy (lol), you’re here tonight. No duties to say much. And fear not to say whatever is too.

I mean, Just don’t let what are you might consider being pretty dark miserable or empty life experience deter you from checking in with us and just saying hi bye or sharing whatever you feel like might help you.

We are actually surprisingly mature and accepting and supporting bunch of strangers here. Who If like myself would always be happier to know exactly how are you are thinking and feeling just like anybody really than vice versa.

Really stoned on excellent weed all day today, But those words above are spoken from hearts and with total genuiuity.

We’re all in this man. And BL fumes are very very permitting.

Just….be nice, basically.

Not a rule it seems but don’t multiple repeat post, repeatedly, in certain threads mainly political.

But telling nice, happy stories only- not a rule.

So stoned again. Best stop. Hold in bro, just shout Yo here, there if anything, good to see you around take care mate.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I’m curious about something triggered by something @AutoTripper wrote about a few pages back. Do other people who take very large doses of LSD (or other psychadelics) find they need to pass through a near unconscious state on the come up? I mean before the joy and pleasure or excitement becomes the dominant experience.

I’m finding LSD offering quite new experiences now I’m totally stimulant free.

It’s a feeling similar to being over-stimulated to the point your mind just collapses and says “just go away and leave me die in peace” like a long distance runner collapsed in the heat. But eventually determination returns and the runner gets back in the race but maybe taking a way different route to the finish line than the race organisers had mapped out for them.

I don’t know if what I am talking about is ego death. It’s pretty close to litteral unconsciousness for me. Certainly comes with a sense of total mental and physical exhauastion that overpowers that normal come-up stimulation that would have me going for a long walk in the sunshine on a regular dose.

 

[Xorkoth]

Back in the day, when I had less experience, I used to have really difficult come-ups because the transition from sober to tripping was very challenging. Nowadays I hardly ever experience that. I can't say I've ever gone unconscious though, or even close, it's more like I become much more conscious and hyper-aware, and that can be a difficult transition.

 

[AutoTripper]

It’s a feeling similar to being over-stimulated to the point your mind just collapses and says “just go away and leave me die in peace”

I think you are definitely onto something here, except I say ty own mind- you aren’t needed right now, I’ll see you in a bit lol.

And I always do,

And bang on, on a mg certainly, There can be a temporary but not uncomfortable or disturbing but rather quite blissful sort of consciousness blackout during the first hour where it literally is like you are not conscious of anything but really you are just elsewhere.

I always snap round from this feeling absolutely remarkable.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I always snap round from this feeling absolutely remarkable.

Yeah. There is always a really beautulf “snapback” after an hour or so when I become hyper-aware more like @Xorkoth describes above.

Often when I come around again I literally say (to the universe or the drug or whatever) with a big smile:

“Thank you! I see it all so clearly now”

 

[Buzz Lightbeer]

Do other people who take very large doses of LSD (or other psychadelics) find they need to pass through a near unconscious state on the come up?

Don't know what you're talking about, doses were never high enough either probably.

“Thank you! I see it all so clearly now”

LSD always presents the key to it all. It is as dumb as it is hilarious as it is amazing. Every one of my later acid or analogue trips have involved the mental image of a key in like the corner of a room of my brain, in reach anytime. Lol, cracks me up thinking about it.

 

[perpetualdawn]

I’m curious about something triggered by something @AutoTripper wrote about a few pages back. Do other people who take very large doses of LSD (or other psychadelics) find they need to pass through a near unconscious state on the come up? I mean before the joy and pleasure or excitement becomes the dominant experience.

I remember this effect really strongly on my first mescaline cactus trip. It felt like it completely broke me down physically like that runner you described, and then built me back up with it's own juice/vibe. It definitely wasnt ego-death, it was much more visceral than that.

Since then many trips have had at least a shade of that on the comeup. You always seem to pre-pay a bit with psychedelics.

 

[Img_9999]

Good good, depression cloud has lifted since yesterday night/today which is great timing since I'm going to a festival tomorrow, weather should be nice although possibly a little too cloudy for my taste. Still, that'll be the extent of my complaining in that respect.
The line-up could go either way, I'm praying there are a couple of unexpected surprising acts otherwise there might be some dead-ish time, which I'm not used to because of being spoiled by great festivals all these years. There's no way I'll regret going though so take my comments with a grain of salt.

Cool, I miss festivals and live music so much. They are not a thing here yet, but I suspect when the winter is over they will be slowly coming back. Vaccination has advanced quickly and active cases decreased significantly. So I hope we can see a slow return to normal this summer, or something close to that. Enjoy the festival ! Are you taking any psychedelics ? Or playing it safe?

Hey man, how's it going?

I'm fine personally, but have a couple of close friends and family going through really rough moments. So a little bit worried, but I try to stay present and available and that's all I can do I guess. Work has been busy. Been stepping back into the lab for the last couple of months, so that seems to be going back to normal. Still have more flexibility in terms of working hours than before covid, so that's been nice. Also my band started rehearsing again last week, which is also nice.

Lots of thing going on really, but nothing extraordinary, only simple stuff that had been suspended or hindered by the paindemic. Haven´t tripped in a while but I just grew my first Cubensis, planning on taking some by month-end.

Hope you are doing great !

 

[Xorkoth]

Cool, I miss festivals and live music so much. They are not a thing here yet, but I suspect when the winter is over they will be slowly coming back. Vaccination has advanced quickly and active cases decreased significantly. So I hope we can see a slow return to normal this summer, or something close to that.

I imagine people in your country are eager to get vaccinated? In America its been the opposite, we were doing really well but so many people are against or afraid of the vaccine that we're ramping up again, and I am really hoping we don't get back into lock downs (but it kinda seems that it's gonna end up there). It's really frustrating because a lot of people aren't even willing to wear masks in public. And we're about to re-open schools in-person.

I'm fine personally, but have a couple of close friends and family going through really rough moments. So a little bit worried, but I try to stay present and available and that's all I can do I guess. Work has been busy. Been stepping back into the lab for the last couple of months, so that seems to be going back to normal. Still have more flexibility in terms of working hours than before covid, so that's been nice. Also my band started rehearsing again last week, which is also nice.

Lots of thing going on really, but nothing extraordinary, only simple stuff that had been suspended or hindered by the paindemic. Haven´t tripped in a while but I just grew my first Cubensis, planning on taking some by month-end.

Hope you are doing great !

I'm doing good. Work is going great, I am about to fly next week across the country to meet with my boss and the president of the company to talk about the direction I see development moving. I've been getting some strong hints that they've got a bigger role in mind for me and my boss emailed me a couple of nights ago to tell me how impressed she was with something I got done recently that went live for the first time, and said something about being excited for the future and helping me have a great career path. So I am thinking I might be getting a promotion or at least they're pretty much for sure looking to get me into the upper levels of the company in the future. So I'm excited about that. I just got a promotion less than a year ago and 2 raises last year so it might be a more medium term thing but I've had what I feel are a couple of hints dropped with a little wink so it feels like maybe pretty close.

The band is doing well too, we're planning a tour out to Colorado for 2-3 weeks, there are 12-14 venues we have hookups for, so that's in the works for this Fall or Winter. Provided shit doesn't lock down again anyway.

 

[Img_9999]

Yeah, most people are, although the anti-vax discourse has also found its followers here, but my impression is they are a small minority. In some regions here vaccination has already reached 80%, ironically in Santiago it seems to be moving slightly slower but it's still over 70%.

I'm doing good. Work is going great, I am about to fly next week across the country to meet with my boss and the president of the company to talk about the direction I see development moving. I've been getting some strong hints that they've got a bigger role in mind for me and my boss emailed me a couple of nights ago to tell me how impressed she was with something I got done recently that went live for the first time, and said something about being excited for the future and helping me have a great career path. So I am thinking I might be getting a promotion or at least they're pretty much for sure looking to get me into the upper levels of the company in the future. So I'm excited about that. I just got a promotion less than a year ago and 2 raises last year so it might be a more medium term thing but I've had what I feel are a couple of hints dropped with a little wink so it feels like maybe pretty close.

The band is doing well too, we're planning a tour out to Colorado for 2-3 weeks, there are 12-14 venues we have hookups for, so that's in the works for this Fall or Winter. Provided shit doesn't lock down again anyway.

This all sounds so awesome, congrats on the bright career path you seem to be establishing for yourself. I must say I've always admired how you seem to accomplish a lot professionally, and still maintain an active musical project. AND still party hard on top of that haha. I sometimes struggle juggling between those, can't find the equilibrium to stay with all I wanna do at once, so I end up focusing on one thing at a time cycling through different periods of intense workload, or musical commitment, or studying, or socialization. Hope to someday manage to tie it all together nicely as you seem to have done.

Going on tour sounds pretty exciting, good luck with that !

 

[Xorkoth]

I've been partying less hard, but yeah, it's awesome, my work knows I am doing the band and is okay with me working from a mobile hot spot on the road when I need to. Only reason I can do that is because I work as a computer programmer... already work from home 100% of the time and have for the past 13 years. So it's really no different to them as long as I keep doing my job. I didn't mean to lay my life out so perfectly, it was a series of decisions made for various reasons and now it's as if I had something guiding my decisions for this master plan. At this point I'm well aware of the plan and work to continue to make it happen, but it seemingly fell into my lap over the course of my 30s.

A great thing about being a musician as my second career is that socializing with friends is built into it, and so is partying.

 

[Deleted member 521610]

when the acid kicks in for myself its like a massive onslaught of infinity been thrown in my face at this point i just meditate and let the experince unfold without any judgement and get taken away to heavenly realms

 

[Buzz Lightbeer]

Cool, I miss festivals and live music so much. They are not a thing here yet, but I suspect when the winter is over they will be slowly coming back. Vaccination has advanced quickly and active cases decreased significantly. So I hope we can see a slow return to normal this summer, or something close to that. Enjoy the festival ! Are you taking any psychedelics ? Or playing it safe?

No drugs, maybe some beers at most. I didn't take my Seroquel and Ritalin so there'll be enough chaos already.

I imagine people in your country are eager to get vaccinated? In America its been the opposite, we were doing really well but so many people are against or afraid of the vaccine that we're ramping up again, and I am really hoping we don't get back into lock downs (but it kinda seems that it's gonna end up there). It's really frustrating because a lot of people aren't even willing to wear masks in public. And we're about to re-open schools in-person.

The difference in view on the whole pandemic is really startling. I believe it's because we endured much heavier restrictions and many changes have been postponed endlessly, no idea what they're waiting for anymore. We don't wear masks anymore outside, as it should be tbh. And opening schools again is an absolute no-brainer imo. I'd think that after vaccinating all children we can go back to normal, but man, who knows.

 

[porkstock]

@Img_9999
What kind of lab work do you do? I’m also a scientist, degrees in biochemistry and i work for a small pharma company doing cell line development. I make the CHO cells that make anti-cancer drugs.

 

[Bagseed]

have had this on heavy rotation for the past few weeks. I saw those guys play an early morning set at a festival some years ago. takes me back...

 

[Jabberwocky]

have had this on heavy rotation for the past few weeks. I saw those guys play an early morning set at a festival some years ago. takes me back...

@TripSitterNZ turned me onto OTT a few months back and I’ve spent time enjoying them on every trip I’ve had since. My only complaint is that there are not enough cool videos on YouTube matched to their music. I really need something congruent to watch and trip on as I listen them.

 

[Cream Gravy?]

Man, so far as I can tell we're entering an era of shitty benzo/opioid analogues. Looking at my preferred bulk vendor the selection is shit, what they do have is overpriced... Hmph. There's more expensive vendors with higher prices that may have what I want but I ain't about to pay a 300% mark-up.

Suddenly I also recalled I haven't stocked up on amphetamines and I'd like to get a stash of those before amp IR scripts disappear too. My cousin gets amps I think... that or MPH, which I'm not keen on. I used to know so many people with amp scripts it didn't even cross my mind but now I'm fairly isolated drug wise.